So recently I thought I was accepting Christ as my savior and starting to believe in God again, but then I start to realize we live in a world of deception, and how Christians would ALWAYS be persecuted.
I've listened to some of Zac Poonen's sermons recently (you can find them on Youtube) and he constantly warns that other preachers don't preach what Jesus did with his Sermon on the Mount, and that although other denominations seem godly and nice on the outside, he said to be careful of deception and discern.
Those who follow Christ should abide by all his commandments, not just some. To abide by the will of the Father.
I've been struggling because I still have things in my life which I feel aren't godly and may LEAD to sin but in itself aren't sinful (at least I don't think they are). But the passage regarding Jesus' second coming and how he will tell many that 'I never knew you, depart from me' frightens me. This passage has send my mind into a whirlwind in the past few days.
Many will claim to be Christian and accept Jesus as savior, but their lives will be wasted because they didn't worship the true Jesus. They didn't read the Bible and abide by his commandments, though they claim they have. And it's even more disturbing for those who just claim to be contemporary Christians (basically live your worldly life but feel obligated to go to church few times a year for holidays, chant a repetetive prayer every night, etc) are going straight for hell. The fact that my family, my parents, my friends would all go to hell because they didn't truly give up their worldly life for Jesus just has me frantically confused and scared.
I almost feel like giving up completely and going back to Atheism. Why do we have these fossil records of hominids and evidence of a really old Earth but none of it is mentioned in the Bible? What of the hominids before us? Did they all go to hell? Did they have souls? You can't deny their existence, the fossils are authentic and buried deep within the Earth undisturbed. Evolution, the continental drift theory, all these present compelling evidence.
But at the same time I would HATE to just give up God and Christ just because I can't give up the world for them. I feel as if I have to give up all my friends and family to follow them because the path is that narrow. Why waste your life pretending to be Christian when you aren't 100% faithful?
I'm a trainwreck right now and not sure what to do. I feel like all Catholics would go to hell for their idolatry and repetitive verses (none of which are ever mentioned in the Bible), but I have so many loved ones who are Catholic and would depress me to know they would suffer for eternity.
I know deception exists because God wants to test us but I sometimes feel EVERYONE is deceived because everyone says this group is deceived that group is deceived, etc. What of the Jews? Muslims? How do we know for certain we are the only right ones?
Sorry just felt like getting that off my chest. It's a lot to think about.
dear m56,
Before the Lord saved me and things weren't so clear, what I did was I watched different preachers on the internet - mainly those who use and read their bibles during preaching. And I also read the bible myself, so whatever those preachers say, I would only believe if I read it in the bible myself.
I just kept on reading and listening to preachers.
For one, if your mind is not idle because it is busy studying His word (read every single chance you get) or listening about Him then the evil one will have less chance messing with your mind.
I am sure after reading the bible (and I suggest you read by books, not to pick out verses only) you will find things that you need to know.
If you have not found the answers to your questions yet, just keep reading (I suggest to continue on until you've done all the books, then repeat).
You do not have to do anything drastic... Just sit tight, until you get the answer from the bible.
Psalm 119:
9 How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word.
10 With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander from your commandments!
11 I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.
12 Blessed are you, O LORD; teach me your statutes!
13 With my lips I declare all the rules of your mouth.
14 In the way of your testimonies I delight as much as in all riches.
15 I will meditate on your precepts and fix my eyes on your ways.
16 I will delight in your statutes; I will not forget your word.
All glory to God!