I made an impulsive vow to God that I wouldn't eat a real meal until I went to this local employment place, but I went to their website and they didn't have anything, and their number is disconnected and they had no listing when I called information. So I assume they're not there, I've made what feels like an effort to look for jobs online but when I made the vow I had the thought in my mind of physically driving somewhere. But I don't feel right driving my car because the car insurance was paid for by my last job, which I began to feel was sinful for me to be doing (truly, not ocd) and the money I made there was ill-gotten gain, same with my cell phone. I'm so confused, I'm getting really skinny but I don't want to break a vow to God, I've already cheated a few times with small meals but don't want to make it worse. I live with my parents and they're freaked out but I don't want to choose what they want over what God wants.