is it too late?

[Jesusisgood]

This was about a month ago. Ok so my ocd was about God and after i confessed it to Him I felt really hot and scared. like a spiritual attack. Did I commit the unforgivable sin?" Im really scared. I cant type what i said because im scared . and ever since then I have felt far from HIm and I keep praying for HIm to take me back but i remain in this mindset. I feel like im not going to heaven and I kept having nightmares about demons after it. The dreams are gone now and i keep asking God to help He has been answering my prayers about school but Im scared that i lost my savation. I keep falling into sin too. I hate my behavior, i snap at my mom alot because i get so worried.Please pray for me

 

[justpassingthrough21]

Did I commit the unforgivable sin?" Im really scared.

No you didn't, people who commit the sin aren't scared because they make themselves a god, and don't submit to the one true God, Jesus Christ. They do it boldly without fear or shame. Your fear about committing it reaffirms you haven't.

I feel like im not going to heaven and I kept having nightmares about demons after it.

The great thing is that your salvation isn't based on whether you feel saved or not.
1 John 3:19 This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence: 20 If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. 21 Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God 22
I love this verse because it covers 2 types of Christians. Those struggling to overcome self condemnation, and those who are confident. Both are going to heaven, and to the group that is struggling with feeling like they aren't good enough to make heaven, Paul says that God is greater than these feelings. And His Word has authority over how we feel. But it should be your goal none the less to work towards that confidence that leads to peace and assurance of salvation.

I keep falling into sin too. I hate my behavior, i snap at my mom alot because i get so worried.

This also doesn't disqualify you from heaven. We have all sinned and will continue to sin and fall short of the glory of God. But for a believer when they sin, it is not even accounted to them as sin. You have been forgiven for past, present and future sins. You still confess them to God to bring them to light and ask for help to overcome those strongholds in your life, but you do not need to walk in self condemnation over it.

 

[SoldierOfSoul]

This was about a month ago. Ok so my ocd was about God and after i confessed it to Him I felt really hot and scared. like a spiritual attack. Did I commit the unforgivable sin?" Im really scared. I cant type what i said because im scared . and ever since then I have felt far from HIm and I keep praying for HIm to take me back but i remain in this mindset. I feel like im not going to heaven and I kept having nightmares about demons after it. The dreams are gone now and i keep asking God to help He has been answering my prayers about school but Im scared that i lost my savation. I keep falling into sin too. I hate my behavior, i snap at my mom alot because i get so worried.Please pray for me

Really I think that if someone commits the unpardonable sin they will not even know that they did, there heart would have to be that hard. When Jesus told some of the Pharisees that they were in danger of committing the unpardonable sin it didn't affect them emotionally because they had already hardened there heart to the point of hatred towards God in Christ. They hated Him because He was the true God and they wanted to worship the God they had made in mans image.

This is not you, you want a relationship with the true God who revealed Himself in Jesus Christ, but more importantly He wants a relationship with you and if you can trust His word enough to believe that, it will settle your fears, His love comes with no strings attached, but to just believe that you are a sinner (which you already do) and then only trust in the blood of Jesus to wash those sins away.

God does not want our salvation to be complicated, we make it complicated, Jesus said that He just wants us to trust Him as a small child would there parent. His yoke is easy and His burden is light, He does not give us these thoughts, the devil does, all we are commanded to do is not to believe them, but to believe in the word of God and what Jesus said to us.

His love for us is beyond our limited comprehension, so we must trust, we are the prodigals and He is the forgiving Father who runs to meet us, no need to cry, no need to doubt His love for you, no need to do anything but rest in His arms of love.

 

[Jesusisgood]

Thank you both! I was so scared these past two months. I feel alot better and kinda silly for thinking that. Thanks again

 

[justpassingthrough21]

BTW I also wanted to add that the hot feeling is your body's response to anxiety. Different people have different reactions. Mine was exactly the same thing. I would get 2 basic reactions. Either my chest would really start to hurt and feel pressure, or my skin would get hot and I would start sweating. Kind of like hot flashes. It use to happen 20 times a day, now I might go a few days and then it hits. So it definitely gets better as you grow in the Lord through it.

 

[Anihilus]

"In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one..." Ephesians 6:16 - ESV

These darts are not described as flaming for no reason. When Satan gets a good shot in at you, that's what it feels like across your soul, like it has been struck with lightning or something.

Notice how it says take up the shield of faith, not the shield of feelings.

 

[OCDS]

You did not in ANY way commit an unpardonable sin. You have a CLEAR reverence of God, that makes it a full reaffirmation you did not commit an unpardonable sin. As for fear about demons and nightmares...that is very common for many people with or without OCD, don't worry about it at ALL. I can only imagine how much distress it's causing you, but please understand, with God in your heart, NOTHING like that can touch you. You seem so vulnerable to God I thought, just by reading your post. Its because of this, God will cloak you in righteousness, just like he did with Adam and Eve naked before him. If God has you covered, you're all set. As for the sinning, and not getting into heaven...we sin as naturally as we breathe, all day every day, but as long as we come before God with these sins, we will be forgiven for every last one, that was the point of Christ! Good luck to you, I had these same fears when my OCD first developed, I know the sheer terror of them, I felt absolutely helpless, but I promise you, you will be OK!

 

[Jesusisgood]

Thank you all for helping me! Each one of these posts have helped me alot! I actually think i am overcoming my ocd now! everytime i have those thoughts i believe that they are just the enemy or myself and i do what i was going to do anyway because i now God is in control not me. I actually dont have that strong anxiety anymore! Its a miracle! thanks for all of the prayers everyone.

 

[SoldierOfSoul]

everytime i have those thoughts i believe that they are just the enemy or myself and i do what i was going to do anyway because i now God is in control not me.

Great! Yeah that's what I try to do too, I know that those thoughts are not from me, I know that my true self is hid in Christ. I may have evil thoughts sometimes but they are not mine until I try to pursue them with my whole mind, with full consent of my will.

Even if it feels like a small part of me wants those thoughts I have come to realize that that is the enemy also. My will wants to please God, that is my greatest desire, the same is true of you and all of us here.

I have tried to look at these thoughts as temptations, it is not a sin to be tempted...when we are tempted there may be a part of us that wants to indulge but until we give ourselves over to that desire it is not sin. The same is true with these evil thoughts, we cannot help what comes in our minds but we can help what we accept as truth. Jesus is truth.

 

[Jesusisgood]

I have tried to look at these thoughts as temptations, it is not a sin to be tempted...when we are tempted there may be a part of us that wants to indulge but until we give ourselves over to that desire it is not sin. The same is true with these evil thoughts, we cannot help what comes in our minds but we can help what we accept as truth. Jesus is truth.

Thats so true! thank you for helping

 

[Jesusisgood]

These darts are not described as flaming for no reason. When Satan gets a good shot in at you, that's what it feels like across your soul, like it has been struck with lightning or something.

Notice how it says take up the shield of faith, not the shield of feelings.

Thank you! I felt another one before and i freaked out because i didnt kow the devil could do that until my friend told me. Im so glad that God wasn't mad at me. God is so much stronger that the devil. and i just need to do what you said and take up that shield of faith! Thanks for the advice i really appreciate it!