When it came to my alcohol I had to hit bottom, that place where it hurt so bad, and I felt so empty, that know matter how much I drank, I couldn't drink me a way. It didn't matter where I live or with whom, or how I dressed. No matter where I went, there I was.
It was that ace deep down in my soul that no matter how much booze I drink I couldn't make it go a way, I was chasing all the stuff outside myself to make me (be-feel-do-act-breath-numb myself) better. Maybe it's this drink or that beer, or pill, or smoke, person, this place, this me.
I was so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Thank God, Praise God; I don't have to be there anymore. That every morning I get up and I have meditation, prayer and coffee with God. That He and I will go to a A.A. meeting and I will here someone speak about God or speak Gods truth, or I might end up being of some service to someone else, I may go to a Alanon or CR meeting and be feed by His Word. It may not come out of the bible chapter and verse, but I will here it. Every morning I give that head noise to God, some days I may have to do that all day long. But that is OK, I am a live today because I have committed to living in the solution, which is God, recovery, and good orderly direction. And I work at staying out of MY PROBLEM which is I NEED to (be-do-feel-act-breath-numb myself) MEEEEE.
I Prayer that each and every one of you struggling or not, find the love of God and the joy in doing HIS will and the freedom of SELF, in JESUS NAME,
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It was that ace deep down in my soul that no matter how much booze I drink I couldn't make it go a way, I was chasing all the stuff outside myself to make me (be-feel-do-act-breath-numb myself) better. Maybe it's this drink or that beer, or pill, or smoke, person, this place, this me.
I was so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Thank God, Praise God; I don't have to be there anymore. That every morning I get up and I have meditation, prayer and coffee with God. That He and I will go to a A.A. meeting and I will here someone speak about God or speak Gods truth, or I might end up being of some service to someone else, I may go to a Alanon or CR meeting and be feed by His Word. It may not come out of the bible chapter and verse, but I will here it. Every morning I give that head noise to God, some days I may have to do that all day long. But that is OK, I am a live today because I have committed to living in the solution, which is God, recovery, and good orderly direction. And I work at staying out of MY PROBLEM which is I NEED to (be-do-feel-act-breath-numb myself) MEEEEE.
I Prayer that each and every one of you struggling or not, find the love of God and the joy in doing HIS will and the freedom of SELF, in JESUS NAME,
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