"Laziness"

[BrokenGhost]

Im a rapid-cycle hypo-manic. I have a great routine setup with my kids and fiancee, where I stay home and take care of the kids as she goes to work. The problem is, with her 6 months preganant, they are cutting her hours back as well soon, next week to be exact. Now, I dont do well working, never have; I tend to sabotage my jobs because I dont like the things that I must do for work since I'm uneducated. I have been very lucky and been doing good with no meds for almost a year now. Im afraid that if I start messing iwht my routine now, it could create issues and possibly cause a manic relapse. Does anyone know if this is a valid concern?

 

[PrairieGurl]

Im a rapid-cycle hypo-manic. I have a great routine setup with my kids and fiancee, where I stay home and take care of the kids as she goes to work. The problem is, with her 6 months preganant, they are cutting her hours back as well soon, next week to be exact. Now, I dont do well working, never have; I tend to sabotage my jobs because I dont like the things that I must do for work since I'm uneducated. I have been very lucky and been doing good with no meds for almost a year now. Im afraid that if I start messing iwht my routine now, it could create issues and possibly cause a manic relapse. Does anyone know if this is a valid concern?

Hey Zerocipher,

Do you have a good doc you can take your concerns to?
I understand the "sabotageing your jobs" it's a "survival tacktic". Although...sometimes we just have to deal with the fact we won't like all the things we must do for work.
You know even people who do not suffer as "we" do, do not deal well at all when they must change their routine.
I hope you find the answer your looking for.
By your "title Laziness", do you mean, you think you're lazy ??

 

[BrokenGhost]

I have no doc because I have no med insurance. It bothers me alot at times that I dont work, makes me feel useless and lazy, but everytime I ever go and get a job, it doesnt last long anyway, and I end up feeling even worse after failing yet once again.

 

[PrairieGurl]

I have no doc because I have no med insurance. It bothers me alot at times that I dont work, makes me feel useless and lazy, but everytime I ever go and get a job, it doesnt last long anyway, and I end up feeling even worse after failing yet once again.

Oh, but you are "working" Zerocipher !!! You are caring for children and that is an EXTREMLY important job! (although I know you are thinking about "outside work"). You ARE helping your girlfriend in a major way! How could she work if you didn't care for the children? Don't let the lies make you feel "usleless & lazy"!
What kind of jobs do you do?

 

[BrokenGhost]

I have no kind of education that makes it possible to get a real decent paying job. I speant many years in the grips of drugs and incarceration before I was finally able to pull it together and start cleaning my act up. I worry that if I push things to hard I may relapse and fall back into that kind of life.

 

[PrairieGurl]

I have no kind of education that makes it possible to get a real decent paying job. I speant many years in the grips of drugs and incarceration before I was finally able to pull it together and start cleaning my act up. I worry that if I push things to hard I may relapse and fall back into that kind of life.

Even though I do have an education...I nearly lost my job due to alcohol and Rx drug addiction. I have been off work on disabilty since March 2006. I thought I was ready to go back to work and yet my doc said it was too soon. I went back to work anyway and DID relapse, in a major way. I now have to be off work longer as a result of my choice. It IS hard to be at home fighting with the thought of not being "useful", perse.

Don't "push things too hard" but DO live life one day at a time. (I used to think this saying was "bunk"...till I tried it...WHAT A RELIEF!!!) Don't "worry" about tomorrow, as you can not do anything about it. And don't think of the past as it's done and can not be changed. Ask God to open the door to a new job opportunity and help you become ready when that opportunity comes along.

 

[Darrell2006]

Im a rapid-cycle hypo-manic. I have a great routine setup with my kids and fiancee, where I stay home and take care of the kids as she goes to work. The problem is, with her 6 months preganant, they are cutting her hours back as well soon, next week to be exact. Now, I dont do well working, never have; I tend to sabotage my jobs because I dont like the things that I must do for work since I'm uneducated. I have been very lucky and been doing good with no meds for almost a year now. Im afraid that if I start messing iwht my routine now, it could create issues and possibly cause a manic relapse. Does anyone know if this is a valid concern?

I'm diagnosed bipolar 2 rapid cycler, I can't tell you what to do, but my experience is I had only been able to keep uneducated jobs like working at pizza places, or grill cook at resteraunts, and that was when I was stable on meds, but I have been most succesful and progressing when I was self employed and mostly working out of my home and shop/garage. You say your uneducated, but do you have any talents or creative ideas that you could work out of your home or on the computer.
And yes I do think your concern is valid, when I started working outside the home I almost always started part time, and many times stayed part time work outside the house, and part time with my buisness at home.

Daryl

 

[walshclan]

ZeroCipher:

Have you talked it over with your fiancee. Does she expect you to find a job? If she does, does she realize what she is asking? I realize that she is pregnant and she has to be careful of her stress too but we have to balance what's best for everyone.

If you had to work what kind of job would you like to do? It seems that you are quite a computer geek. Could you do something with computers that you wouldn't feel the need to sabotage because you loved it so much?

I am firmly convinced that if you had to you could work for as long as needed with the help of Jesus Christ. If we lean on him we can do what we couldn't before.

Connie