I could not tell ware I should ask this but when I was kid, in 4th grade I saw my father watching vary grapic porn. He could not see me but I saw what was on the screen vary clearly and I will not tell what I saw, but that was how I learn how sex works (my father never gave me the talk, no one gave me the talk, the closet the little creep ever came was when he pointed out a women with big boobs and said those can not be real) I know he was masterbating to. I never got to confront him and I felt ashamed at what I had seen and have have told few people about it, and he knows I saw him, I know this because he stop and went looking for me and saw me, told me to go to bed and went back to what he was doing. he perteded that nothing happen untill he finaly skip out on me. Is this sexual abuse or not?