Is this unforgivable? I have never forgiven myself. It was terrible!

[YoungChristianFemale]

This is so horrible. When i was a kid(12 years old), my mum would take me to church and you know the part where we would line up to receive the bread(body of christ) and the drink(blood of christ), so this was whether the priest feeds it to you or you take it and feed yourself the bread, so at one particular sunday, i decided to take it and walk away after. I hadn't realised i was meant to put it in my mouth straight away. So the priest followed me all the way to my seat, and by this time a lot of people were staring and the priest had said to put it in my mouth. I felt sooooo bad after. Even my mother was angry, she felt embarrassed going to church and ever since, i had not gone to sunday masses. My mum got passed it and went to masses after a while. She never brought me with her after, i felt so embarrassed to go anyway.


Many many years have now passed since that particular day, i still feel so bad, like a sinner when i think about it. It's a guilt and a mistake that i've carried with me to this day. Can i be forgiven? I really do not know what to do, i have never forgiven myself for that. Ugh, the guilt the i feel. But it was truly an honest mistake, i hadn't known or been made aware. But what happened, happened. I can only hope i'll be forgiven

 

[RuthD]

It was a mistake and you probably didn't even realize it when it happened. I think your mom took it far too seriously. That would be something I would laugh about when looking back. No need to beat yourself up, that won't help. It's not like you committed a murder for heaven's sake.

 

[1watchman]

It certainly was not something contrary to the Word of God, nor did it offend God. He is not petty, and He loves children and knows very well our failures as humans. He doesn't blame us for failures or ignorance. Remember, we are born in sin (see Rom. 3), and we need a Savior, who is the Lord Jesus Christ.

Have you received Jesus as your Savior and Lord? He died on the Cross for our sins, so we need to thank Him and make Him our best Friend. Then all will be well forever. Christianity is no about rituals and ceremonies, but faith in God's beloved Son. Read John 1; John 3; John 14 in your Bible and see what God has given us.

 

[bethrow]

If Jesus were there with you...do you think he would have cared whether you put it in your mouth straight away or not? NO
Sometimes I feel the priests and certain churches are all about the rules, perfection, how we look on the outside, and how "good" we are and how "much" we do.
Honey...Jesus loves you. He loves us more than we will ever comprehend because we feel so imperfect and unlovable.
We don't go to church to please the priest and those of us around us. We go because we want to worship God, be closer to Jesus, to feel his presence and his peace, to take this day and give our hearts to him.
We don't go to Heaven by being perfect, looking good to others, or being "good". If we went to Heaven by being perfect and being "good" then we'd all go to Hell.
Jesus wants us to develop a personal relationship with him through prayer. Accepting him as our personal saviour, taking everything in our lives to him.
What the Priest wanted you to do is not biblical.
You need to find a church where people are God Loving. What he did was embarrassing and he was not being kind with his actions. Your mother is also in the wrong for being angry at you and embarrassed.
When it's man's rules and not God's rules people should walk away and only look at developing a personal relationship with Jesus.