Introduce yourself..

[sparrow]

Firstly - thanks Erwin for the forum. There's been so many threads about self-injury in the depression/struggles forums, I think we really need this.

I just wanted to say hiya to all those who struggle with self-injury. I wondered if we could share a little about ourselves, to get to know each other a bit better? (I hope this is allowed!)

I'll start.. I'm Claire, I'm 19 as of today (yay!). I'm from the UK and I'm a trainee teacher. I'm in my first year of a 3 year course.
I have currently just started counselling for depression and self-injury. I've only had one session but I'm pretty excited (also nervous & scared!) about getting better.

God bless you all.

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

Hey, I'm 'Jo'. And I've SIed for 5 years.

:birthday2 Claire!!!!! z

-Jo.

 

[Imani]

Hi

Im Sara...25, from Australia... Ive SI'd on and off for over 10 years... but its gotten a whole lot worse in the last 4-5 months...

Sara

 

[Deamiter]

Well I'm Ken and I've been free from SI for many months (probably sometime last summer) barring some tiny habitual (not emotional) slipups that were hardly noticable. I think I did it for 3-4 years, but I can't really remember clearly. I remember the first time very vividly, but I'd NEVER be able to nail down even a year, much less a date without great effort.

I'm a fourth-year physics student at a Christian university (graduating in May YAY!) and I'm quite nervous about what I'm going to do next year as I don't yet have a job lined up and I'm waiting to see if I get good TA scholarships to a grad school.

I'm also one of the mods around here, and I've been trying to answer questions recently, though it'll be mostly time that hammers out stuff, not generalized answers from me!

Feel free to PM me with ANY questions or comments. ESPECIALLY if your posts aren't being approved -- it could very well be because none of the mods have checked recently and we need a bit of a wakeup call!

 

[katylees]

Happy Birthday to Sparrow for yesterday (sorry im late)

Im katy, Im 19 and i've si'ed for nearly a year. I've sorta started to get help. I'm from the Uk and in my first year studying music at Cardiff University.

*hugs*

 

[Loopi]

I'm Loopi aka Laura. Am 14 and from england. bin Sh'ing on and off for three years. Am currently on a mental health waiting list, altho wanna be taken off of it cus ive given up the hope of getting better. Did suffer with EDNOS, but with a lot of prayer and effort ive got through that. Self harm wise things are pretty bad atm, but hey.
God Bless to you all
xxxxxx

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

Hey,

Loopi things will get better i promise.

I'm Lizzie, im 15 from England, i have been SI'ing for about 7 years on and off, i know...I started early. I am quereying whether i count as a Christian or not so i won't be offering prayer but any advice i can give i am willing to.

Love n Hugs to you all

Lizzie

 

[els_bells]

Hello,
I'm Ella, I'm 20 and from the UK too. I'm in my first year studying medicine at university. I've been SIing for the past 7 years. In the past I have a seen range of psychologists/counsellors/psychiatrist and haven't managed to beat this so far. However I have just started meeting up with some people from church and am finally being honest about a lot of stuff so have hope now that I will be able to get over SI one day.
hugs to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[goldenviolet]

's to all of you! i am over 30 ... and recovered from SI. i haven't hurt myself since i was 23 years old. however i have fought with mental heath disorders and depression until 2 years ago.... including feeling like harming myself.

it took therepy from christian therepists, to get me to settle down enough to see Jesus... they taught me, and prayed with me. i have one certificate for Diabolical Behavior Training. and i keep up by continuing in the word of God, everyday... religiously... becuase i know that God is the God of peace and His will is for me to be reconciled back to Him through Jesus..... though Jesus we can do all things... my heart has been to fallow your threads and keep reminding you that God sees you. you aren't invisible or lost. there is help. you can learn to manage your pain and what you do about it.

and it is on my heart to encourage you do keep practicing doing healthy things for yourself. this is recovery... practice... practice... practice. your pain is not the only thing in your life. practicing balance and focusing on other things is good for you.

the scars are permanate on my body, but not in my heart. i want you to know this how you can be too.

 

[Hidden face_Hurting heart]

Hello everyone,
I'm Hannah. I'm 16, and I just started SIing in the past few months, though I've struggled with depression for years. I'm just now getting treatment for depression, getting counseling and going on meds. Hopefully with that going on I'll be able to stop soon after I began, but when I started SI, I was immediately addicted. I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you and will be praying for you!

 

[sparrow]

rdee, that's so encouraging. It's great to hear of people who have managed to get SI free, it makes recovery seem more of a reality than a distant dream.

As for my SI (I didn't mention it in my first post), I've been SIing for 2 years now but I haven't currently SIed for about 2 weeks, so I'm making progress!

It's really nice to hear from you all by the way...

 

[heavenliejediofthebeach]

Hi, my name is Danie.....I have been struggling with cutting for two years now. I have meds..but I forget about them most of the time I started counsiling last summer but I stopped when I had an experience with a pushy Doc...

 

[Bevlina]

Dano!

So happy you found us! So, how are you going now honey?

 

[alilsa]

Why would anyone care to know who I really am, I can't even get my posts on the board without screwing up. I'm nobody that anybody would care to get close to. "If you knew me you wouldn't want me, I hide the scars by the smiles on my face" (Gaither). (Don't know who wrote this song). (Actually, I hide them with long sleeves, too.) I used to be sandy blonde when I was younger so I choose the word alilsa to mean a lil sandy. It was an alter's name, along with a few other alters names. I don't have any close friends and don't hang out with anybody, have an attachment problem. All my life, people walk out on me. So, I'm a nobody that people don't want to really know, a misfit, a reject that been through/around way too much abuse to know what is normal. But I also like the song, "Who Am I", the answer to that song, "Who Am I,... I am yours" (Casting Crowns)? I know only God can make something of my very messed up life and help me to stop hurting myself.

 

[Bevlina]

God, and yourself alilsa. You are a person, a breathing, living soul. You are you.
And, it can be fun to be a girl!
Yes, people will walk out on you through life. That's because they can. But, are they worth knowing? I don't think so.
But, you are NOT a misfit, or a reject! You are you. You are unique. You have talents that still lay dormant. And, I know God will lead you to use those talents too!

 

[Imani]

Why would anyone care to know who I really am, I can't even get my posts on the board without screwing up. I'm nobody that anybody would care to get close to. "If you knew me you wouldn't want me, I hide the scars by the smiles on my face" (Gaither). (Don't know who wrote this song). (Actually, I hide them with long sleeves, too.) I used to be sandy blonde when I was younger so I choose the word alilsa to mean a lil sandy. It was an alter's name, along with a few other alters names. I don't have any close friends and don't hang out with anybody, have an attachment problem. All my life, people walk out on me. So, I'm a nobody that people don't want to really know, a misfit, a reject that been through/around way too much abuse to know what is normal. But I also like the song, "Who Am I", the answer to that song, "Who Am I,... I am yours" (Casting Crowns)? I know only God can make something of my very messed up life and help me to stop hurting myself.

well i care to know who you are and i would like to know you. I hope you will give me/us all here that chance.

Sara

 

[Bevlina]

I echo Sara's words.

 

[katylees]

i also agree ..i would like to know about you ...and care about you

 

[Mishap]

Why would anyone care to know who I really am, I can't even get my posts on the board without screwing up. I'm nobody that anybody would care to get close to. "If you knew me you wouldn't want me, I hide the scars by the smiles on my face" (Gaither). (Don't know who wrote this song). (Actually, I hide them with long sleeves, too.) I used to be sandy blonde when I was younger so I choose the word alilsa to mean a lil sandy. It was an alter's name, along with a few other alters names. I don't have any close friends and don't hang out with anybody, have an attachment problem. All my life, people walk out on me. So, I'm a nobody that people don't want to really know, a misfit, a reject that been through/around way too much abuse to know what is normal. But I also like the song, "Who Am I", the answer to that song, "Who Am I,... I am yours" (Casting Crowns)? I know only God can make something of my very messed up life and help me to stop hurting myself.

People here care and the fact that you posted here (therefore reaching out to us) shows that you care in some way too.

If I'm prying feel free to ignore this question... When you mentioned "alters" do you mean DID/MPD?


My intro: I'm Cassie, I'm from the UK (there seems to be alot of Brits here) and I've SI'd for about 4 years though I would bite/scratch/bruise myself from about the age of 7. I've been in therapy for almost 3 years now, and have recently had my meds increased which has helped a great deal.


I hope today is a good day for everyone here.

 

[Learning2Crawl]

I guess it's time I confronted my demons and admit that I'm a SI person. I don't do cutting but other things that are as equally wrong. My problems lie in a revolving door of depression, low self-esteem, and anger—all of which end up as SI over and over. I just can't seem o help myself with this and really don't know what to do. Whenever I practice SI I sink further down into the well of depression. Definitely a vicious cycle of mental and physical abuse.