To one hundred percent trust Christ and to love Him as much as He loves me? I really want to but I still have a little bit of doubt that I'm fighting.
is it possible?
Yes.....
Is it common..... I don't think so. I think doubt is part of the human experience. Doubt is not the same as disbelief. Where disbelief is a willful, deliberate saying No to God, in spite of his making himself/will known.
I like the desperate father, of the abused child, where Jesus said--- if you believe, all things are possible to him who believes. The father cries out in apparent exasperation-- I believe! Help my unbelief!
the question is best served by Jesus' response--- With God, all things are possible.
I find myself wondering, and it's been my own experience (30+ years of struggling with doubt, and finally saying-- I believe, help my unbelief!), if you're not as acquainted with scripture, and with what biblical faith actually consists of.
biblical faith is not an emotional thing, though emotions are part of it.
Biblical faith is believing what God has said.
So, what has God said?
Is God talking today, in audible terms, which we're supposed to hear? Jesus did after all say--- my sheep hear my voice.
But what is his voice? Isn't his voice what he's already stated beforehand? I.e., the bible.
He does say in John 6--- my words are spirit, and they are life.
One of our jobs as followers of Jesus is to learn the bible.
As God tells us in Hosea 4:6, his people perish because of a lack of knowledge.
In Proverbs 29:18, where there is no revelation, people cast off restraint. But happy are those who keep the Law.
In Psalm 111:10, we read that those who fear God and keep his commandments have a good understanding.
We further read in 2 Timothy 1:7 that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and clear thinking.
So..... yes. it is indeed possible. It's possible because with God, ALL things are possible.
Remember what Paul tells us in Romans 10--- faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
If you're a reader, I'd like to provide you with a couple of books. They're written by a theologian/philosopher, who writes on biblical issues. He did his PhD on the resurrection of Jesus.
His name is Gary Habermas.
His book page is-
Dr. Gary R. Habermas - Online Resource for the Resurrection of Jesus Christ
the two books are:
Dealing with Doubt.
The Thomas Factor: using your doubts to draw closer to God.
If you prefer hard copy, you can buy them on amazon, or your preferred book seller's site. Or, if you prefer an ebook format, you can download or read them online.
God is not afraid of your doubts. He's not going to slap you around for having doubts. According to Isaiah 1:18, 41:1, 21, he welcomes you to come, and hash them out with him.