Is it me?

[TrinityLives]

"So u said that you always called and the other person never called? How did you keep the friendship going?"



Actually it was the other way around. She would find me ( cause I had moved etc) and call. Months go by, she'd call.
Just looking back on it all I realize it was her who kept our great friendship alive. There is nothing I wouldnt do for her and frankly I just tell ppl she is my sister, after 22 years of friendship thats what she is to me.

I was just trying to point out how it can be so important to another person when we call or just be the glue.
No you don't want to be stepped on. If they call all the time to ask you to give them money or do things FOR them, then obviously its a one sides relationship. But those who call because they like talking with us we need to appreciate, and you can be the one who is the caller Make sense?

I just feel blessed for her ability to stick through those years when I wasn't such a good friend to her.

 

[BlessEwe]

You sound like a very smart girl testing life and stretching your wings. This is very painful and scary at times. I do believe God is tugging at your heart and He knows our deepest desires even more than we do, I have seen this so many times in my life.
As humans we do tend to isolate or keep so busy we don't have time to feel and we look back when we are older seeing all of the time we waisted from the fear.

Church is fellowship with others who believe in Christ. Going to church doesn't mean that everyone there will be perfect because we are human. But God tells us to surround ourselves in the flock as we can picture lambs who wander off alone can be hurt or lost. Also hearing and reading the words in the bible makes us stronger in our walk of life. Light bulbs in our minds go off and things begin to make sense. This is when something we have heard over and over moves from our head to our heart. Now you don't have to go to church to believe in God, as I said it is good to surround yourself in the body of Christ.

Jesus lives in our hearts He doesn't ask for anything but trusting in Him. Sometimes we get so caught up in what a human does, we forget how Jesus loves us without any conditions.

When I was a young girl I remember crying to God in my bed one night, I had a very hard childhood with a lot of painful deaths of loved ones. God did hear my prayers even though I didn't feel it at the time. I now look back and know He had me in His Hands and changed my life giving me the most beautiful children and family. This doesn't mean pain doesn't happen or people don't hurt me, leave, or die. Life is painful! But it is also so beautiful too. And easier, as I can give all my pain to God and not drag it around with me like a ton of bricks, which clears things out and I can find Joy even through the hard times. Life does get very heavy at times, look at what Jesus had to carry for us.. a very heavy cross and a very painful death for our sins, He knows our pain.....

Perhaps pray to God to show Himself to you, Show you the truth of His spirit, to guide your life, and to bring Godly people into your life. To open and close the doors He wants you to take.

You are just beginning to walk the journey and taking baby steps out of the nest. How so very exciting but scary at the same time. God has so many wonderful things ahead for you if you trust in Him and allow Him to lead you.

Something I say to myself as I start my day:

God grant me the serenity to except the things I can not change. (meaning people, places and things)
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.

Praying for you

 

[thenewageriseth]

"So u said that you always called and the other person never called? How did you keep the friendship going?"



Actually it was the other way around. She would find me ( cause I had moved etc) and call. Months go by, she'd call.
Just looking back on it all I realize it was her who kept our great friendship alive. There is nothing I wouldnt do for her and frankly I just tell ppl she is my sister, after 22 years of friendship thats what she is to me.

I was just trying to point out how it can be so important to another person when we call or just be the glue.
No you don't want to be stepped on. If they call all the time to ask you to give them money or do things FOR them, then obviously its a one sides relationship. But those who call because they like talking with us we need to appreciate, and you can be the one who is the caller Make sense?

I just feel blessed for her ability to stick through those years when I wasn't such a good friend to her.

I see. But, seemingly I seem to be the one doing all the calling, usually...at least these days....
I do see what point you're trying to make...