I'm Depressed

[jesusismyking]

I've been depressed since I was 13 years old. There is so many factors that triggered this depression and it hasn't gone away. I've thought about killing myself countless times. My depression is on/off. I put on a happy face and act like a normal,really happy person but meanwhile,I'm screaming and bleeding inside. I want to go to my pastor about this but I'm ashamed. what should I do?

 

[jen_soccer13]

My best advice is to go talk to your pastor. I have had the same thing. I have had many factors in this. The pastor should not look down on you. I went and talked to one here at a campus organization and she helped me a lot. I talk to her all the time now. They may even have good advice for you on what to do. If you ever need to talk..pm me and we can figure something out
Jennifer

 

[ark_angel]

I would definitly go to your pastor or somebody, I was struggling with depression for awhile, and I was cutting myself, thought about suicide a couple of times, then I had an eating disorder, which would have led to suicide soon if I didn't talk to someone. None of this stuff is from a long time ago either, I just went and talked about it yesterday, so yeah it is very recent. I am now on my way to recovery, back on track with the Lord, and back to actually trying to live, a few more days with out eating and drinking I would have been dead in a couple of days, and it would have ruined God's entire plan for my life. I would really suggest talking to someone at least, I know what you mean about being ashamed, trust me, I was so ashamed I was trying to hide from God, I could not bare to be in His presence, so I was physically and spiritually dieing, not a good combination. I would also encourage you to stay in the Word and keep praying, I know it is hard, but reading the Word helps to lift your spirit and bring joy and happiness, I know it is hard to pray but keep on, and pray for courage to talk to your pastor or someone, I will pray for you also, cause I know how much courage it takes, it takes a lot, and the Lord was faithfully and helped me through to talk to someone, yeah there was still a little fear but that is when your faith has to jump right in and you need to take that step of faith. I hope this helps if you wanna talk feel free to, I've been there and it is not a pleasant experience at all
I hope this helps

ark_angel

 

[TruthSetsYouFree]

Hi there! I know depression comes from the devil, and I've faced spiritual junk that the enemy has thrown my way too (in the form of fears, which is similar to depression), and I read a book titled Bondage Breaker by Neil T. Anderson, and it really helped me out a LOT! It opened my eyes to see what was going on "behind the curtain," and helped me see things in a whole new light! If you want REAL results that last, then you'd better get a hold of the truth, and this book is packed with information about how the enemy takes advantage of us, and how you can break free from his grip! Satan wants to pull you down, but God wants to set you free! I know that there is a youth edition of that book out, which I bet is really good! I highly suggest reading it, and it will give you a whole new outlook on being set free from depression!!

In Christ,
Bobby

 

[TheMainException]

Keep going to your pastor and ask him/her to help you find a good place to get help. This is not at all uncommon and it is very important that you seek help with this. I think about killing myself every day. I act so happy sometimes...so happy, so different... but I feel like you do...the blood pours from every pore (sorry for the pun...I like them...they make me laugh at the stupidity...I hope you laugh too). I walk through the halls of school with a gun (made up of my first two fingers and my thumb of my right hand)...when alone...I blow my bloody head off....I want to do it so bad...but really, I'm terrified of heaven...I mean, come on...I'm not ready for that. God is so mighty, so awesome, so powerful...I am afraid of him more than I hate living in this pitiful state...it is so scary for me to not know what is waiting for me there. I don't want to disappoint him most of all. I was so anxious and afraid and ashamed to go to my YP(youth pastor) at first...and I'm still anxious and many times ashamed...but he cares and understands...he has wanted to run the care into on oncoming care or a tree a whole lot of times....but he says he's a wuss...so he can't do it....please, go to your pastor...it's very important...please PM me and tell me how it goes by next week...okay? Friday of next week...PM me...I don't care if you have to call the whole church to get his phone number or something...although this sort of thing should most certainly be talked about face to face...arrange a time and sit down and talk with him about this...or find some other church member that you trust. In the long run, it will help...it will....I love you...Lauren

 

[ark_angel]

definitly go to someone, it helped me a lot, it is hard at first, let me tell you it was like really hard......really, but since I went to someone, I have been able to talk to someone whenever I have gone back to cutting, and they are there for advice, although sometimes I hafta admit I wonder if I did the right thing, I know I did though, you need to be accountable to someone, it helps, we weren't made to walk on this earth alone, we were made to have fellowship with each other, to seek each other out for help, we need someone else to help us get back on track to see the light and to get back with the Lord, He truly helps, but sometimes we need a little boost from someone, we need someone to talk to that can give advice, it helps a lot
I'll be prayin for ya

 

[TruthSetsYouFree]

Can you tell me when this started? (Try to see what opened the door to this depression) If it seemed to have come out of 'nowhere,' then did your parents or grand parents suffer from depression too? If so, then it very well could be something that got passed down from your ancestors (Deuteronomy 5:9). I read a book that talks about breaking free from those things that were handed down from our ancestors. The book is titled Free at Last by Larry Huch.

In Christ,
Bobby

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

I would start lecturing u about how important it is to talk to an adult about this, it is, but i can't because that would be majorly hypocritical, if you don't feel comfortable talking to an adult talk to one of your friends or someone else you can trust. You can't keep it bottled up. I am hapy to help if you would like

 

[darketernal]

The Cycle of the Soul

This book shows that however deep a human being has fallen, there will always be a way out.

http://home.quicknet.nl/qn/prive/kes/cycle.pdf

 

[darketernal]

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[VivDaGurl]

I've been depressed since I was 13 years old. There is so many factors that triggered this depression and it hasn't gone away. I've thought about killing myself countless times. My depression is on/off. I put on a happy face and act like a normal,really happy person but meanwhile,I'm screaming and bleeding inside. I want to go to my pastor about this but I'm ashamed. what should I do?

jesusismyking

There's nothing wrong with being depressed and with going over to seek help from a Pastor, like what others had said. I, too, have suicidal thoughts and it's very frequent in the past and also at a very young age.

Many times until today, I put on a happy face to show others how happy I am even though I'm not. Many people don't know what's going on inside me, thinking that I'm very happy because in the past I used to show people how I felt. So, jesusismyking, please, don't feel ashamed of this because it's pretty normal and you are not by yourself.

You can PM me if you want to talk...by talking out, you'll feel a lot better.