Is time too short?

[LostChildinTheMidst]

Today I spent the time thinking that if I were to die today heaven would not be the place where I am going. Although Christ is who I profess as lord and I believe God raised him from the dead. I'm living in darkness (in my sin.) I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my pleasurable youthful life to the lord right now, but who knows if I die tomorrow? God knows. I'm praying he won't send me to hell even though that's what I deserve. This Christian life is so hard. I feel like it's almost impossible for me to enter the kingdom of God, people say "you aren't saved by works" other people say "you're saved by works and faith" and the Bible just confuses me. I've come to the conclusion that God chooses who he wants to be saved and I'm so afraid it ain't me. My fear is not gonna be the thing that keeps me from dying and going to hell. I wonder if God knew where I was going all along and he did. But I wish I was going to heaven, I wish my free will aligned with gods will for me. I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my sin. I've tried before but I always fall. It's so tiring. Isn't it funny how god cares more about others than he does some? I know God isn't impressed with me, he's so Holy and I'm so sinFUL why should I ever be in his presence, but I don't want to burn in hell, and I've come to the conclusion that I cannot save myself. Hopefully Jesus in his great mercy saves me. Hopefully

 

[CrystalDragon]

Today I spent the time thinking that if I were to die today heaven would not be the place where I am going. Although Christ is who I profess as lord and I believe God raised him from the dead. I'm living in darkness (in my sin.) I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my pleasurable youthful life to the lord right now, but who knows if I die tomorrow? God knows. I'm praying he won't send me to hell even though that's what I deserve. This Christian life is so hard. I feel like it's almost impossible for me to enter the kingdom of God, people say "you aren't saved by works" other people say "you're saved by works and faith" and the Bible just confuses me. I've come to the conclusion that God chooses who he wants to be saved and I'm so afraid it ain't me. My fear is not gonna be the thing that keeps me from dying and going to hell. I wonder if God knew where I was going all along and he did. But I wish I was going to heaven, I wish my free will aligned with gods will for me. I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my sin. I've tried before but I always fall. It's so tiring. Isn't it funny how god cares more about others than he does some? I know God isn't impressed with me, he's so Holy and I'm so sinFUL why should I ever be in his presence, but I don't want to burn in hell, and I've come to the conclusion that I cannot save myself. Hopefully Jesus in his great mercy saves me. Hopefully

Being afraid of hell is a problem. Don't be afraid of it. Don't be afraid to question things. I think that hell is an awful, sadistic doctrine that didn't even exist during the Old Testament. There's so much confusion in the faith we can't be sure what "saves us" anyway.

 

[Stancet]

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[SaintNick]

I feel the same. I repent daily.
The only escape is accepting Jesus as our Savior. This being all I know.
An being of a good heart through the trials and tribulation I believe we will still see the kingdom.
As per my current mind state and body in Sin I am not clean or pure enough to even be in the presence of the Lord. But I believe we will be pure in the afterlife. Or else I too am doomed.
Surely he will not let those who are good suffer eternal torment in hell.

 

[mozo41]

no, its perfect

 

[SaintNick]

no, its perfect

What is perfect?

 

[mozo41]

time ... as in a perception of a beginning and an end ... GODS work ...

 

[brinny]

Today I spent the time thinking that if I were to die today heaven would not be the place where I am going. Although Christ is who I profess as lord and I believe God raised him from the dead. I'm living in darkness (in my sin.) I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my pleasurable youthful life to the lord right now, but who knows if I die tomorrow? God knows. I'm praying he won't send me to hell even though that's what I deserve. This Christian life is so hard. I feel like it's almost impossible for me to enter the kingdom of God, people say "you aren't saved by works" other people say "you're saved by works and faith" and the Bible just confuses me. I've come to the conclusion that God chooses who he wants to be saved and I'm so afraid it ain't me. My fear is not gonna be the thing that keeps me from dying and going to hell. I wonder if God knew where I was going all along and he did. But I wish I was going to heaven, I wish my free will aligned with gods will for me. I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my sin. I've tried before but I always fall. It's so tiring. Isn't it funny how god cares more about others than he does some? I know God isn't impressed with me, he's so Holy and I'm so sinFUL why should I ever be in his presence, but I don't want to burn in hell, and I've come to the conclusion that I cannot save myself. Hopefully Jesus in his great mercy saves me. Hopefully

Welcome to CF, LostChildinTheMidst, praying for you (((hug)))

 

[Truthfrees]

praying for you my dear friend

 

[jax5434]

Today I spent the time thinking that if I were to die today heaven would not be the place where I am going. Although Christ is who I profess as lord and I believe God raised him from the dead. I'm living in darkness (in my sin.) I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my pleasurable youthful life to the lord right now, but who knows if I die tomorrow? God knows. I'm praying he won't send me to hell even though that's what I deserve. This Christian life is so hard. I feel like it's almost impossible for me to enter the kingdom of God, people say "you aren't saved by works" other people say "you're saved by works and faith" and the Bible just confuses me. I've come to the conclusion that God chooses who he wants to be saved and I'm so afraid it ain't me. My fear is not gonna be the thing that keeps me from dying and going to hell. I wonder if God knew where I was going all along and he did. But I wish I was going to heaven, I wish my free will aligned with gods will for me. I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my sin. I've tried before but I always fall. It's so tiring. Isn't it funny how god cares more about others than he does some? I know God isn't impressed with me, he's so Holy and I'm so sinFUL why should I ever be in his presence, but I don't want to burn in hell, and I've come to the conclusion that I cannot save myself. Hopefully Jesus in his great mercy saves me. Hopefully

I see that you are new to these forums but are you new to the faith? I ask because most of the concerns you express here are things that can be easily explained. If you have a Pastor discuss it with him.

 

[macek]

Today I spent the time thinking that if I were to die today heaven would not be the place where I am going. Although Christ is who I profess as lord and I believe God raised him from the dead. I'm living in darkness (in my sin.) I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my pleasurable youthful life to the lord right now, but who knows if I die tomorrow? God knows. I'm praying he won't send me to hell even though that's what I deserve. This Christian life is so hard. I feel like it's almost impossible for me to enter the kingdom of God, people say "you aren't saved by works" other people say "you're saved by works and faith" and the Bible just confuses me. I've come to the conclusion that God chooses who he wants to be saved and I'm so afraid it ain't me. My fear is not gonna be the thing that keeps me from dying and going to hell. I wonder if God knew where I was going all along and he did. But I wish I was going to heaven, I wish my free will aligned with gods will for me. I'm so stubborn I don't want to give up my sin. I've tried before but I always fall. It's so tiring. Isn't it funny how god cares more about others than he does some? I know God isn't impressed with me, he's so Holy and I'm so sinFUL why should I ever be in his presence, but I don't want to burn in hell, and I've come to the conclusion that I cannot save myself. Hopefully Jesus in his great mercy saves me. Hopefully

Dear sister, God loves you, Jesus is waiting for you and wishes you to seek Him and walk with Him. He is with you, watching over you, but in our sin we are blind to His presence. You know you need to let go of your current lifestyle, but its not easy. Know that He loves you and is waiting to come into your life and move your heart, but you have to let Him in. He is knocking on your door, sister. You are not alone in this, sister, He is with you and will help you, but you have to make that decision, that you will stop living in sin. Removing yourself from things that tempt you and surrounding yourself with things that will bring you closer to Him will help you a lot. You will find joy in Him, sister. Its like freeing oneself from addiction, you have to starve your beast which is painful and frustrating but brings peace and joy you haven't felt in a long time.

Being afraid of hell is a problem. Don't be afraid of it. Don't be afraid to question things. I think that hell is an awful, sadistic doctrine that didn't even exist during the Old Testament. There's so much confusion in the faith we can't be sure what "saves us" anyway.

Fear shouldn't rule our life, when we trust in Him we have no fear. I agree with that, but hell isn't to be taken lightly. When questioning, do so with the guidance of Holy Spirit and having a relationship with Jesus and lean on Him with your question, or you will be deceived. There are many teachings and teachers that are deceiving people, promising them easy salvation free of repentance and forgiveness among each other so we need to be careful to whom we listen. Its best to rely on God and not on men.

 

[Star Dancer]

Praying for you

 

[Solomons Porch]

Father in Jesus name give them a spirit of peace while resting under your wings

 

[SpiritofaDove]

Praying for you. May you have the strength to do the things you need to do, to seek God and find peace, His love and mercy. He is a loving God. He loves you very much.

 

[rockytopva]

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