"God bless"?
Your profile page says you're an atheist and you have your fingers crossed for the Trump-Kim summit. So you're an atheist who references God (presumably with at least some degree of sincerity) in Whom you don't believe and your hope is somehow tied to the superstition of finger-crossing.
I'm a psychologist and I could tell you how to handle anxiety and worry through that paradigm but I'm going to answer your questions as a Christian, through that paradigm. When I statrted to read this op I thought perhaps you were a Premillennial Dispensationalist Christian because I hadn't noted the handle and Dispies are often filled with (false) angst about the end of the world imminently occurring. I've left that content in my post for their sake.
I think you should surrender to Christ, not merely convert to Christianity.
I would encourage you to explore other eschatologies. Within Christianity, only Dispensationalism breeds the kind of distress described above. Most of the Church both now and historically has not and does not dread the future. Most of us
know Who is in charge and Whose we are and we have no fear of the future. We don't have a God Who plans the destruction of His own creation. Ours is not a God Who makes His own Church, the body of His own Son impotent and in need of rescue. We don't have a Messiah Who lets the defeated enemy usurp his kingdom.
I suggest you pick up a copy of
Francis Schaeffer's trilogy and read it.
And I would encourage you to ask yourself why you hold a worldview that causes you such distress, especially since most of us do not.
I believe scripture. I understand the truth of scripture, especially passages like the following,
Romans 8:26-39
"In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brethren; and these whom He predestined, He also called; and these whom He called, He also justified; and these whom He justified, He also glorified. What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? Who will bring a charge against God's elect? God is the one who justifies; who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us. Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? Just as it is written, 'For Your sake we are being put to death all day long; we were considered as sheep to be slaughtered.' But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
The days of the apostles being persecuted have come and gone. Christians are still persecuted but we out-number all other religions. God has and continues to keep His promises.
Nothing can separate us from the love of God that is Christ Jesus.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
"...do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body."
1 Peter 2:9-12
"...you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession, so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; for you once were not a people, but now you are the people of God; you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy. Beloved, I urge you as aliens and strangers to abstain from fleshly lusts which wage war against the soul. Keep your behavior excellent among the Gentiles, so that in the thing in which they slander you as evildoers, they may because of your good deeds, as they observe them, glorify God in the day of visitation."
Matthew 28:18-20
"All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."
You and I are not apostles like the eleven, but we are royal priests in God's holy nation chosen by God Himself. Our lives are not our own; they are
His.
Act like it.
We are adopted daughters of The Most High God who walk in the authority of the Son and the power of the Spirit, heirs to all the privilege and inheritance that is ours her and now as well as in the future.
Act like it.
Perfect love casts out fear.
Whatever does not proceed from faith is sin.
Act like it.
Shadow, Trump is not going to destroy the planet. Neither is plastic or the melting ice caps. The current angst about coronavirus is propaganda-driven hysteria. The fatality rate of that virus is currently about 3%. When it first it in the Mediterranean MERS-CoV form the fatality rate was 40%. The world is not going to hell in a hand basket and we Christians would be much more effective if the doomsayers and scaredy cats would get out of our way so we can get on with the task of making disciples of the
nations, being fruitful and subduing the earth by the Spirit with the gospel of
peace.
I believe scripture.
Matthew 13:24-30
"Jesus presented another parable to them, saying, 'The kingdom of heaven may be compared to a man who sowed good seed in his field. But while his men were sleeping, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat, and went away. But when the wheat sprouted and bore grain, then the tares became evident also. The slaves of the landowner came and said to him, 'Sir, did you not sow good seed in your field? How then does it have tares?' And he said to them, 'An enemy has done this!' The slaves said to him, 'Do you want us, then, to go and gather them up?' But he said, 'No; for while you are gathering up the tares, you may uproot the wheat with them. Allow both to grow together until the harvest; and in the time of the harvest I will say to the reapers, 'First gather up the tares and bind them in bundles to burn them up; but gather the wheat into my barn.'"
Acts 17:22-31
"Paul stood in the midst of the Areopagus and said, 'Men of Athens, I observe that you are very religious in all respects. For while I was passing through and examining the objects of your worship, I also found an altar with this inscription, 'TO AN UNKNOWN GOD.' Therefore what you worship in ignorance, this I proclaim to you. The God who made the world and all things in it, since He is Lord of heaven and earth, does not dwell in temples made with hands; nor is He served by human hands, as though He needed anything, since He Himself gives to all people life and breath and all things; and He made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined their appointed times and the boundaries of their habitation, that they would seek God..."
God has appointed
you to this time and place
and He has done so so
you would seek Him. According to Ephesians 2:10, those God saves are
His workmanship and He has created us in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them.
Act like it.
Matthew 6:25-34
"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food... seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Do not be anxious about anything. Pray and thank God when you do worry (Phil. 4:4-9).
I used to deal drugs. At first I was just a high school kid selling pot out of my car but eventually that turned into tens thousands of dollars of drugs of all kinds. I used to sell drugs in those projects outside of Baltimore used to film the show "
The Wire." I've known pimps, prostitutes, thieves, even murderers, and no end of addicts.
On one occasion I was held captive at gun point for four hours. I can assure you the end of yourself is achieved in moments like that. I've been shot at or more than one occasion but few things are as soul draining as staring down the barrel of a revolver for four hours with nothing else to do and no way out.
Today I work with abuse and trauma victims. I do it almost every day. I hear the accounts of the women who were allowed to play with daddy's ***** at the age of four later to be groomed as sex partners while mom ignores it all, and the accounts of the men who were sodomized by clergy for a decade or more, or the comabt veteran who watched a bomb go off and kill
everyone as far as he could see but not him and how he heard the lingering screams of those dismembered around him (or her). It's a hard day for me if I hear four or five of those accounts in the same day.
I wasn't the one abused or blown up.
I don't live with thieves and prostitutes any more. It's amazingly refreshing and restorative to come home to a wife who puts up with me and loves me in spite of myself. My friends are good genteel Christian men and women struggling to live holy and godly lives just like me (and presumably you). I don't have the worries I once had. I'm not worried about who's going to steal my stuff from me or how I'm going to exploit my next victim without them knowing or whether or not I'm going to get shot.....
by accident.
I am an adopted son of The Most High God and I walk in His might, not my own. I have enough on my plate to conquer the small portion of the world God brings across my path each day and I do it as victoriously as I can, given my fallen but redeemed, regenerate but still corruptible identity in Christ crucified and resurrected.
If you're living with folks who are dangerous then I recommend you move. If you're living with folks who are toxic then I recommend you move. If you're not living with folks who are toxic or dangerous then I recommend you be thankful.
my apologies for the length.