Earlier today I was walking in the woods with my dogs when I came across the body of a large almost mature gosling. I noticed that it was covered in flies. I didn't even realize, but it was actually still alive! It was tragically injured from the leg & part of the chest and on closer inspection I saw that its leg was deformed & decomposing as well as part of its chest. There is no way this poor little thing would survive. It quickly scrambled into the water and i followed it around for the some time. Its leg was unable to be used and it clearly couldn't paddle that leg at all. It kept trying to come up onto dry land, presumably to die. I was scared and couldn't let this poor bird suffer. I waited until it got onto dry land and finally caught up with it. I called my dad and he told me that i should just kill it because it was going to die anyway. I LOVE animals SO much in fact I'm training to become a veterinary technician so this is something I'm going to have to deal with in the future. So, I took a giant rock and....struck it. Multiple times. Seemingly countless time. The flashbacks are still in my head right now. It didn't die the first time but stumbled around as I continued to quickly strike at its head. Still it wouldn't die. I started to scream & cry and hitting it as hard as I could aiming exactly at the head. It started to smash the brain & the eyeball popped out as well as the brains. Blood and brains splattered all over my chest, arms & legs. I was crying like mad. This was the most tragic thing I've ever done in my life...and I feel like I did the wrong thing! :'-( I'm so sad right now and I feel like I really messed up. What if it COULD have been saved?! What if I had taken it to the vet?!? Why didn't I do that!!!!!!! I mean, I had thought about it....but I didn't think the vet would take in a wild animal and I didn't want the worms, bugs & nasty little creatures consuming it to get all over my dogs & car because I didn't want them to contract a disease. Also, I didn't have any of the necessary equipment to catch it & hold onto it. Ohhhhh man 
I'm almost about to cry just typing this. I read online that vets COULD help wild animals!!!!! I seriously messed up but i couldn't...i just did what I thought was right at the time. Please, someone help me & help me feel like I did the right thing...and if I didn't, then just give me the truth....
I'm almost about to cry just typing this. I read online that vets COULD help wild animals!!!!! I seriously messed up but i couldn't...i just did what I thought was right at the time. Please, someone help me & help me feel like I did the right thing...and if I didn't, then just give me the truth....
