Hi, I am somewhat a new Christian, I come and go from following to not following. I guess I am the queen of backsliding. Something happened about a year ago, it clicked in me that I was not acting the way I should, and I rededicated myself to being a Christian. I have changed alot, more than I ever thought possible, but there of course there are many things still to come, I know how that goes. I do have some character flaws that I did not see before rebecoming a Christian, but now I know without a shadow of a doubt that are not what God wants me to be. I can feel God being very specific about what is wrong. I am not being very sucessful in changing some things, I guess if I am being honest because I am not trying very hard. I have a quiet internal temper, I am lazy, and I procrastinate, this has affected me negatively in my life, but it is part of my character so I am having trouble changing, even though I know I should. I have a stong suspicion that I am being disciplined for not changing (and I certainly do not feel very comfy in my spirit, I feel horrible). Basically, things have happened that are beyond what would be normal consequences, and only after I know God is saying something, and I do it anyways (don't ask me why, I am weak in some ways). I can say that I had warning before it happened, and I know why it happens as well. Does God really discipline today, or is this just strange thinking? It sounds so strange ge to say, though I know the verses in the Bible that say he does. I never hear people mention anything specific that has happened to them, but since this is an anonymous forum, I thought I could ask here. Thanks.