I'm desperate! :cry:

[j010203t]

I miss God so so much and I really need help! Oh please! Sin has destroyed my relationship with God and everynight I go to bed in such anguish! I allowed sin to take over and ignored the warnings of the holy spirit. Now I just feel desperate! The last time I prayed sincerily was two years ago.. Sometimes I pray but I don't feel God hears me. There's so much fear in my heart, I feel I'm not saved. I MISS GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE! I can't have faith, I have cried so many times because I feel there's no turning point, that conviction, that certainty, that peace, that joy are all gone! Am I not being sincere enough? I mean I do fail sometimes and I feel so much guilt! Once I've entered this prayer-sin-prayer-sin cycle my heart has hardened so much! I would give all I am and have just to feel God's love again. I HATE SIN, OH I HATE MYSELF!!! AGRGRGRG! I'm desperate! HEAR ME GOD!!! Someone help me! Tell me what to do, should I fast? I do know what I have lived with GOD, I truly knew him! Why did I left him! WHY???

 

[Pal Handy]

I miss God so so much and I really need help! Oh please! Sin has destroyed my relationship with God and everynight I go to bed in such anguish! I allowed sin to take over and ignored the warnings of the holy spirit. Now I just feel desperate! The last time I prayed sincerily was two years ago.. Sometimes I pray but I don't feel God hears me. There's so much fear in my heart, I feel I'm not saved. I MISS GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE! I can't have faith, I have cried so many times because I feel there's no turning point, that conviction, that certainty, that peace, that joy are all gone! Am I not being sincere enough? I mean I do fail sometimes and I feel so much guilt! Once I've entered this prayer-sin-prayer-sin cycle my heart has hardened so much! I would give all I am and have just to feel God's love again. I HATE SIN, OH I HATE MYSELF!!! AGRGRGRG! I'm desperate! HEAR ME GOD!!! Someone help me! Tell me what to do, should I fast? I do know what I have lived with GOD, I truly knew him! Why did I left him! WHY???

I think that you need to be around others who have gone through
what you have and have come out on the other side.

These who have already been where you are now will be able to pray for you,
encourage you and extend the love of God to you in a way that delights God.

God delights in us when we love and support each other.

God has given the church (those who belong to Christ) gifts in the Holy
Spirit that are made to be used to help each other and put a very
real and tangible face on God's love for us as expressed though His people.

I would suggest that you find a church that believes in the gifts of the
Holy Spirit and experiences them actively working in their meetings.

Go to a church that sees the Holy Spirit moving in the congregation
in the gifts that God has given to build up others in faith, love and
devotion to Jesus Christ.

As long as you stay by yourself and do not seek out the help that God
has already given us in those who seek Him and His gifts, you will feel
detatched and alone.

God has made us to be in a relationship of love and support with those
who belong to Him in Christ.

Pray and ask God to help you and then start looking for a good church.

 

[graceandpeace]

Sorry to hear you're so discouraged.

The reality is we all live in a broken world. We are not always going to be smiling & happy, with one spiritual high to the next, as we & those around us are subject to sin, sickness, pain, death. We are sinners, & we need mercy & healing.

It helps me to pray the Jesus Prayer:

O Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Do you currently have a church home? If so, I would suggest seeking support from other Christians & confession from your priest/pastor if available.

 

[ilovehim29]

I'm sorry to hear all of this. it breaks my heart. God loves you and its never too late to get right with him again. It'll get better. I know

 

[Kingsdotter]

I miss God so so much and I really need help! Oh please! Sin has destroyed my relationship with God and everynight I go to bed in such anguish! I allowed sin to take over and ignored the warnings of the holy spirit. Now I just feel desperate! The last time I prayed sincerily was two years ago.. Sometimes I pray but I don't feel God hears me. There's so much fear in my heart, I feel I'm not saved. I MISS GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE! I can't have faith, I have cried so many times because I feel there's no turning point, that conviction, that certainty, that peace, that joy are all gone! Am I not being sincere enough? I mean I do fail sometimes and I feel so much guilt! Once I've entered this prayer-sin-prayer-sin cycle my heart has hardened so much! I would give all I am and have just to feel God's love again. I HATE SIN, OH I HATE MYSELF!!! AGRGRGRG! I'm desperate! HEAR ME GOD!!! Someone help me! Tell me what to do, should I fast? I do know what I have lived with GOD, I truly knew him! Why did I left him! WHY???

Find a quiet place (away from all the noise and daily distractions of life) like Jesus often did. Fast, pray and feast on the word of God. You will definitely feel God's presence after this spiritual exercise. God bless

 

[yuppers]

Brother, I'm struggling as well from mistakes in my past. I think I'm a few steps ahead of you in recovery so I will try to help you the best I can. This might not be easy to hear but it will take time to get through this. You probably won't feel restored in god for a while. It will be a process of asking for forgiveness ( and I'm shure you've begged for it). That is only a first little step. The next steps are harder. Trying to accept that god ALREADY HAS FORGIVEN YOU is harder ( at least for me) to try and understand. Then you have to forgive yourself ( witch is another hard step for me). Brother remember to stay strong in god, don't give up faith. Try to read the bible if you can even if it's only a few verses. Stay strong brother stay strong, your life on earth will go through hard times, just remember though your gift is waiting in heaven not on earth. I will pray for you

 

[parsley]

God wants you to know what His terms are -- you remember what the contract said, right? God made a covenant, where He paid the price for your sins.

You need to stand on that. Your brain will throw all sorts of things at you, about not deserving. Those are your terms, or The Accuser's, or the terms you've heard people criticize with that got stored in your memory. But God did not ask you to earn and deserve His love. He asked you to believe what He said.

That might take some determination to resist the thoughts flying through your head, but you can do it. If anxiety-laden and wrenching with guilt, will it be possible to exude the love of God and be the salt of the earth? Let go of the condemnation, ground yourself in His Word and His promises, and keep moving forward. A little lighter in your step.

The gospel is forgiveness. The gospel is that the kingdom is yours. It's good news.

It will be a process of asking for forgiveness ( and I'm shure you've begged for it). That is only a first little step. The next steps are harder. Trying to accept that god ALREADY HAS FORGIVEN YOU is harder ( at least for me) to try and understand. Then you have to forgive yourself ( witch is another hard step for me).

 

[Emmy]

Dear jO10203. In Matthew 22: 35-40: Jesus told a Lawyer: " The first and great Commandment is: Love God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. The second is like it: Love thy neighbour as thyself." Jesus also told us; " On these two Commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets." God wants our Love, freely given and no tags attached. How can we best do this? We start treating all we know and all we meet, as we love to be treated: kindly and always with friendly words. God will see our loving efforts, and God will approve and Bless us.
In Matthew 7: 7-10: we will find: " ask and ye shall receive." We will ask God for Love and Joy, then thank God and share all Love and Joy with our neighbour. We keep asking God and thanking God, then share all Love and Joy
with our neighbour. Do this and you will find that God will prove of what you are doing, and God will Bless you. The Bible also tells us to " Repent," and to
" Be Born Again," God will notice how you change from selfishness and unloving, to become Loving and Caring. You might stumble and forget at times, but then ask God to forgive you, and carry on loving and caring.
Show God that you really mean to change, and God will approve and Love you, as you want to be loved. Keep showing God your love, and you will find that God is all Love and Loves you also. I say this with love, jO.
Greetings from Emmy, your sister in Christ.

 

[DiscipleHeLovesToo]

...Why did I left him! WHY???

because your focus has shifted from what He did for you to what you've done; you're facing the reality that you can't earn anything from Him - so remember that you don't have to! focus on the Good News that you receive everything good from Him as free gifts, regardless of your performance, good or bad. so you messed up; did this cause His words of forgiveness toward you to change? no - it caused you to despair of earning His favor. when you mess up, receive your already available mercy and forgiveness and step boldly back into His Throne Room of undeserved favor not dependent on your performance bad or good. don't let your feelings control you - you can control them by focusing on God's undeserved, un-earn-able goodness toward you; Let not your heart be troubled, you believe in God, believe also in Jesus and what He did for you; your wrong thoughts and actions are infinitely tiny compared to His payment for them - focus on what He has done for your good rather than what you have done, good or bad.

 

[RAnonUS19B]

Just keep fighting against sin God will always listen to your prayers even after you have sinned remember God will always love you no matter what you do remember to forgive those that hurt you before if you have not already and just ask for forgiveness after every time you sin you may just need deliverance praying for you.

 

[Quasicentennial]

Faith is a present and future active word, in that we expect positive results, guaranteed results, and unlike frequent broken government promises - Jesus offers us an unbroken promise that not only removes Satan from the equation of life, but also transform both human society and planet Earth, where disaster after disaster, such as vehicle accidents and earthquakes, will become data information and images on our advanced encyclopedia-like tablet PCs:.
Jesus is obviously absorbing every human experience, criticism and prayer request since his resurrection with his powerful victorious and invincible mind and body, and Satan is curious to find out "how" he will be defeated in the future where he will fall short of the finishing line: reaching his ultimate goal to turn the whole world into a sports entertainment event of human tragedies from disease, crime and Earth's natural disasters:.
It's hard to imagine that even those from the cruellest of circumstances, such as the Holocaust during Hitler's reign, would stand as a crowd in front of Jesus, as if no disease, disability-causing circumstance or tragedy - had touched their lives:.
Jesus will return and no matter how hard Satan will try to deceive us, our constant strong faith and endless prayer requests - it's almost like an ongoing protest to fight for our lives to live long and prosper without Satan behind our backs - are being supernaturally received in Christ's eternal mind with a mega-memory that is beyond the size of our universe.;'*';.
Rev 21:2

 

[mytel]

If you are seeking peace, go directly to God, give it all over to Him. I can relate to going through times like this, you just have to turn to God and seek Him with all your heart. Jesus was sent to save the world not condemn it. Through his grace, we are given the ultimate gift of forgiveness for our sins.
I would suggest making steps toward building your relationship with God, for me it was regular bible reading, schedule time that you can devote to reading your bible. Especially the gospels, learn about the good news and the sacrifice Jesus has already made for our sins. Pray daily as well, nurture the connection with God, and allow your relationship to develop with Him. He can set us free from anything and any sin, it is through God only and not through our own effort or performance.

 

[setfreekb]

I miss God so so much and I really need help! Oh please! Sin has destroyed my relationship with God and everynight I go to bed in such anguish! I allowed sin to take over and ignored the warnings of the holy spirit. Now I just feel desperate! The last time I prayed sincerily was two years ago.. Sometimes I pray but I don't feel God hears me. There's so much fear in my heart, I feel I'm not saved. I MISS GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE! I can't have faith, I have cried so many times because I feel there's no turning point, that conviction, that certainty, that peace, that joy are all gone! Am I not being sincere enough? I mean I do fail sometimes and I feel so much guilt! Once I've entered this prayer-sin-prayer-sin cycle my heart has hardened so much! I would give all I am and have just to feel God's love again. I HATE SIN, OH I HATE MYSELF!!! AGRGRGRG! I'm desperate! HEAR ME GOD!!! Someone help me! Tell me what to do, should I fast? I do know what I have lived with GOD, I truly knew him! Why did I left him! WHY???

You are right, Sin does destroy our relationship with God. But he is ALWAYS ready to forgive and He is right there waiting for you to return to Him. I know this from experience after many years of a habitual sin. I confessed these sin's to God and to others. My relationship with God has continued to grow stronger.
Not knowing a lot about your situation, you might want to first confess your sins and ask for forgiveness from God and anyone you may have sinned against. Seek out a Bible teaching church. Be in His word daily and pray. God bless.