Jesus and Brokenness

[Bluerose31]

I read some of Job today. I was thinking about how broken Job must have felt. Today I felt broken too. I thought about how I am disabled and that I do not have a job right now and that my life seems very small. I at moments wonder if Jesus sees me. I know he has a heart for the hurting and outcasts. I feel like a hurting outcast in a lot of ways. I am grateful for Christian Forums, where I feel safe. I feel a lot like Job. I was praying to Jesus and asking why I have had the experience of being tortured. I felt Jesus tell me that I will never fully understand why I was tortured but it was likely because the torturers were Satanist and did not like good people or good things. Jesus reminded me I had been forced to destroy many Bibles. Jesus helped me understand that Satanism is a religion that leads people astray and makes them very evil. Jesus let me know that likely I was tortured because goodness was and is important to me. I feel that like Job, one day I will receive back everything the devil took from me. I know the devil wanted to destroy me till I was warped beyond repair. I know Jesus will defeat the devil in my life. My torturers had become like satan because they worship him. I know satan is happy that I have suffered so much, but he is not happy that I am a Christian now and that I have Christian Forums and that I am slowly healing.

 

[paul becke]

I'm sure your right in your analysis, Bluerose. Keep fighting the good fight ! I believe I'm, also, suffering the attentions of satanists, ones I know are working for (some of them belonging to) the Dirty Tricks Dept of our UK Intelligence Services. You'd have to be depraved to do a job like that.

 

[Bluerose31]

I'm sure your right in your analysis, Bluerose. Keep fighting the good fight ! I believe I'm, also, suffering the attentions of satanists, ones I know are working for (some of them belonging to) the Dirty Tricks Dept of our UK Intelligence Services. You'd have to be depraved to do a job like that.

Thank you for saying for me to fight the good fight Jesus is holding me up. God bless you.

 

[GTW27]

I read some of Job today. I was thinking about how broken Job must have felt. Today I felt broken too. I thought about how I am disabled and that I do not have a job right now and that my life seems very small. I at moments wonder if Jesus sees me. I know he has a heart for the hurting and outcasts. I feel like a hurting outcast in a lot of ways. I am grateful for Christian Forums, where I feel safe. I feel a lot like Job. I was praying to Jesus and asking why I have had the experience of being tortured. I felt Jesus tell me that I will never fully understand why I was tortured but it was likely because the torturers were Satanist and did not like good people or good things. Jesus reminded me I had been forced to destroy many Bibles. Jesus helped me understand that Satanism is a religion that leads people astray and makes them very evil. Jesus let me know that likely I was tortured because goodness was and is important to me. I feel that like Job, one day I will receive back everything the devil took from me. I know the devil wanted to destroy me till I was warped beyond repair. I know Jesus will defeat the devil in my life. My torturers had become like satan because they worship him. I know satan is happy that I have suffered so much, but he is not happy that I am a Christian now and that I have Christian Forums and that I am slowly healing.

Bluerose, I have found that the ones that satan have made to suffer the most, end up being very effective serving The Lord later. You see, The Lord always turns what was meant for evil, into Good. I can not wait (For your sake) the day that is coming when His Joy fills you to overflowing, and a peace that surpasses all understanding rest upon you. Then when you go out, and people see this in you, you can say, This is what Jesus has done for me. If He did that for me, truly He will do this for you.

 

[Bluerose31]

Bluerose, I have found that the ones that satan have made to suffer the most, end up being very effective serving The Lord later. You see, The Lord always turns what was meant for evil, into Good. I can not wait (For your sake) the day that is coming when His Joy fills you to overflowing, and a peace that surpasses all understanding rest upon you. Then when you go out, and people see this in you, you can say, This is what Jesus has done for me. If He did that for me, truly He will do this for you.

Thank you for this encouragement and for your kind words. God bless you. I cant wait for the day when I feel the peace that surpasses all understanding and that God turns the evil I have experienced into good. Thank you so much.