Just feel so down

[katylees]

I'm sorry for coming here again. It's just i don't want to go on any more. I don't feel i can handle all this, i'm too weak, i just want to sleep all the time. I feel hopeless.

I can't get to sleep early, 4 a.m. last night. Was up at 9. Tired but restless. I have an appointment this afternoon with my psych - i don't wanna go. She'll just sit and ask me questions and i just won't know what to say.

*can't think staight* I just want someone .. here .. just to listen .. just to hold me .. someone who understands ..

 

[newyorknewyork]

Don't apologise. You've done nothing wrong!



PM me and we can chat.. ill listen

 

[bfly]

I'm sorry for coming here again. It's just i don't want to go on any more. I don't feel i can handle all this, i'm too weak, i just want to sleep all the time. I feel hopeless.

I can't get to sleep early, 4 a.m. last night. Was up at 9. Tired but restless. I have an appointment this afternoon with my psych - i don't wanna go. She'll just sit and ask me questions and i just won't know what to say.

*can't think staight* I just want someone .. here .. just to listen .. just to hold me .. someone who understands ..

Good morning, Katylees

You are most welcome here. If it wasn't for people like you and me, this forum would not need to be here. We all need someone to talk with and help us get through rough times.

I have been looking up through the bottom many times in my life so I can understand the hopeless way you are expressing.

I don't know what is going on in your life at the moment but seems you are making the right steps to help yourself by seeing your doctor.

Please know our hands may not touch but we can reach out with out heart and touch each other. I don't think God made us to be strong and never need each other. He made us weak so we would need each other and lift each other up. Funny how God made us to need each other.

Many times in my life, I have felt so alone even tho I had family with and around me. I didn't want to worry them.

You can PM me and I will be so glad to talk with you. I feel so helpless to help you because I don't know anything about you.
Let us just pray: Father, we know you know all things and Katy needs you more than ever, I lift her up to you and ask that you reach your big arms and gather her in them. Hold her Father, Let her know she will never be alone. Father, she can't sleep and her mind is not clear, please just give her a calmness and a peace that passes all understanding. Father she needs strength and courage to build her back up. Lord, let her be still and know that you are with her, she is not alone and we at this forum are praying for her and lifting her up to you. In Jesus name, I pray. amen

Katy, believe in yourself and be determined in your heart that you will overcome this. No matter what the situation is, know that you are a good person, you will become strong again and you will be a blessing to others on this forum just as you have been in the past. There is much work to be done here and you will continue to help other just as they have help you.

I hope I have helped some. Please keep posting so we can continue in prayer with you and we surely want to know how your doctor's visit goes.

Trying to follow the Master's foot steps, I am.
God bless and keep you my dear katy.

 

[Nachtjager]

Hey Katy, I just responded to another of your posts this morning, then found this one. Don't be afraid of your shrink, unload on her and tell her just how you feel. There are plenty of good anti-depressant meds out there, if you're not on one, I'd recommend you get on one. Some Christians don't like to recommend the meds and tell everyone to be faithful and let God work things out. I'd argue that's fine, if your stove catches on fire, don't use the fire extingquisher, pray and let God work it out (tongue in cheek there). God's allowed those pills to be invented for a reason; they help. I'm a good listener, PM me if you like, you're not alone, there are a lot of us out here with really big, dark, scary issues hanging over us. We exist in enemy territory, the world is the devil's playground, and we must remember that. Stay faithful and KNOW that these things run in cycles. You may be very depressed and down now, but I assure you, it WILL get better. Hang on, and if you need to unload, just let off some steam in my direction. Oh yes, and if you're living in a black-and-white world, watch out for those colored apples! Take care and God bless!

 

[katylees]

hey. I am so grateful of you for those lovely helpful responses. I will take the time now to respond to all of you through PM. Thank you. (will be toimorrow though or later)

Ooo just been to see my Psych ..and well it was pointless ..takes me 20 minutes to walk there and my appointment was supposed to be 50 ..but it lasted 3 (and im not exaggerating). The conversation consisted of what i did the last 5 weeks and when my mood is lower or better.. then i said im bak home over the summer so she made an appointment for september ..and that was it?!?! FOR F*CK SAKE (Sorry) it jus makes me so angry.. i turn up after walking there.. stay for 3 mins then have to walk back .. in the HOT SWEATY weather *SIGH*

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

I think you need to tell her that you aren't doing any better and see what she says or find another one who would be more helpful and not waste your time.

 

[mini_mim]

Hi Katy, just wanted to say hi, I know much too well where you are, and I'm still there a lot of the time. Maybe you could try and find a new psychiatrist, or consider seeing a Christian counsellor, and keep the psychiatrist for the more 'medical' side of things if that makes sense. Whereabouts are you in the UK? I'm in Birmingham. Feel free to PM me, or add me to MSN if you want to chat. I'll be praying for you.



Miriam

 

[1SheepGirl]

I can only imagine what is going on your life to bring you to this place, but I do know from experience that healing can take place. I have a sister that was healed of her depression that she suffered for many years and I myself suffered from anxiety for many years. We are both healed with the power of Jesus Christ. It can and does happen. I do not recommend you walking away from a doctor, but if you keep the outlook that you will be healed of this and ask God to heal you the light at the end of the tunnel will become brighter. These times are a test of your faith. Its seems unfair and hopeless right now, but I am praying in the spirit for you that you would believe that you can and will be healed of this. You are His tabernacle. He dwells in you. He NEVER leaves you. You are NEVER alone. Isn't that awesome?!!?!?! Praise God!!! Your in my prayers!
In His Love, Jennifer

 

[debbee]

You are so cute Katylee, I hope you feel better and will be alright...... I need to ask you all to forgive me today and that i have been up a week now and my words were a bit foggy today and I offended some unintentionally. each time i read someones cry on here,
I just can't ignore that. i want to help so bad but i see now that i am not doing so. i search for answers and all of you seem to just ask for is a kind word and to tell it to anyone that will listen.....you find comfort in that with each other and i'm not needed. i do endtime prophecy in other forums and i might have mixed up my thoughts and i'm not about offending anyone so please, forgive me. i pray i sleep in a little bit. you all can take away my blessings too. Take care now, Deb~

 

[debbee]

I assumed I offended someone because I thought my posting privaledge was locked. this is what lack of sleep does to a person and i see my posting is going through, but still, if i did, i'm truly sorry. yeah, i'm computer stupid and forum duh.... and i make a spectical of myself often. thought dylan was a dude because of the name, sorry Dylan. we hope your grandma will be well. i haven't learned all the things in the forum.....i have sleep apnea and severe insomnia....and yes, it does feel like no one cares about it. no one talks to me but my pity party will be over when i sleep. Deb~

 

[1SheepGirl]

I assumed I offended someone because I thought my posting privaledge was locked. this is what lack of sleep does to a person and i see my posting is going through, but still, if i did, i'm truly sorry. yeah, i'm computer stupid and forum duh.... and i make a spectical of myself often. thought dylan was a dude because of the name, sorry Dylan. we hope your grandma will be well. i haven't learned all the things in the forum.....i have sleep apnea and severe insomnia....and yes, it does feel like no one cares about it. no one talks to me but my pity party will be over when i sleep. Deb~

Rest Debbee...rest. Your fine hon.

 

[debbee]

I think I can now. 5 days..... I have ambiem but i could die by not waking up in case i stopped breathing. sleepingpills are not to be used but i'm up like this without them. thank you for the comfort in my weak moment. Deb~

 

[JohnR7]

.. someone who understands ..

Jesus understands far better then you will ever know. He always has the solutions. He is always there to guide us and lead us in the way that we are to go.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

hi katy,you make sense to me and how I CAN be. that thought process between you and your shrink I know all too well. I dreaded going to mine. I would become physically ill and actually wish for a car wreck knowing I had to go because you give your all and they seem to sit.SIT and write. then I found a real doc. that went away. this dr never has me discuss my past girlfriend and her death.


you may benefit from a HUG.

 

[katylees]

Wow so many replies. Thank you all .ArmouredSaint ..*hug* thank you.

Debee ..I hope you have had some rest, res rest rest is all i can say. I am thinking of you and i do care about you. *hug*

 

[Maharg]

for Katylees.

 

[debbee]

Hi Kat, what's up today? my sleep apnea causes my insomina and pms +pre "old woman syndrome" we woman all look forward to. i researched and sleep apnea is causing alot of it. I know I get weak moments myself, and it has nothing to do with how spiritual of a christian one is, but alot of factors in this old body we have
thanks for the hug. thats all we sometimes need isn't it, a hug and someone to just listen. i get my overload by writing and sometimes deleting afterwards. its a good therapy for releasing that junk on your mind. and your thoughts . then go back and review down the road what you were thinking talk to you soon, DEB~