Is there really hope?

[jen_soccer13]

I am just wondering if there is really hope of never SI-ing again. I mean is it gonna end ..or is it something I just have to learn to control that will never really go away. I have lost hope of ever stopping it. Things just keep getting worse all the time....and I am afraid that I will end up doing this for the rest of my life. I don't want to do that..and don't think I could survive doing all my life.
I feel bad for always bothering others with my problems. I feel like I should just get over it. But I dont' know how..and I feel like my life is falling apart worse than before (I didnt' really see that as being possible until now!) I just wonder if I will ever get over this and if there is really hope for me.
Jennifer

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

Of course there is hope, hun. You just have to find it. And have faith in yourself and God. You CAN do it. Just put your mind to it... i didnt think I could do it... but it's been 11 days since I SIed... and I really wanna keep going!!! You can do this hun. I know you can.

-Jo.

 

[sparrow]

There is hope. But recovery is a tough journey, and that's why many people chose to not attempt it.
Self injury is serious business. It's not something which is very easy to overcome alone or by yourself. I would advise getting the support of someone you trust - a pastor, older friend, parent, relative... Anyone. Someone you can be accountable to and who is prepared to be there for you. I would also advise getting professional counselling. This will hopefully help you to not have relapses, and to sort out the emotional problems beneath the self harm.
Something else you could do is talk this over with God. I know that this is incredibly hard. I find that my walk with God considerably falters when I'm at my worst. But if we're honest with God, and don't lost our trust in him, then he will help us. He loves you even if you don't feel like he does. He's there for you even when you can't see him. You are his child and he will never leave you.
I've given you a bit of a "to do" list here. I'm sorry, don't treat it as one. They're just suggestions. I wanted to try to help.
The main point to my post is to tell you that there is hope and recovery can be a reality. It will be a difficult journey, but there is no doubt in my mind that you can complete it.
PM me if ever you want to talk more. I'd be more than happy with that.

 

[goldenviolet]

Jennifer you are not bothering any of us. if you need to ask the same question 10 times...... then you need to hear the answer 10 times...... ....
what i mean is that you are asking for a reason. if someone thinks that is a pain, then it is their lost not share God's love. we also will not know how to comfort you, if you aren't letting us see where you need comfort. we need you, as much as you need us. God wanted us to all be togther, to love and encourage eachother. so..... you are being the curoius and passionate person God created, and you are searching His through prayer, among the scriptures and through fellowship. these are steps to recovery and healing. we teach eachother.
keep doing these things and others that we talked about. pretty soon you will start to see changes. it starts where you think. so ask ask ask love dee

 

[notworthknowing]

Hi Jennifer

I just wanted to let you know that there is hope. The road is not easy, but I believe with all my heart that you can walk it. I have read some of your posts, you are alot stronger than you think! You are an overcomer, and you have such a caring heart. You will be free of all this one day, just stay focused and take it one day at a time. I will be praying for you.

Love,
Kaitie

 

[Bevlina]

Yes Darling, there is hope. I think people do this to try to deaden the pain by creating more pain. Don't despair. There is definitely hope while there are supportive and loving people in the world.
I think that once you can face your deepest hurts and destroy them, you will have no need to SI. But, that is only my belief as I am not a Dr.

 

[Ariella]

yes there is hope ... always .... one thing that can help is letting someone else walk with you through the darkness .... Christ is already there with you ... and it can help to also have someone like a counselor or pastor who can help in ministering to you and showing you new truths about yourself and replacing the lies others have told you with the reality of Christ as you heal... and in overcoming the desire to SI ...

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

If you deal with the reasons why you SI, then yes recovery is very possible, you need people around you to help. You can't do it on your own

Love n Hugs

Lizzie

 

[goldenviolet]

*warm fuzzies*
just posting a supportive snuggle and prayer! there is lots of ways to get help, and we're all cheering you! love dee

 

[Jenster]

Hi Jennifer,

Yes, there is hope, and I pray that the Lord will show you that in small ways each and every day. I don't SI, but I've got other ways to create pain in my life to "cope" with other pain. I'm learning that I need an outlet to express the pain and stress and sense of failure that I feel -- a healthier outlet, like journaling or screaming or painting or exercising or ... SOMEthing. I'm learning that it's important not to mask the pain, but fully acknowledge it in a way that is not destructive and also doesn't put more pressure on myself.

I pray that God will have mercy on both of us and redirect us to new ways of expressing ourselves. Blessings.

 

[madison1101]

Yes, there is always hope. Finding out what inside of you is compelling you to do this is a really big step. I used SI to avoid feelings I didn't want to feel. Learning to feel those feelings helped. Working through them in therapy helped. Learning healthy coping skills helps. Finding some alternatives to hurting myself was a big step. I take walks, go to the gym, meditate, pray, read scripture, cry, just to name a few.

Hugs,
Madison

 

[Bevlina]

Madison ... that is a lovely post!

 

[jen_soccer13]

I just got back from spring break today. I spent it at home. My mom got mad at my stepdad who lives 3 hours away and she took it out on me. Then I got mad that she did that and I said some stuff I shouldn't have. For this I got a fat lip that I now have stitches in. I have bruises everywhere. Now I am back at school and things will be fine for now.....except the fact that I wanna cut. I am so tired of having to do that to cope. But I feel like I have to do it to keep my heart from exploding. I am also sooo afraid that my brother is going to end up getting beat. She has never ever hit him...but now that I am gone I feel like I should be there to keep her from beating him. I don't know what to do anymore. I am just so tired of life. *sigh*

 

[notworthknowing]

Hi Jennifer,

Firstly, welcome back. We missed you!

I'm very sorry for the things you have had to go through in the past week. Did the Dr ask you what happened to your lip when you go the stitches? I'm sorry to say this, but I don't think your mother is fit to be a parent. How old is your brother?

I guess I can't really give you any advice, I'll leave that up to someone with more knowledge and wisdom than I have..but please know I will be praying for you, and that I care about you alot.

Talk things out here as much as you want, that often helps me get past the "explosion" point and relieve some of the "inner" pressure. Do you have a CF journal? I have only just recently started one, but it helps to have a place to just write as much or as little as you want. Just a suggestion.

praying for you sweetie

Love,
Kaitie