I don't know where to post this, but in the interest of complying with the rules, I will post it here.
I accepted Christ as my Savior 30 years ago. My faith has waned and waxed over the years. At one point, I wanted to move to Anaheim CA to support Robert Schuller in his work. Over the years, I have really thought about my beliefs and always end up conflicted. I had a a lot of bad experiences with fundamentalist Christianity, and it sort of turned me off. It would be so much easier for me if I could believe as many do, but I have too many questions. Each Easter I really try to separate the bad feelings I have about Christianity from who Jesus really was and what he represented, but I find it impossible to get past the fundamentalist voices in my head, which just makes me avoid the whole subject.
Compounded with this, intuitively I tend to lean toward a belief in reincarnation and Karma. It's the only thing that makes sense to me. I have never understood the whole concept of why Christ died for our sins on the cross. I don't get this anymore than I get calculus (and I only squeaked by with a C in that class, after three attempts at getting through it).
I need to come to terms with something that makes sense to me. I believe in God and never question that. It's Jesus I have a problem with, although intellectually I believe in his teachings and think he was a great man, if not divine.
Here's where I get tripped up. Why would a loving God send people to hell simply by virtue of the fact they are practicing a religion that they were raised to believe in, and indoctrinated as fully as some Christians are. Also, I believe when we pass on our soul lives on, but that we go to the other side. I don't believe in the traditional concept of heaven and hell. Quite frankly, if there is a hell it's here on earth. I don't know if any of you have read any of what Sylvia Browne has to say on the afterlife, but it makes perfect sense to me. It also makes sense to me that we return to this earth to learn lessons unlearned, in order to perfect our souls and ultimately become one with God.
So...what to do. I need to reconcile all of this and cannot. Any thoughts or different perspectives are welcome, although I'd appreciate it if someone could explain things to me in a way that doesn't just quote bible verses. I have read the New Testament and all the verses and still don't get a lot of it.
Too, given the fact I accepted Christ so many years ago, but my beliefs have evolved over time, does this make me a Christian or a non-Christian? I see so many horrible things done in the name of Christianity, and it makes me think I cannot subscribe to a religion where certain things are overlooked. I am a liberal and opposed to the policies of this current administration, in spite of the fact that George Bush professes to be a Christian. To me, Jesus would not want us bombing innocents, especially considering Bush inasmuch admitted that Iraq had nothing to do with 911. How do we move forward thinking that we are doing the right thing, when I know in my heart Jesus was about peace, love and tolerance.
I am confused.
I accepted Christ as my Savior 30 years ago. My faith has waned and waxed over the years. At one point, I wanted to move to Anaheim CA to support Robert Schuller in his work. Over the years, I have really thought about my beliefs and always end up conflicted. I had a a lot of bad experiences with fundamentalist Christianity, and it sort of turned me off. It would be so much easier for me if I could believe as many do, but I have too many questions. Each Easter I really try to separate the bad feelings I have about Christianity from who Jesus really was and what he represented, but I find it impossible to get past the fundamentalist voices in my head, which just makes me avoid the whole subject.
Compounded with this, intuitively I tend to lean toward a belief in reincarnation and Karma. It's the only thing that makes sense to me. I have never understood the whole concept of why Christ died for our sins on the cross. I don't get this anymore than I get calculus (and I only squeaked by with a C in that class, after three attempts at getting through it).
I need to come to terms with something that makes sense to me. I believe in God and never question that. It's Jesus I have a problem with, although intellectually I believe in his teachings and think he was a great man, if not divine.
Here's where I get tripped up. Why would a loving God send people to hell simply by virtue of the fact they are practicing a religion that they were raised to believe in, and indoctrinated as fully as some Christians are. Also, I believe when we pass on our soul lives on, but that we go to the other side. I don't believe in the traditional concept of heaven and hell. Quite frankly, if there is a hell it's here on earth. I don't know if any of you have read any of what Sylvia Browne has to say on the afterlife, but it makes perfect sense to me. It also makes sense to me that we return to this earth to learn lessons unlearned, in order to perfect our souls and ultimately become one with God.
So...what to do. I need to reconcile all of this and cannot. Any thoughts or different perspectives are welcome, although I'd appreciate it if someone could explain things to me in a way that doesn't just quote bible verses. I have read the New Testament and all the verses and still don't get a lot of it.
Too, given the fact I accepted Christ so many years ago, but my beliefs have evolved over time, does this make me a Christian or a non-Christian? I see so many horrible things done in the name of Christianity, and it makes me think I cannot subscribe to a religion where certain things are overlooked. I am a liberal and opposed to the policies of this current administration, in spite of the fact that George Bush professes to be a Christian. To me, Jesus would not want us bombing innocents, especially considering Bush inasmuch admitted that Iraq had nothing to do with 911. How do we move forward thinking that we are doing the right thing, when I know in my heart Jesus was about peace, love and tolerance.
I am confused.