It's coming back...

[aca_rev55]

I've dealt with depression in the past... "clinical" or whatever. I was diagnosed with it my freshman year (I'm a senior now). I was prescribed medication, went to a hospital, recovered, made friends, moved to an alternative high school, got better grades, and have been doing well. Most of the problem was that I have ADD, and it kept me from doing well in school... didn't know I had it at the time, so it wasn't treated and I kept failing. After I got meds for it, things immediately got better. My mood got better, and I believe I was genuinely a happy person. But this year I can't be on medication... and even though I know a lot of changes have to be made on your own, the meds really helped me out with stuff.

For some reason, things aren't as smooth anymore. I'm not "happy" anymore... I'm feeling tired all of the time. I have no motivation or energy to do anything. Even the things that I loved before, I just don't ever feel like doing anything. My phone rings and it's my best friend... I don't feel like answering, because I don't feel like talking, because I don't feel like hanging out.
I really can't slip this year... if I mess up just a little bit, I could jeopardize my chances of graduating on time (I'm super credit deficient; depression issues and such freshman/sophomore year gave me problems with passing classes). But I can't go see a doctor, or go back on medication because the Air Force doesn't allow that. I need to prove I'm okay without therapy and medication.

So I guess right now I'm just sort of venting my frustrations. I'm sick of not being happy. It screwed me over in the beginning of high school, and now it's giving me hassle at the end of high school. Guess I'm just annoyed that when I finally thought I was "over" my depression, and a really happy person... everything starts to suck again. I feel like my life is some sort of joke, and I'm the punchline.

BLAH

 

[RaddMadd]

hey rev! well it seems that the meds are what you need. but since the air force doesnt' allow it, i'd talk that over with a doctor and figure out exactly what you should do

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[aca_rev55]

hey rev! well it seems that the meds are what you need. but since the air force doesnt' allow it, i'd talk that over with a doctor and figure out exactly what you should do

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Thanks, Radd. I appreciate the support!

 

[praying]

I've dealt with depression in the past... "clinical" or whatever. I was diagnosed with it my freshman year (I'm a senior now). I was prescribed medication, went to a hospital, recovered, made friends, moved to an alternative high school, got better grades, and have been doing well. Most of the problem was that I have ADD, and it kept me from doing well in school... didn't know I had it at the time, so it wasn't treated and I kept failing. After I got meds for it, things immediately got better. My mood got better, and I believe I was genuinely a happy person. But this year I can't be on medication... and even though I know a lot of changes have to be made on your own, the meds really helped me out with stuff.

For some reason, things aren't as smooth anymore. I'm not "happy" anymore... I'm feeling tired all of the time. I have no motivation or energy to do anything. Even the things that I loved before, I just don't ever feel like doing anything. My phone rings and it's my best friend... I don't feel like answering, because I don't feel like talking, because I don't feel like hanging out.
I really can't slip this year... if I mess up just a little bit, I could jeopardize my chances of graduating on time (I'm super credit deficient; depression issues and such freshman/sophomore year gave me problems with passing classes). But I can't go see a doctor, or go back on medication because the Air Force doesn't allow that. I need to prove I'm okay without therapy and medication.

So I guess right now I'm just sort of venting my frustrations. I'm sick of not being happy. It screwed me over in the beginning of high school, and now it's giving me hassle at the end of high school. Guess I'm just annoyed that when I finally thought I was "over" my depression, and a really happy person... everything starts to suck again. I feel like my life is some sort of joke, and I'm the punchline.

BLAH

How do you know the Airforce does not allow people to take medications? Does your doctor.counselor whomevr know you are not taking your meds? I would talk to an airforce counselor, especially since you have expereienced a big change.

 

[aca_rev55]

How do you know the Airforce does not allow people to take medications? Does your doctor.counselor whomevr know you are not taking your meds? I would talk to an airforce counselor, especially since you have expereienced a big change.

I've already spoken with an Air Force recruiter, and you cannot be on medication for 6 months before you leave for basic training... I want to leave next year, so I can't be on them this year.
Yes, my doctors know I'm not taking my meds, because I'm no longer precribed to them.