Introduce yourself..

[sparrow]

I posted this thread because I wanted to learn all about you guys. I don't care what you think of yourselves... I love you all, and think you're all totally rawking. So there.

But seriously.. I know what its like to hate yourself. I still hate myself, even though I'm supposedly on the road to recovery. But even though you may dislike yourself and I may not like myself much either, that doesn't stop me loving you.
We're all in the same boat here.
*hugs all her brothers and sisters*

 

[hls]

hi my name is heather and this is really hard to post. it is hard for me sometimes to be able to admit that i SI. somehow posting it here makes it very real. i have struggled with SI for several years now and i am starting to get better with a lot of prayer and a lot of support. i feel really blessed to find other christians who struggle with this. anyway thank you to you all.

 

[Bevlina]

Heather! You are so welcome here!
Yes, there are so many who SI, and it takes alot of time, and enormous courage to come through.
We are all so precious in the sight of God, I am so happy to read that you are starting to get better!!

 

[Stars_Fire_17]

Hi My Name is Angel. I have been cut free 10 months on March 16th. My friends and I are starting a support group on out campus. We have had quite a few people try to shut us down (Christian College) but we are still going to have our first meeting tonight. It would be really great to meet all of you. PM me if you want to ask me any questions or if you want to chat.

 

[alilsa]

Yes, Mishap, I had DID but the alters were suppose to have integrated. I don't know but I'm suppose to believe it. Like alot of people who self injure, I had been through alot of abuse especially as a child and becuase of the horrible abuse, I split. I had many alters and still have trouble remembering parts of the abuse and rape from when I was a child. I started cutting back befrore people even started talking about SI much though

 

[Imani]

Hi Angel...

Congrats on being SI free - 10 months is awesome! What you are doing on your campus sounds really neat too... Im sure you will help lots of people.

Sara

 

[heavenliejediofthebeach]

Dano!

So happy you found us! So, how are you going now honey?

I dont know....Just trying not to cut, one day at a time...

 

[jen_soccer13]

I am Jennifer....I am 19 years old. ...and I have been SIing for about 6 years. I think I have pretty much lost hope that I will ever be able to stop. Everytime something goes right..5 more things go completely wrong. Anyway...I hope everyone is doing well.

 

[Bevlina]

Oh Pet .... you are so welcome to the Forum.

Dano ... it is only one day at a time, and baby steps at first.

 

[Imani]

I am Jennifer....I am 19 years old. ...and I have been SIing for about 6 years. I think I have pretty much lost hope that I will ever be able to stop. Everytime something goes right..5 more things go completely wrong. Anyway...I hope everyone is doing well.

Hey Jen!!

Im glad you came in here and Im glad you posted! You'll be really welcome here and everyone is nice so dont worry about fitting in or talking or anything ok... they all care heaps here.

luv you
Sara

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

I love you guys. Welcome to the forum. I completely understand how all of you are feeling. Please don't be afriad to talk it all out. And please don't think you're alone. We are all here to support eachother. That's what this forum is. It's for support, comfort and guidance. We CAN do this...

-Jo.

 

[sparrow]

Jo's right. We can do this. We've all made huge steps by actually posting on this thread. We're here to support each other.

I'm gonna make a point of praying for this forum and for all you guys (even the ones who are reading this, and not posting) every night. God loves you all so much. There is hope.

 

[notworthknowing]

Hello

My name is Kaitie and I'm from Australia. I used to SI but have resisted the urges for almost 3 months now, It's been hard and is a daily struggle, but I am doing the best I can. I have a 5 year old daughter, Madison, who has recently started showing signs of SI, and I am at a loss as to what to do to help at the moment. We have both been through alot of abuse. I will leave the introduction there for now, I look forward to getting to know you all better!

God Bless
Kaitie

 

[amazed_by_grace]

I've had a rough week and I really just need to spill so this has gotta be the place I'm afraid.. you needn't read it..I just need to vent. My name is Mary and I've been SIing on and off for a year and a half now with repeated suicide attempts in between... I started getting very depressed about 2 years ago, just feeling sorry for myself all the time and feeling no direction or purpose in my life but self harm never occured to me for another six months until I attempted suicide for the first time. Afterwards I started to cut because I as so angry at myself and I hated myself... all my life I've dealt with low self esteem and aboslutely no feeling of self worth.. I live with my mom who is honestly just amazing and she loves me so much but still I feel worthless.. it isn't her fault though.. i think she feels the same about herself sometimes...my dad treats us both like garbage..he comes and sees us whenever he feels like it and I hate him on behalf of my mom because he doesn't treat her like she deserves...he doesn't live with us... i never had friends in my life until last year when I made some really good Christian friends who believed in me and seemed to want to be with me because they liked me, not because they felt they had to... for the first time ever I felt accepted but I still used to SI and I upset them so much... now they have all moved away to college and I feel SO alone all the time... one of my friends I could swear was my soulmate..she always knew what I was thinking and we get on so well all the time.. we love all the same stuff and she always makes me feel good.. she's an amazing Christian too... she lives in the States now and I'm in Ireland... I hate school cause no one likes me.. they know I'm a Christian so they treat me different and they're not speaking to me cause I was dating this guy but I broke up with him because he wasn't a Christian and it didn't feel right... they all hate me for it now.. I still really care about him but I think he's really angry at me... the last time I cut myself was 2 months ago when we were going out but I stopped cause he said he'd hurt himself every time I hurt myself and I got scared cause he was serious and he did it once.. I couldn't bear to hurt him so I stopped... now I feel so miserabel and incredibly alone and I feel like no one understands.. I know I just seem like I'm whinging on about nothing but I feel really low today.. I have felt worse.. I've missed days at school before cause I just couldn't bear to get up....now I'm tempted to SI again.. part of me wants the option and part of me wants it to be gone... I have no one to talk to.. I can't tell my mom cause she'd get really scared and depressed and I can't tell anyone from church cause they'd wanna tell my mom and they'd be trying to push me into all this faith stuff and I do love God but I feel that I need some time to think.. I really miss my friend.. she used to just listen to me... I write a lot of poetry and I recently won two creative writing competitions so I want to take my writing seriously and give more time to it but I never have the time cause of school and my only good poetry comes from when I feel depressed... basically I feel miserable and scared and so alone and like I'm gonna burst cause I have no one to talk to and the last heartfelt and honest conversation I had was in January when my friend was home from the States for a while... I express myself in my poetry alot but I can't show anyone... anyways for anyone who actually read all of this; thank you! My grammar is rubbish I'm sure but it's the middle of the night and I'm upset.. sorry...

 

[ninetails390]

Hey everyone! Good to know I'm not alone here... I'm Diane, and I'm 14 years old. I live in the USA. I've been struggling with depression since early last year (2004)... starting around February, and getting serious around May or so... I've been SI-ing since July 4, 2004 (I remember vividly, since here in the US that's a holiday...), but I'm trying hard to stop, and it's been over 2 months since the last time I hurt myself!
I'm in 9th grade, and I'm normally a very good student (I skipped 2nd grade, and I get mostly As in school, sometimes the occasional B...), though I just recently started being homeschooled because I was, to make a long story short, too depressed to function in public school. Unfortunately, I have began to realize that I also seem to be too depressed to function in homeschool, also... so I'm currently struggling to pass this trimester because of my lack of concentration... But, yeah... enough about my school life...

 

[Bevlina]

My lil nine ...

 

[Cat59]

Hi I'm Cat. I'm from Wales (that little country stuck on the side of England) and I think there are some very wonderful people posting in this forum. When I was younger, I had depression quite often and used to SI, but then people just didn't even talk about it and I kept it very quiet and private. I haven't SI for many many years now.
Have hope!
and for you all
Cat

 

[Bevlina]

Welcome Cat!!!
Yes, when I was younger, I used to suffer from a bit of depression, but Dr popped me on some medication and that soon helped me get well again. But, since I found my husband dead, then lost my Mum & Dad, I went through alot of grief and Dr put me back onto anti depressants. These gave me well needed sleep and the ability to rest a very tired mind. Then, I found CF!! Haven't looked back since then!

 

[katylees]

Cat I live in Wales during term time now as im at cardiff uni!

 

[Cat59]

Cat I live in Wales during term time now as im at cardiff uni!

*Cat waves back!


You'll be on your Easter break soon then!