I'm looking for help

[ghh41683]

I really need advice... actually... I'm in need of direction. I am 22 years old and still living with my parents (mother and step father). When I was younger I got into some trouble with the law and found myself with 2 felonies. I got my license suspended and have a record making it difficult to find a job. I've had a drug problem for the past 5 years and have been stealing money out of my mothers bank account and I think it's now catching up to me. The bank called today and told my mother that she needs to come down and check her account. I know I my time is now up. I love my mother with all my heart. I don't know why I am the way I am. I wan't to blame the drugs but I know its my fault. Today I fear I will be kicked out of the house. I have no job, no money, no car (no license) and soon to be no home.

I want to kill myself. I often find myself saying "I hate my life, I hate myself". I truely feel like killing myself.

I hate what I have become.

I don't know if anyone here can help me... I question why I even post here.

I really dont know what to do.

I'm sorry mom.

 

[Akuma]

I wish I could help, I really do. But I've never been in a situation like that but my advice is to hang in there, get help, and face the attack. Life is good and count your blessings. I'm sorry I can't help more but I pray someone more experienced will post and help you. I will pray for you, if that's any consolation.

God bless.

 

[ghh41683]

Thank you. Your prayer means more to me then you know.

I want to pray too..... But, I feel like I shouldnt because It seems like I only come to god when I'm in situations like this. I want to become a good christian.

I hoped one day I could see the light and turn my life around. I just think maybe its too late.

 

[newbeliever02072005]

I want to pray too..... But, I feel like I shouldnt because It seems like I only come to god when I'm in situations like this. I want to become a good christian.

Please by all means...pray to your Lord Jesus Christ. He wants to hear from you. He loves you and cares for you!!!

I hoped one day I could see the light and turn my life around. I just think maybe its too late.

It is never to late to turn your life around. I can see from your first post that you recognize the things that you are doing wrong. Pray to the Lord to help you put aside those things. I wonder, do you go to church? If you do, is your pastor aware of your needs? Go to him and ask for his spiritual guideance. He is a man of God willing to help. If you can't go to him, find someone that you trust and talk to them. Tell them what you feel and what you want changed.

I want to kill myself. I often find myself saying "I hate my life, I hate myself". I truely feel like killing myself.

Dont do this!!!!! God loves you and I am sure there are plenty of people that loves you and cares for you deeply. Remember, that its the things that you are doing and not you that they don't like. You need to talk to someone and soon!

God Bless!
newbeliever
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Dear Lord,

I come to you pleading for mercy upon this young man. Help him to understand that you love him and that he is loved. Empower him with courage and strength to continue on with his life in a direction and the way that is pleasing unto you Lord. Place strong, mature christians in his life to help mentor him, guide him and lead him along the way. I also ask that you comfort his mom during this trial in her sons life. Give her rest, so that she can also be a strong influence in his life. Lord, I know you have a will and a purpose for this young man, please open his eyes to this will so that he can be a faithful servant unto you. I praise you for your greatness. All this I ask in your Holy and Precious Name.....Amen!!!

 

[bethdinsmore]

Dear newbie -

I am adding my prayer to the others, friend.

Sounds like feel you are at the end of your rope - but I think it's just the beginning, because you are accepting responsibility for your behavior. And you are looking in the right direction, by talking to other Christians.

God is able to deliver "to the uttermost". No sin or problem is too hard for Him to handle. I have led many Christian recovery groups, and I know this to be the case in my own life and in countless others. You might want to consider attending a Christian recovery group, for guidance and support. They will understand you and your trials, and by sharing their "experience, strength, and hope" in Christ, you can be changed profoundly. Groups such as Overcomers can be found at many churches. And workbooks by Pat Springle also have a lot of Scripture that could help.

Hold on to that life God gave you, friend. Hang in there, and one day you will be able to say "My mess became my message, and my misery became my ministry".


II Corinthians 1: "In our hearts we felt the sentence of death, but these things happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead."

"The battle is not yours, but God's." Other Christians can show you how to take hold of his helping hand.

If you want to know more, including my testimony, please pm me.

God bless you, aloha in Jesus.

 

[Scholar in training]

Please don't do anything drastic. It's not too late to turn your life around; it will take commitment, but it is possible. The fact that you are looking for help shows that you want to live. And we are told in Ezekiel 18 that God doesn't delight in the death of anyone. He says, "Therefore, O house of Israel, I will judge you, each one according to his ways, declares the Sovereign LORD. Repent! Turn away from all your offenses; then sin will not be your downfall. Rid yourselves of all the offenses you have committed, and get a new heart and a new spirit. Why will you die, O house of Israel? For I take no pleasure in the death of anyone, declares the Sovereign LORD. Repent and live!"

We are promised that if we turn to God, he will not throw us aside. You seem willing to give up your addiction, to change, and that is a start to your journey. Have you repented to God? Nothing is too hard for him; he will forgive you if you forgive others, if you walk with him. This doesn't mean that you will never face trouble, but it does mean that God will help you through whatever happens to you. You might have to face the consequences when you face your mother, but I hope that she will be understanding. Have you seen anyone about your drug problem?

Praying for you,
Scholar in training

 

[£amb]

I really need advice... actually... I'm in need of direction. I am 22 years old and still living with my parents (mother and step father). When I was younger I got into some trouble with the law and found myself with 2 felonies. I got my license suspended and have a record making it difficult to find a job. I've had a drug problem for the past 5 years and have been stealing money out of my mothers bank account and I think it's now catching up to me. The bank called today and told my mother that she needs to come down and check her account. I know I my time is now up. I love my mother with all my heart. I don't know why I am the way I am. I wan't to blame the drugs but I know its my fault. Today I fear I will be kicked out of the house. I have no job, no money, no car (no license) and soon to be no home.

I want to kill myself. I often find myself saying "I hate my life, I hate myself". I truely feel like killing myself.

I hate what I have become.

I don't know if anyone here can help me... I question why I even post here.

I really dont know what to do.

I'm sorry mom.

I will also pray for you. Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom before you look up. When your standing in the bottom of the pit wondering who's going to come to your rescue. There is one who can do that for you. That's God's department. He will reach a hand down, pull you up, dust you off alittle, and put you on a better path. 1 Peter 5:6-8 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. He's just waiting for you to call upon Him.

 

[silentpoet]

Jesus picked the scum of society for His primary followers. Do you not think He would choose you and make you clean? First off, you do need to confess your sins to others and do what you can to make it right. It may require you going to jail. Do you Love God enough to do that? I am not saying this to be condemning, but to make you realize how serious the matter is. God is at work in you as I type this. Trust in His craftsmanship. So wherever you find yourself, He is there. Jail is nothing if you are determined to follow God. And remember that as God forgives you, you must also forgive others. Even when they hold your past against you. My prayers go out for you. Hold to the narrow path and I do believe God will see you through.

 

[chocolateloverjen]

I will be praying for you!

I know i use this chapter alot for people who are upset or trying to work things out, but i think it is a great chapter and is helping me at this moment in time!

1 Corinthians 13- The Love chapter.

Just read it and think about it!

God Bless

xxxx

 

[Emmy]

Dear ghh 41683,you had some very helpful replies,and I too will pray for you,but at the same time talk to your Mom,let her see how deeply you regret what you did,and ask her to help you in any way she decides what is best for you.ghh.Your Mother knows you and I am sure wants to help you.But you,yourself,must let her know that you really need help and want to be healed.Sincere greetings from Emmy,a sister in Christ.

 

[luv4godremains]

Lord, I pray for your child, that they may see that they can come to you no matter what, even if they feel it's only even when in certain situations. I pray for them, that they would be able to know your love is always there, that it will never leave, that you have created them for a reason. I pray that you would show your child how much you care about them, that you want to see them happy. I pray you would give your child strength to continue in this life, to turn to you and to change to be the person they want to be. Amen

 

[MinDach]

really need advice... actually... I'm in need of direction. I am 22 years old and still living with my parents (mother and step father). When I was younger I got into some trouble with the law and found myself with 2 felonies. I got my license suspended and have a record making it difficult to find a job. I've had a drug problem for the past 5 years and have been stealing money out of my mothers bank account and I think it's now catching up to me. The bank called today and told my mother that she needs to come down and check her account. I know I my time is now up. I love my mother with all my heart. I don't know why I am the way I am. I wan't to blame the drugs but I know its my fault. Today I fear I will be kicked out of the house. I have no job, no money, no car (no license) and soon to be no home.

I want to kill myself. I often find myself saying "I hate my life, I hate myself". I truely feel like killing myself.

I hate what I have become.

I don't know if anyone here can help me... I question why I even post here.

I really dont know what to do

I think it time to do some growing up. You Need to tell your parents your are sorry, and tell them every thing you did, tell them you have a drug habit, that YOU need help from people who know how to deal with it. Stay away from ALL your friends who are doing the meth too. I do not know if its meth, but from what you said, I bet it is. This drug will rot your mind and all your teeth will fall out of your mouth, and it will give you the feeling you want to kill your self, It your choice, but sooner or later it will all catch up with you, you will do prison or some worse will happen, Jesus is aways there waiting to come in to your life, and help you. I do hope and pray you open your eyes before it to late. My Best to you.

 

[ghh41683]

First thing I would like to do is thank you all for taking the time to reply.

I on the other and am not doing so great. I have yet to take responsibility for my actions. I am a coward. I am scared. I am confused.

I've stolen about $500 total. I have a plan to pay her back. I just don't want her to know that I stole the money because it will break her heart. I could care less about myself. I just don't want her to be disapointed anymore. My eyes are open. I am going to quit doing drugs. I am in the process now of paying her back. I know this isn't the best way to go about things but I really don't know what to do.

We are not a wealthy family so $500 is alot to us. Will god forgive me for not comming clean with my mother? I will quit doing drugs and pay her back. But will god forgive me for not letting my mother know it was me who took the money.

I need help.

I know I have alot of growing up to do..... I have no one to turn to..... I am lost.

Dear Lord, I come to you today asking for a path. Please help me be a better person. Please help me see the light. I need you in my life... I am going through a very hard time right now and I don't know what will happen to me. I am scared.

 

[sc4s2cg]

Dont kill yourself! G-d has a special plan just for you. He loves you no matter what you do, no matter where you are. All you have to do is have faith in Him. Im praying for you as well, and I suggest a website: www.settingcaptivesfree.com. Please check it out, it has a lot of courses that may help you get closer to Him.
Dont give up, Jesus loves you sooo much and yes, G-d will forgive you. Just ask for forgiveness.
G-d bless,
sc

 

[psychedelicist]

First thing I would like to do is thank you all for taking the time to reply.

I on the other and am not doing so great. I have yet to take responsibility for my actions. I am a coward. I am scared. I am confused.

I've stolen about $500 total. I have a plan to pay her back. I just don't want her to know that I stole the money because it will break her heart. I could care less about myself. I just don't want her to be disapointed anymore. My eyes are open. I am going to quit doing drugs. I am in the process now of paying her back. I know this isn't the best way to go about things but I really don't know what to do.

We are not a wealthy family so $500 is alot to us. Will god forgive me for not comming clean with my mother? I will quit doing drugs and pay her back. But will god forgive me for not letting my mother know it was me who took the money.

I need help.

I know I have alot of growing up to do..... I have no one to turn to..... I am lost.

Dear Lord, I come to you today asking for a path. Please help me be a better person. Please help me see the light. I need you in my life... I am going through a very hard time right now and I don't know what will happen to me. I am scared.

It's gonna suck but the best thing to do is come clean with your mother and checking yourself into rehab wouldn't hurt, if you don't think you can stop doing drugs on your own. Tell your parents everything you just told us, and they will (hopefully) understand. If not, all you can do is make it up to them and yourself by paying her back and getting clean.

Good luck, man. Hope everything turns out OK.

 

[Harlan Norris]

Remember you are as important to God as anyone. He has not forgotten you. I believe the key to turning your life around is the same for everyone. Facing up to our actions is the first step. Go to your mother and tell her what you have done. Ask her to forgive you. Resolve to pay her back. There are opportunities even for ex felons. Construction trades and day labor for instance. As you go through this process, you will achieve all your goals. You will also find that you aren't so inclined to err in the same way. Good luck and God bless you.

 

[cyberfugue]

Yes, absolutely talk to your Mom. Tell her what you have told us here and that you need help. Tell her that you will repay her and ask for her forgiveness. If you are truly sorry I hope she would see that in you.

You should also know that God will forgive you if you put your faith in Christ and accept Him as your Lord and Saviour.

 

[cyberfugue]

First thing I would like to do is thank you all for taking the time to reply.

I on the other and am not doing so great. I have yet to take responsibility for my actions. I am a coward. I am scared. I am confused.

I've stolen about $500 total. I have a plan to pay her back. I just don't want her to know that I stole the money because it will break her heart. I could care less about myself. I just don't want her to be disapointed anymore. My eyes are open. I am going to quit doing drugs. I am in the process now of paying her back. I know this isn't the best way to go about things but I really don't know what to do.

We are not a wealthy family so $500 is alot to us. Will god forgive me for not comming clean with my mother? I will quit doing drugs and pay her back. But will god forgive me for not letting my mother know it was me who took the money.

I need help.

I know I have alot of growing up to do..... I have no one to turn to..... I am lost.

Dear Lord, I come to you today asking for a path. Please help me be a better person. Please help me see the light. I need you in my life... I am going through a very hard time right now and I don't know what will happen to me. I am scared.

I'm praying for you, friend. Please keep us updated.

 

[NothingButTheBlood]

Sit your mom down and talk to her. If she finds out her trust will be blown completely. If your honest she at least has something to start with. You really need to decide if you want to straighten up or keep going like you are. There are lots of choices you just don't want to make them. Get into rehab and get clean first of all. You can't make decisions messed up. From here you can get into training for work, getting your license back, etc. Don't give up on yourself, in a year you could be right where you would like to be. I will pray for you too.

 

[DIVA_for_Christ]

As a mom, I would be hurt even more to find out by any other means than by my child. Being honest with your mother will be the best thing that you could do for the both of you. No it wont be easy. It will be hard and it will cause hurt, but that will be the beginning of the healing process.

No matter how hard it seems to tell her, it will be harder on both of you emotionally, spiritually and physically to keep it hidden. God is already touching your heart, He wants to heal you and use you for His kingdom but He isn't going to force you to do the right thing. The enemy will have you think it's better to be deceitful in trying to pay her back. But what happens to your mindset if you can't pay her back and you never get a chance to tell her the truth.

Just as a heads up, mother's have a way of already knowing, even if we are in denial. Your mother might already be praying that God would deliver you from drugs, stealing.

Don't listen to the lies of the enemy. Killing yourself is not the solution. Trusting God is. Give Him a chance. You have tried everything else - try Him. He won't fail you. Even if you don't understand and it seems let all hell is coming at you - trust Him, He has you.

He's building a testimony through your life - once you get through this season - know that you will be powerful for God and you will give God the glory for you will know without a shadow of doubt that it was only by the grace of God that you were saved.

God Bless you and keep you.