I'm new, not sure if I should post...

[clavdiachauchat]

Hello,
I'm reluctant to post because it means I'm giving in to depression, or at least, acknowledging that it is back.
I've had a weird disease that has come and gone for the past 2 1/2 years. When the symptoms go away, the depression does, too. YES! But I had it for a year or so the first time, and then three months the second, so it doesn't seem to be a quick thing.
It started with non-viral hepatitis caused (maybe) by a different virus, such as CMV or Epstein-Barr. Then I couldn't eat or sleep and felt rotten for a very long time. It slowly went away after that for a number of months . It came back a year ago, went away for awhile, and for the last week or so seems to be back.
I also have the usual depressive symptoms: exhaustion, being spaced out, not being interested in doing anything, memory loss. I guess this is not that unusual--having a chronic illness accompanied by depression. But I was so hoping that I was done with it! It was so wonderful to feel good again, to be excited about life, be a strong part of my four daughters' lives rather than being a burden to everyone.

I'm in bed too tired to do anything (illness?), not feeling like doing anything (depression?)

I'm blessed to have had a break from this. Oh please Lord, let me not fall into it again!

Well, that was exhausting. Think I'll close my eyes for a minute.

My heart goes out to people on this forum. It looks like there are some wonderful people here who are coping, with God's help. Thanks for letting me spill...

 

[myanchor]

Man what a name, I'm going to use CDCC for you. The symptoms of depression can mimic other disorders, and vice versa. If you are exhausted from chronic fatigue, you will mimic depression. If you have a low thyroid production, exhaustion, hair loss and depression mimicry. Go to your doctor and tell him/her what is going on. Write down your symptoms beforehand and keep a log of when you feel certain things, okay?

 

[Dave73]

I feel for you ... it's not the way ANYONE wants to live. As myanchor said, go see your doctor. My wife put it off for so long and now wishes she had done it sooner. I'll say a prayer for you.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you
Admitting you are feeling bad isn't an admission of defeat, sweetie, it's the first step to getting some help and beginning to recover.
Feel free to spill all you like here, it's what the forum is for! And a lot of us do understand, perhaps not your precise situation, but what it is to live with recurring depression.
Just hold on... you have recovered before, you will again.