Just.....??????

[PrairieGurl]

So here I sit ing, not really knowing why.

I'm typing this cause I want to feel like I'm "sharing" with others who can truely understand. And who seem to care. People who pray for others.

I don't know if this emotional "break down" is due to the ugle head of a manic episode raising it's head, only 2 months sober living, going back into full time work for the whole 8 hours with no naps and places to hide and cry. I do know I will miss this forum extremely. Not being able to come here at 'a drop of a hat' will be hard. It's kinda like grieving a very special friend moving away. This place has helped, encouraged and so many other blessings bestoyed upon me thru this site. Reading the posts of those who are suffering, who experience things I have and seeing answered prayer. This was the first place I came to after detox and being diagnosed with b/p...you friends were the first I 'talked' to, the first I was totally honest with....THANK YOU!!!

I don't want it to be all about me, and when I sense to pray for one of you...I certainly will, be assured of that. My hope...this too shall pass.

Wendy

 

[Abigayle's Legacy]

So here I sit ing, not really knowing why.

I'm typing this cause I want to feel like I'm "sharing" with others who can truely understand. And who seem to care. People who pray for others.

I don't know if this emotional "break down" is due to the ugle head of a manic episode raising it's head, only 2 months sober living, going back into full time work for the whole 8 hours with no naps and places to hide and cry. I do know I will miss this forum extremely. Not being able to come here at 'a drop of a hat' will be hard. It's kinda like grieving a very special friend moving away. This place has helped, encouraged and so many other blessings bestoyed upon me thru this site. Reading the posts of those who are suffering, who experience things I have and seeing answered prayer. This was the first place I came to after detox and being diagnosed with b/p...you friends were the first I 'talked' to, the first I was totally honest with....THANK YOU!!!

I don't want it to be all about me, and when I sense to pray for one of you...I certainly will, be assured of that. My hope...this too shall pass.

Wendy

My dearest sister.....time to get a cell phone and keep that life line to the CF with you by day one call to the prayer warrior that's all it will take and that warrior will cover you in prayer now and always.

 

[illudium_phosdex]

I know all too well. I was up last night bawling my eyes out and I really don't know why. That's the thing that stinks so bad about this not knowing why you feel the way you do. You are in my thoughts and prayers. And here's a big ole online hug for you.

 

[berry2000]

(((((((Wendy)))))))))
Aw girl I feel your pain. This is a hard transition. Good news is I work full time and I'm still here everyday! Not like your leaving us. You just won't be able to be on as much everyday. But I hear you loud and clear about having to go the whole day w/o being able to check up. My company used to be very small and I was able to go online at work every once in a while. Then as we got bigger I realized that wasn't such a smart idea espcially if I wanted to keep the bp a secret.

Anyways, I am sooo sorry you are sad. And i am sending you big hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Crystal~Rose]

Praying for you. I wish there were more I could do. You are such a blessing to me. I pray you find peace tonight and certainty that you are loved by many here.

 

[Darrell2006]

Wendy, Your in my prayers, and don't worry about it being all about you, cause that's not true , you have given me alot of love and support.

I pray the lord will be with you.

Your friend

Daryl (hugs and prayers for you)

 

[Abigayle's Legacy]

See lil sis everyone loves you.......how can they not!
Peekaboo I see you....LOLOLOLOL

 

[COVINABP]

Wendy,

You, have shown more care for me & others on this forum than some of my life long friends & family, please don't go on thinking that its all about you. This thread has helped me, even to realize somthing to post in the thankful thread, & I think you are the one who started that, & look how many people you have helped to realize the good in our daily lives!

You are loved sister, & I will pray for you

God Bless

William

 

[PrairieGurl]

There are no words to express my thanks for your love and prayers. I thought I had cried all I could today... but these posts have filled my heart and it's spilling out in tears (of joy and gratefulness)

At this time of nite...I know I should be sleeping, I have been sleeping so well up until tonite. My mind is spinning so fast...it makes me dizzy, but not dizzy enough to fall asleep. In the midst of this God has His prayer warriors on their knees, which I am beyond grateful for.

Our God is AWESOME And is always willing to help one of His lambs in their time of need.

s & s,
Wendy

 

[rushingwind62]

So here I sit ing, not really knowing why.

I'm typing this cause I want to feel like I'm "sharing" with others who can truely understand. And who seem to care. People who pray for others.

I don't know if this emotional "break down" is due to the ugle head of a manic episode raising it's head, only 2 months sober living, going back into full time work for the whole 8 hours with no naps and places to hide and cry. I do know I will miss this forum extremely. Not being able to come here at 'a drop of a hat' will be hard. It's kinda like grieving a very special friend moving away. This place has helped, encouraged and so many other blessings bestoyed upon me thru this site. Reading the posts of those who are suffering, who experience things I have and seeing answered prayer. This was the first place I came to after detox and being diagnosed with b/p...you friends were the first I 'talked' to, the first I was totally honest with....THANK YOU!!!

I don't want it to be all about me, and when I sense to pray for one of you...I certainly will, be assured of that. My hope...this too shall pass.

Wendy

Wendy,
Please know this, you are a blessing to us as well. When we are down you always have an encouraging word and when we need advice you are the first one there. I know it is tough going out to face the world and you feel all alone. But that is the farthest thing from the truth. We are with you and you are in our prayers. So put a smile on that face and know you have made many friends here....God Bless You....Rush

 

[walshclan]

Wendy:

In heaven we will all be able to work alongside people who are supportive of us and I think we will be able to communicate with anyone in heaven at anytime. "Beam me up Scotty." Until then we will be there for you when you get home.

God Bless,

Connie

 

[ArielHosanna]

Dear sister, I'm praying for you. I hope that Psalm 46 might help to comfort you:

God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.

Therefore we will not fear, though
the earth give way
and the mountains fall into
the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with
their surging.

There is a river whose streams
make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most
High dwells.
God is within her, she will not
fall;
God will help her at break of day,
Nations are in uproar,
kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth
melts.

The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.

Come and see the works of the
LORD,
the desolations he has brought on
the earth.

He makes wars cease to the ends of
the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters
the spear,
he burns the shields with fire.
"Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the
nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."

The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.

Wendy:

In heaven we will all be able to work alongside people who are supportive of us and I think we will be able to communicate with anyone in heaven at anytime. "Beam me up Scotty." Until then we will be there for you when you get home.

God Bless,

Connie

 

[lemonflavor]

Praying for you. I'm confident you will adjust. You can always come here for encouragement at the end of the day.

 

[PrairieGurl]

Praying for you. I'm confident you will adjust. You can always come here for encouragement at the end of the day.

And here I am at the end of the day Lemonflavor, feeling surrounded by friends.

Thank you for your prayers (all of you) and encouraging words. How truely blessed I am.

 

[PrairieGurl]

Wendy:

In heaven we will all be able to work alongside people who are supportive of us and I think we will be able to communicate with anyone in heaven at anytime. "Beam me up Scotty." Until then we will be there for you when you get home.

God Bless,

Connie

Connie...I almost pray daily to be "beamed up"!!!
Yep...sweet harmony in Heaven someday!
Thanks for "being here when I get home"

s & s,
Wendy

 

[PrairieGurl]

Grateful that our Heavenly Father has once again proved His love and provisions!!!

Since I am on earth...I must someday realize (prayerfully sooner than later ) that there will be many of "those ick days" while here.

Today was a challenge, and yet as each moment passed I felt peace and contentment (yes the 1st hour I thought I might just explode, ending up with little pieces of myself all over the walls ) but after asking the Lord again that I was there because of Him (for He blessed me with this job I so enjoy (without the union politics) and I am there for Him...the rest of the day "sailed smoothly".
I know that prayers were being lifted on my behalf! Thank you for being a part of my answered prayer.

s & s,
Your Grateful Friend,
Wendy

 

[walshclan]

Wendy:

So happy to hear you didn't explode all over the walls. I'm also glad you were able to call on the Lord. What a testimony!! Praise The Lord!!! I am so blessed to be your friend. If we could all call on the Lord when we were in such situations the world would be a wonderful place.

Connie

 

[Abigayle's Legacy]

Newtons law of gravity....................... Gabby yesterday and

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and so the Eagle has landed.

 

[walshclan]

I'm so sorry Gabby. Are you okay? I will pray that you wake up feeling better. Take care. Sleep well.

God Bless,

Connie

 

[Abigayle's Legacy]

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