It feels different

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

I was having a bad day yesterday. It was the first anniversary of my younger brothers death and coming up to the second of my older brother's. I was praying desperately for God to search my heart. So many things come up that I had to let go of and within myself I was just envisioning them floating up to God along with all the crap from the numerous other stuff that went with it. There was no technecolor anything to it. It was just a way of clearing the debris for me. Then I prayed more for anything else that He could find within me.

Suddenly in my mind's eye I saw a vision of what looked like the mouth of a volcano. Instead of lava I saw blood boiling up. It was a deep hole. Then it looked like weaving being done on top of it so that the hole was covered over. Then it split screen to a person with it's head bashed in. dead. It went as fast as it came. I was left a beautiful sense of relief. The thought that came to mind is 'as far as the east is from the west'

Today I'm standing on that place where my heart was healed. I'm making it my prayer closet. Today is a new beginning. Thank You Jesus

 

[Bluerose31]

Praying for you.

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

Praying for you.

Thanks BlueRose

 

[“Paisios”]

Praying for you and praising God that your heart was healed.

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

Praying for you and praising God that your heart was healed.

Thanks Shoetoyou. I didn't realize it was that bad until it wasn't. Now it really does feel like a burning in my heart ... it's a life changer I can tell.

 

[Hidden In Him]

I was having a bad day yesterday. It was the first anniversary of my younger brothers death and coming up to the second of my older brother's. I was praying desperately for God to search my heart. So many things come up that I had to let go of and within myself I was just envisioning them floating up to God along with all the crap from the numerous other stuff that went with it. There was no technecolor anything to it. It was just a way of clearing the debris for me. Then I prayed more for anything else that He could find within me.

Suddenly in my mind's eye I saw a vision of what looked like the mouth of a volcano. Instead of lava I saw blood boiling up. It was a deep hole. Then it looked like weaving being done on top of it so that the hole was covered over. Then it split screen to a person with it's head bashed in. dead. It went as fast as it came. I was left a beautiful sense of relief. The thought that came to mind is 'as far as the east is from the west'

Today I'm standing on that place where my heart was healed. I'm making it my prayer closet. Today is a new beginning. Thank You Jesus

Greetings, Cassia.

I have no idea about your relationship with your brothers, but it appears obvious enough from your dream that you still have some bad memories, maybe of things that angered and/or wounded you.

If you'd like someone to talk to about it, just send me a conversation.
Hidden.

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

Greetings, Cassia.

I have no idea about your relationship with your brothers, but it appears obvious enough from your dream that you still have some bad memories, maybe of things that angered and/or wounded you.

If you'd like someone to talk to about it, just send me a conversation.
Hidden.

Thanks HiH. It's been the worst 2 yrs of my life so I'll give some thought to that. I've had all 4 of my brothers pass away over the years and I'm sure there are some anger issues there somewhere. I was wondering about the flash to the person also. I don't mind bringing it out here if you'd like.

 

[Hidden In Him]

Thanks HiH. It's been the worst 2 yrs of my life so I'll give some thought to that. I've had all 4 of my brothers pass away over the years and I'm sure there are some anger issues there somewhere. I was wondering about the flash to the person also. I don't mind bringing it out here if you'd like.

That's quite alright. It sounds very personal, so I just thought I'd offer.

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

That's quite alright. It sounds very personal, so I just thought I'd offer.

Thanks for bringing it up. I'll take it to Jesus as more work to be done. It is a process for sure ...

 

[Bluerose31]

Thanks BlueRose

You are welcome

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

I did tend to see it as the old nature laying there now that I think about it but you'r right . It could even be God that I'm having issues with, ???

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

You are welcome

Prayers for you to Bluerose That method in the op works really well for clearing up pain that you might find useful. It's like gathering things to God and allowing Him to take them. Visualizing angels coming in to heal the emptiness of those things that are now given over is essential too. There's too many complications when trying to let go of one thing at a time when a million different things have caused the pain associated with the same feelings. God bless

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

You are welcome

And you're welcome to PM me anytime also

 

[Hidden In Him]

Thanks HiH. It's been the worst 2 yrs of my life so I'll give some thought to that. I've had all 4 of my brothers pass away over the years and I'm sure there are some anger issues there somewhere. I was wondering about the flash to the person also. I don't mind bringing it out here if you'd like.

Only you would be able to confirm interpretations, so don't take anything I say as beyond question. But I will simply tell you what the symbolism would usually be taken to mean:

- Lava/Vulcano = Heat, usually associated with anger
- "Blood boiling" = This expression is also usually associated with anger. Possibly there would be some form of anger or resentment towards God potentially rising up within you over the pain you have felt, but again this would be putting words in your mouth that might not at all be true. I'm simply telling you what the symbolism suggests.
- Person w/Head Bashed In/Dead = Suggests a complete abandonment of painful thoughts, such as when emotional and mental overload occurs and the mind tilts; a complete "giving it up to God," so to speak.
- Volcano Being Woven Over = Interesting imagery, as it could suggest God will simply help you deal with all the pain you have felt by closing off your memory of the painful experiences. I would pray for Him to do just that. Sounds like you've been through a lot in a very short amount of time.

One quick note: By suggesting He help you close off your most deeply painful memories, I don't know I would recommend using visualization techniques. You would probaby be safer to just ask Him to heal your mind and restore it to positive thoughts through the power and leading of the Holy Spirit. But such things must be your decision in the end.

 

[Bluerose31]

And you're welcome to PM me anytime also

Thank you

 

[Bluerose31]

Prayers for you to Bluerose That method in the op works really well for clearing up pain that you might find useful. It's like gathering things to God and allowing Him to take them. Visualizing angels coming in to heal the emptiness of those things that are now given over is essential too. There's too many complications when trying to let go of one thing at a time when a million different things have caused the pain associated with the same feelings. God bless

Thank you for sharing this with me

 

[Hidden In Him]

- Volcano Being Woven Over = Interesting imagery, as it could suggest God will simply help you deal with all the pain you have felt by closing off your memory of the painful experiences. I would pray for Him to do just that. Sounds like you've been through a lot in a very short amount of time.

Btw, now that I'm reading it again, this may represent the fact that He has already done this for you, given your sense of relief after the dream, the verse that came to mind, and the title of the thread. Possibly these things have already been taking care of for you so that you would not be stricken with anger.

Just throwing it out there.

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

Only you would be able to confirm interpretations, so don't take anything I say as beyond question. But I will simply tell you what the symbolism would usually be taken to mean:

- Lava/Vulcano = Heat, usually associated with anger
- "Blood boiling" = This expression is also usually associated with anger. Possibly there would be some form of anger or resentment towards God potentially rising up within you over the pain you have felt, but again this would be putting words in your mouth that might not at all be true. I'm simply telling you what the symbolism suggests.
- Person w/Head Bashed In/Dead = Suggests a complete abandonment of painful thoughts, such as when emotional and mental overload occurs and the mind tilts; a complete "giving it up to God," so to speak.
- Volcano Being Woven Over = Interesting imagery, as it could suggest God will simply help you deal with all the pain you have felt by closing off your memory of the painful experiences. I would pray for Him to do just that. Sounds like you've been through a lot in a very short amount of time.

One quick note: By suggesting He help you close off your most deeply painful memories, I don't know I would recommend using visualization techniques. You would probaby be safer to just ask Him to heal your mind and restore it to positive thoughts through the power and leading of the Holy Spirit. But such things must be your decision in the end.

I couldn't think of another way to describe what I saw than a volcano but maybe looking into a blood vessel or heart valve might also describe it. This is comforting and is really what I felt

- Person w/Head Bashed In/Dead = Suggests a complete abandonment of painful thoughts, such as when emotional and mental overload occurs and the mind tilts; a complete "giving it up to God," so to speak.

It's not like I want the painful memories to go away but I did need a means of dealing with them that I think God has provided.

The technique that I learnt to use is more like taking thoughts captive to Christ. It takes remembering them to bring them to that point, all done at His throne of grace where mercy is dealt out, and in effect have the conscience cleansed in His blood.
Edit to add: not completely remembering but a gathering up of thoughts.

I guess I just wasn't expecting to not only have those things cleansed but also to 'see' the effect it had on my heart in healing! It was really mind-blowing!

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

Btw, now that I'm reading it again, this may represent the fact that He has already done this for you, given your sense of relief after the dream, the verse that came to mind, and the title of the thread. Possibly these things have already been taking care of for you so that you would not be stricken with anger.

Just throwing it out there.

I think so too. Thank God!!! I'll think about any anger issues at another time lol. I'm not at all mad at Him right now

 

[Hidden In Him]

I think so too. Thank God!!! I'll think about any anger issues at another time lol. I'm not at all mad at Him right now

Good, good. I can assure you there are many in your position who might be tempted to be. The Devil works on people that way.