its been almost a year since my grandfather died. It's actually my step dad's father, but my mom married him when i was 4, so i really do consider his dad my grandfather. I was very close to him, more so than my mom's dad, he was just so easy to get along with, and he had always been so healthy, until christmas of 2002 i think. Mom thought he looked really sick, that january we found out he had pancreatic cancer. The doctor said they he probably wouldnt live for more than 3 months, but God allowed my papaw to live for 9 months. The worst thing about the situation before he died is that he never talked about God, i had no idea that he had even been to church til after he died! We were up in Ohio with him when he died. My sister was about to turn 9, so she did understand, mom and dad came out of the bedroom, mom looked at me and shook her head crying, dad went over to hug my sister, she started yelling and crying "he's dead isnt he!?" i found out a few days later that he had told his brother a few weeks before that he would be ok, bc he was saved. its the only feeling of relief i have about his death. it was the first major loss ive had that i can remember. its an awful feeling to lose someone you love so much. its almost been a year and i still dont want to realize that he's gone, please pray for me, im going back to ohio in about 3 weeks.
