In need of help

[Jack Spartan]

This is a continuation of A Ballard of a Former...


I've started to notice changes within myself. I'm more quite, more submissive. But isolating, and sad... I've been giving myself to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit A lot lately. This wasn't the first time...

I've backslidden back into a life of sin before.

I became addicted to violent games, porn/hentai, MLP FIM.

Coveting Items.

Trying to soften my harden heart.

I gave it all up in order to avoid hell and be in the rapture... Now sinful dreams, Intrusive Thoughts.

Mistakes, they are haunting me... I am doing all I can to follow Him. When I pray I feel some level of comfort. But where is he? Please pray for me

 

[dabro]

I backslid into drugs came out back to them and now trying to really just stop. It's a process as long as in your heart you feel convicted you can always change. When the rapture happens I don't think you have to be perfect with everything but that's not giving you an excuse to use your body as a vessel of evil. I have been delivered from OCD. But at the same time I know that other things in life can happen which will bring on the same amount of stress. Just keep fighting the good fight.

 

[gfxrelay]

This would make a really awesome song, you have a way with words that just flows. We fall, we get up, we make mistakes and we forgive and try again. God promised to always be with you, so If you cant hear him. Close your eyes, and prey "Please take over" Then relax and have faith for..."I am with you" and if you fall, do it again, just keep going, never stop.

 

[Human4]

Ok but what are you doing for your career and recreation?
No doubt you are sad beause you are running from the actual things that give comfort-
1.Being assured that you have a secure future(good grades in your future exams and then subsequently a good job)
2.Good artistic ,creative and positive activities(games,sports,arts etc) for recreation and fun.