Hey there, I pray dilligently for myself and for others. For every prayer I request on here, I respond to at least 3 others. I very much appreciate all of your prayers. Do not doubt that I spend my own time with God though. We were built in much the same design as God. Much as our friends can convince us to have compassion for others, so we can convince God to help others we feel bad for. He knows what we think and what we feel and he cares about those things. If it would bring us pleasure to help someone else, it would bring God pleasure to do good for them, good on your behalf because it makes you happy.
A long while ago, I came out on these forums as someone that is Homosexual. This is not an issue I want to debate, and generally I am a pretty happy person. I'm sorry I ever came out here. I thought you being christians and all, you would not want to point the finger at me so readily. I will just say in my defense that being gay and trying to be straight is just about as effective as being black and trying to be white. I have met many people that have traveled this rought, and living their life as a lie has caused families to disentegrate, children to be left alone, and wives to be left crying as their whole relationship was based on a lie, an effort to of one person to become something that God probably did not intend for them to be. As for abomination, nothing I do is a hateful or a hated thing, which is the meaning of abomination. Though some of your reactions are somewhat hateful.
Things in the bible are awsome, the bible is the light to show one to God's love and will, it is not the path that we follow though, everyone is on their own path. There is great danger in takeing the bible too literally, and more danger in hateing other people, or assuming you know what God wants for others. God may want for one person, the opposite of what he wants for another, in the very bible he has instructed people to murder, however that does not mean we should all go out and kill those we think are bad.
I am happy that you all pray for God's will to be done in my life and pray for guidance of my sole. However, do not short God of his wisdom by assuming you know what he wants and doesn't want for me. Only pray for his hand in my life, and I trust he will do great things for me.
I'm sorry to offend people. I do not mean to upset anyone, again I thank everyone for the time they take to pray for me.
BENJAMIN