Is this OCD?

[tyield1102]

Is this OCD and I'm not even realizing it?

First off I would like to say that I accepted Jesus into my life in 2007 and it was a true conversion. I started changing from the inside out by the power of the Holy Spirit working in my life. I used to post on this forum quite a bit after my OCD started happening. The thing is though I started kinda slipping away from God. I stopped going to church as much and didn't even realize what I was doing at the time. For the past few months I have been going through something and have no idea what is going on. My mind is filled with nothing but confusion it seems. I have been having horrible thoughts against God and sometimes it drives me into constant anxiety. My husband has been prompted to pray for me on two occasions in which immediately afterwards I was calmed down. I feel that I am so far away from God and that my attitude and life are quickly slipping into one of whom is not saved. All day today I have been going through periods of intense longing for God. Wanting to be with Him and worship Him and serve Him for the rest of my life and it is my desire and I like that desire very much. I want that desire, but then I will have thoughts of disrespecting God and not caring about Him whatsoever and not caring about judgement from Him and it seems like I like having those thoughts and feelings, but they do not bring me joy or real happiness like the longing for God does. I just don't know what is from me. Where is my heart really? Is it turned from God? I fear that I am someone who is on the path to hell and not even realizing it and having a false hope and peace. I just need help. I need prayers especially if this is from my heart can you please help to pray that God will change my heart back to Him and restore me? I am really at a loss here. Sorry that this is so long I just need insight. Thank you

 

[Sapphire23]

Hi there,

Firstly I just want to let you know that I know what you're going through as I am going through similar things now as well!

But even though I am going through a hard time too I still want to encourage you and let you know that since you know you were converted, then you will always be saved and God is always with you. You won't go to Hell. Remember Jesus said that He will never let us go and also if you are crying out for Him then you must have faith inside to be doing so! This is what I keep on trying to remind myself!

I have a verse which might help you with your longing to know and understand God, I have been trying to meditate on it myself. It's Proverbs 2:1-11:

1 My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
2 turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
3 indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
4 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
and find the knowledge of God.
6 For the LORD gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
7 He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
8 for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.
9 Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
11 Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.

I hope that helps. I will pray for you and wouldn't mind your prayers for me also .

 

[VZ2011]

Extreme spiritual fearfulness (over blasphemy & going to hell) & doubting (even while you are pursing God, reading his word, and in prayer)are forms of spiritual OCD. They and other racing negative fearful thoughts are the result of a vitamin deficiency which causes a chemical imbalance in the brain and is treatable with extreme daily doses of vitamines. If you or a loved one experience extreme spiritual fearfulness, OCD or schizophrenia tendancies (paranoia, visual hallucinations, hearing voices), depression, insomnia, racing thoughts, panic attacks, anxiety, other mental distresses, do yourself a favor and reasearch depression, schizophrenia, OCD vitamin and orthomolecular therapy and the work of a canadian doctor named Abram Hoffer. Basically he developed a treatment (that truly WORKS) with Vitamines. It's a minimal cost to incur to invest in your physical and mental AND SPIRITUAL wellness. I am not peddling anyone's vitamines. You can get any brand at Walmart or a grocery store or a vitamine store on line. These Vitamin supplements have been a tremendous help to my relative and myself who continue to experience greater and greater healing each day that we continue with this vitamine therapy. Relief comes within the first couple of days and continues as you continue to take the vitamine supplements. You must take them for the rest of your life or risk a relapse. [/font]

1000 mg niacian daily (get a combination of flush-free and regular niacin) the regular will cause you to flush--(you will get red and hot but this means it is working--the longer it takes you to flush the more you needed it. the redness goes away in about 15 minutes. The flush-free niacin will not make you flush. If you start to feel nauceaous, lower the dosage or skip a day altogether with it, then take a "normal" dosage, like 100-500 mg. An extremely high dose like 1000-2000 is for when things get extremely uncontrollable and it should only be temporary. It's too much to take regularly. After a day or two you could start to feel naucious from that much, but it will jumpstart the seratonin in your brain to help you relax and control your thoughts, then you can lower it to 500.

2000-3000 mg Vitamine C take 1000 mg 3x a day[/font]
HTP5 - At least 100 mg daily
Vitamine B 8 - (inisitol) - 10-18g per day depending on severity of your OCD (it's alot but take it)
Vitamine B combo vitamine 2 or 3 per day (with B1, B6, B12)[/font]

Essential Omega Fats (with fish oil and flax) take 2-3 per day.[/font]

Results will be notable within a day or two, with the greatest results starting at around 6 weeks of taking these.

Swear off all junk food, all artificial sweetners, all refined white sugar products, all alcohol, eat GOOD NUTRITIOUS FOOD, fresh and frozen vegetables, fruits, unsweetned fruit juice, filtered water or spring water, cut down on caffeine. Going gluetin free is also good but it's not necessary for ever

Please research these things on line yourself as I am not allowed to post URLs on this site. I would have

Please, also understand that you must honor Jesus Christ and trust his shed blood and ressurection fully for salvation. Read the word daily and pray, and live according to biblical principals and this along with proper nutrition, will eliminate spiritual OCD and extreme spiritual fearfulness.