One of those weeks, where the doubt, the skepticism come creeping in. It happens every couple of weeks.
The questions flood in, i try to answer them, but never to my own satisfaction.
But this time it's different. I've been trying to think about religion as little as possible. All it does is leave me confused, and somewhat miserable.
Everytime I think about my faith, and christinity in general, all I can think of is people I know, People i care about, who don't beleive, burning and suffering. They don't deserve it, they're good people, but their doomed to it for eternity.
I see so many people who don't beleive, just like me and the rest of us, who because they made one poor mistake when making a choice about wha they beleive, it some how makes us more worthy than them to enter the kingdom of heaven. That's not justice.
I've reached a point I only hoped I'd never reach. What I wish was true, has no bearing on what it. But I can hope.
at this point, and as of now, and is subject to change in the future, I hope we as christians are wrong. I hope were all wrong. I hope athiests are wrong, and the muslims, and the hindus.
I hope and wish for an afterlife were noone suffers. I hope after this, there is nothing but happiness for everyone, whatever there happiness maybe. A perfect world for everyone in it. Where Athiests, budhists, and christians, and everone else goes, no matter what they did in their past life. Live and let die, Forgive and forget. No matter what.
I'll probably get flamed an tons of angry messages about this, but I don't know how else to describe this.
I know a person at my school, who is an agnostic. they want to beleive, and find it possible that there is God. Just looking for answers. They can;t be sure about anything someone tell them that came from a "holy book". every religion does that. I don't blame them. They're a good person, never hamred anyone in their lifetime, but just because they couldn't be sure, they're going to be punished for their cautiousness and wanting to make sure waht the real answer was.
This isn't about me anymore, it's about the poor souls who are just trying to find the right answer, never acccepting an absolute, because there is so much to doubt. And then there are those who come so close to believing, but pass away before. Imagain a man, a day away from truly acceptiing Christ and God, but one day before, he gets hit by a bus, and dies, before being able to be saved. Where's the Justice in that?
Why should I get to go to Heaven when none of these people who are btter than me in almost every way in the good work they do, just because I take the word of a book that anyone could doubt without real concrete proof for them to believe.
What's the point of being saved, a survivor, when everyone you know and love is dying all around you. I mean, other than the fact that you aren't burning in hell of course, which in it's own is how I'd like to keep it.
This should'nt be a matter or not we accept Christ as our savior. Forgiveness should be a one way thing. Christ did for our sins, and that should be the end of it. after that we should all be saved.
That's how it would work in this little perfect world of mine. But what does that matter when faced with reality.
But then again in my mind, sin shouldn't exist at all. Born with Sin? Yeah, that's fair.
It;s funny how this has actually been consuming all of my thoughts. All I can do is think think and think about all of this. I feel so wiped out by it. Can't think of anything else. So tormenting.
I'm going to bed.
The questions flood in, i try to answer them, but never to my own satisfaction.
But this time it's different. I've been trying to think about religion as little as possible. All it does is leave me confused, and somewhat miserable.
Everytime I think about my faith, and christinity in general, all I can think of is people I know, People i care about, who don't beleive, burning and suffering. They don't deserve it, they're good people, but their doomed to it for eternity.
I see so many people who don't beleive, just like me and the rest of us, who because they made one poor mistake when making a choice about wha they beleive, it some how makes us more worthy than them to enter the kingdom of heaven. That's not justice.
I've reached a point I only hoped I'd never reach. What I wish was true, has no bearing on what it. But I can hope.
at this point, and as of now, and is subject to change in the future, I hope we as christians are wrong. I hope were all wrong. I hope athiests are wrong, and the muslims, and the hindus.
I hope and wish for an afterlife were noone suffers. I hope after this, there is nothing but happiness for everyone, whatever there happiness maybe. A perfect world for everyone in it. Where Athiests, budhists, and christians, and everone else goes, no matter what they did in their past life. Live and let die, Forgive and forget. No matter what.
I'll probably get flamed an tons of angry messages about this, but I don't know how else to describe this.
I know a person at my school, who is an agnostic. they want to beleive, and find it possible that there is God. Just looking for answers. They can;t be sure about anything someone tell them that came from a "holy book". every religion does that. I don't blame them. They're a good person, never hamred anyone in their lifetime, but just because they couldn't be sure, they're going to be punished for their cautiousness and wanting to make sure waht the real answer was.
This isn't about me anymore, it's about the poor souls who are just trying to find the right answer, never acccepting an absolute, because there is so much to doubt. And then there are those who come so close to believing, but pass away before. Imagain a man, a day away from truly acceptiing Christ and God, but one day before, he gets hit by a bus, and dies, before being able to be saved. Where's the Justice in that?
Why should I get to go to Heaven when none of these people who are btter than me in almost every way in the good work they do, just because I take the word of a book that anyone could doubt without real concrete proof for them to believe.
What's the point of being saved, a survivor, when everyone you know and love is dying all around you. I mean, other than the fact that you aren't burning in hell of course, which in it's own is how I'd like to keep it.
This should'nt be a matter or not we accept Christ as our savior. Forgiveness should be a one way thing. Christ did for our sins, and that should be the end of it. after that we should all be saved.
That's how it would work in this little perfect world of mine. But what does that matter when faced with reality.
But then again in my mind, sin shouldn't exist at all. Born with Sin? Yeah, that's fair.
It;s funny how this has actually been consuming all of my thoughts. All I can do is think think and think about all of this. I feel so wiped out by it. Can't think of anything else. So tormenting.
I'm going to bed.