Today I woke up feeling miserable and frustrated. Cause I know that nothing good lives in me that is my sinful nature for I have the desire to do what is good but I can not carry it out. I know that without the Holy Spirit I can not please the Father and the Son and bring glory to the Father and the Son. Without the Holy Spirit I'm hopeless and powerless. So anyways I went to my local Church today and found a book called "The world's greatest counselor." It's about the Holy Spirit. So I signed out the book and went into the chapel and just cried to GOD. It was just me and Him and I cried my eyes out. Then I left feeling better. And I was doing good until I kept reading that book and it said to quietly listen to the Holy Spirit. I dunno how. I dunno how to listen. Even when I can see someone talkin to me my mind is always going. It never stops. I am unable to stop it. I never been taught how to listen. So I dunno how. Things like that just don't come to me. Nothing actually comes to me. I have to be taught every single little thing. That's just how I am. That may sound like a closed mind. I get that reaction alot. But it's cause of my autism. This is just how I am. It's not my fault. So anyways I just need prayer for GOD to teach me how to listen. And help me find a way to know what is Him and what is my imagination or a wolf in sheep's clothing. I need to know how to listen to the Holy Spirit or I'm never gonna say or do anything that pleases GOD. So to me this is very very important and I am so frustrated that I don't know this. And it doesn't help that I'm unable to stop my mind from thinking. I am literally unable. That's just the way it is. Not my fault. I am so frustrated! Please pray for me.... Ty for your prayers.
Jenny
Jenny