I don't know how to explain this very well. I was fine for a couple of days. I have times where I feel like I'm getting out of depression and I feel pretty good, then sometimes I'll lose the things that did that (they were either temporary or just unfortunately went away. for example when I am around people all day for a few days straight then adjust to loneliness) and I freak out and the sadness gets so strong I almost get frantic, like panic but with depression but it goes down a bit when I distract myself and try to think of happy things. Then I think of things like how my life used to be compared to now and the depression is so strong I get very nauseous. I also make random assumptions like "nobody likes me" or "I don't have a good personality" and "I shouldn't try to be happy I deserve sadness" and other random negative thoughts and it feels like there are knots in my stomach. I was afraid I had bipolar disorder or something but I don't think I do because I know what is causing this. What can I do to help myself? Should I be on anti-depressants? 
