just need to get it out

[Jessica Lauren]

I just feel like I need to share my story of sexual assault with some people that aren't in my normal circle. I attended a college for Fall '06 and I went to a party with my friend who was drunk. I only went to the party because she wouldn't give up about going, and it wasn't safe for her to go alone. Well, she ended up leaving me there alone, and when I called her to see where she was, she was on her way back to campus and wouldn't come back. So, she sent a "friend" of ours to come get me. I was sort of nervous because this guy kind of gets crazy when he's drunk, but I wasn't sure if he had been drinking, and I really wanted to get back. So, he came... and sure enough was drunk. He dragged me upstairs in the house the party was at, with the guys cheering him on, and there he raped me. I honestly wish I was drunk or something during this, because the pain would be a lot easier to deal with. Maybe I wouldn't remember it all. Its really hard to ignore physical pain the next day. Now, its even hard to fake being okay with hugging people.... I don't talk about this with anyone, but my family does know as I left that college for another here at home.

 

[BrokenForHim]

it must have been hard to write that hun...just know that your not alone and I'm praying for you beautiful

 

[tapero]

Thank you for telling your story. God bless you hon.

 

[Taylor43]

Thankyou for sharing big hugs to you hun. I know it was tough but good job and i am praying for you to feel Gods comfort.
Love
Taylor

 

[Amin]

Hi,
I'm sorry that you had to endure this.
Especially from someone you thought you could at least trust to get you home.
Have you talked with anyone about this.
Other people should know what he's like.
It's not right for you at all to endure such pain like this.
I'll be praying for you also.
I honestly feel someone should know what he did.
God Bless You and Keep You Safe.
Chuck.

 

[BigToe]

I'm glad you got out of a situation that made you uncomfy and found a different school to go to. That is a huge step that many people don't take for a long time. You're taking care of yourself and all anyone can do is be proud of you for that. If you ever need anyone to chat with, know you aren't alone and there are several of us that are more than willing to talk to you about anything and everything.

 

[LazeyWinde]

I'm sorry that you had to go through that. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[JoyforJESUS]

My prayers and thoughts are with you.

I hope that you will talk with someone professionally. No one should carry that burden around with them.

I am so sorry that you went through that. Bless you.
And from a mom, I would hope that you trust That a mom loves unconditionally.

joy

 

[Jessica Lauren]

Thank you all for your support and prayers. It means a lot. <3

 

[JoyforJESUS]

keeping you in thought and prayer. jfj

 

[pennsyginny]

I was raped when I was 28 and whether it was because I had kept silent so many years about my childhood abuse, whether I blamed myself, or just self-loathing, I kept silent for 20 years. I am so glad you were able to tell your family and that you were able to remove yourself from your abuser's circle. IT is too bad that he is not facing charges but I certainly am not one to be able to say much about that.
Are you getting any professional help?
I still have trouble talking about my rape in therapy but know that someday, in God's timing, I will be able to deal with it.
I wish you the peace that Jesus can give and pray for you to have the strength that only he can give. Just remember, it was not your fauly and do not blame yourself.
Love in Christ
Pennsyginny

 

[cherishmj]

You have so much strength and courage in sharing your story with us. I am so sorry that you had to experience such a terrible thing. You are very brave to leave that college and begin again at another. Thank you for sharing your story with us, I hope that it is helpful on your road to healing.

~Cherish

 

[hairettic]

praying for you.

 

[HeyJupiter]

you are so brave for sharing your story, i hope you know it was not your fault. ((((HUGS)))))