just feeling worse

[lapdog4]

Please keep me in prayers. Sicne the car wreck I now feel like I am locked in a 8 X 12 prison cell (and to pay off the ticket Igot for the wreck, since I dont have money, I will have to set 2 days in jail to pay the fine. (they give 125 per day to set it out) The pain is horrid, I can not afford to go to another Odc (ER doc gave me motrin) My daughter still rages and uses drugs. We are still fighting with what little payments we can and I am still supposed to testify against Peanut COrp of America. DOn like you, internet about to be shut off. I am just done. I don't blame all my wows on being a whsitleblower, I have screwed up since then, but I just can not take anymore, if one more person tells me about the book of Job (I did a research paper on Job) I wll scream, he was a much better man than I and his friends turned on him, just as i lost most of mine. I need a miracle and I need it now.
I dont talk much on phone anymore, just one person. God I have begged prayed, studied, asked for prayer and thing just keep getting worse. No AC in house. I live in a tiny town and have fibromyalgia, also. Have not slep twell in days. I am loosing it. For the 1st time I say, I turned in a Peanut plant that killed people and almost regret it. Organizations used my name for their profit while I live in poverty. No Churches or can help. sigh I am just done. You know the trial all of it. I really wish the wreck had killed me, at least my family would have gotten money (I only had liability, but did have death insurance for me) and the whole world would be better off.

 

[ShouldaWouldaCoulda]

Do you have an attorney? There must be someone you can turn to that can give you immediate assistance in all this.

 

[lapdog4]

I have tried everything, the brakes failed, so to go to court (you dont get a public defender on cases involving fines) no responses wits ends

 

[Ash8676]

Lord, send him all the help he needs and allow things in his life to get better. Be there for him and show him you are listening, that you will be there every step of the way. Send him your love, peace, comfort and strength. I pray for this, in Jesus name, Amen.

 

[Jesse2014]

 

[LoveConquers]

Praying for your peace and wisdom

 

[lapdog4]

ecause I was a whsitleblower agaonst Peanut Corp of America, I cant get a job, I cant support my family, hell who would want to be around a loser like me anyway, i just give up. I really wished I had died in that wreck, wofe would not feel like she has to stay and I would no longer be a burden to the world. No good deed goes unpunished. The Compnay I turned in , still flying their jets, not even being prosecuted for the 9 people they killed, just fraud charges, and I get to live the rest of life in poverty and depression, and I am so sick of hearing about the book of JOB , I did a research paper on Job, if I were that strong I would be something else. (everyone expects me to be that strong and I am not) no good deed goes unpunished huh. The evil ones lives care free, I have to go to jail for a traffic ticket. All about the almighty $, and Christians would be the 1st to persecute me when I line up at the food bank (because all poor peple are evil)

 

[Jesse2014]

 

[Ash8676]

Lord, do not let him suffer, for doing the right thing and exposing the truth. Let him get any help he needs and show him you are listening to any prayers he says or others say from him. Be there for him and show him you will be there every step of the way. Send him your love, peace, comfort and strength. I pray for this, in Jesus name, Amen.