Man, He made you. Let's get a sense of proportion here. Besides, the Bible itself says that love keeps no account of wrongs. God is love, and His love is perfect. You don't need to worry about control, resentment, etc. That was my comment on my worthiness. God does not reproach.
Whatever turned you against Him, I can guarantee it wasn't an accurate reflection of Him. Even the church misrepresents Him, and not infrequently. He even abundantly warned us it would. He is not behind the mess that this world is, and has done everything possible - far more than He needed to do - to provide the solution.
What's more, I can also guarantee that He cares about whatever hurts or offenses you have suffered, and wants to heal them. Someday He will wipe away every tear. When the stumbling blocks come, don't run away from Him, run toward Him.