my frustrations in words.
"It will happen"
I remember when you suggested the thought
I laughed "would it happen? probably not"
but still the idea, it lingered and grew
I loved the idea of always being with you
I said "lets go do it" and you had agreed
but then you said more time is what you need
I waited and waited until my spirits dampened
and all you would say was "it will happen"
I hated those words and hated my home
so I pulled you aside to be alone
I told you how it hurt and made me cry
"Why won't it happen? I need to know why.
To solve all my problems you are all I need"
"It hurts so bad" I would plead and plead
you said "money's to blame and college too"
I said "then don't worry, I'll pay for you"
You refused, saying that you would pay
I knew all it meant was you would delay
I didn't understand, I felt so unloved
you knew how I hurt and it wasn't enough
I fell apart, begging you like never before
you became sad, "you're never happy anymore"
It made me scared, seeing you grieve
If I kept making you sad then you might leave
I dried my tears, pulled myself back together
You know I've felt this for what seems like forever
So I'll simply, just quielty continue to wait
knowing you purposely stay in this state
I'll pretend to be strong just to cry at night
say it doesn't matter cause "it will happen" right?
"It will happen"
I remember when you suggested the thought
I laughed "would it happen? probably not"
but still the idea, it lingered and grew
I loved the idea of always being with you
I said "lets go do it" and you had agreed
but then you said more time is what you need
I waited and waited until my spirits dampened
and all you would say was "it will happen"
I hated those words and hated my home
so I pulled you aside to be alone
I told you how it hurt and made me cry
"Why won't it happen? I need to know why.
To solve all my problems you are all I need"
"It hurts so bad" I would plead and plead
you said "money's to blame and college too"
I said "then don't worry, I'll pay for you"
You refused, saying that you would pay
I knew all it meant was you would delay
I didn't understand, I felt so unloved
you knew how I hurt and it wasn't enough
I fell apart, begging you like never before
you became sad, "you're never happy anymore"
It made me scared, seeing you grieve
If I kept making you sad then you might leave
I dried my tears, pulled myself back together
You know I've felt this for what seems like forever
So I'll simply, just quielty continue to wait
knowing you purposely stay in this state
I'll pretend to be strong just to cry at night
say it doesn't matter cause "it will happen" right?
