My first post in almost two years!
I'll start off by saying I am completley miserable, it has absolutley nothing to do with the holidays, but the fact I feel as if I have been royaly screwed over!
I put in for a job where I work, I need to get out of the switchboard before it kills me. From all indications early on I did a knockout job in the interview, and the job was supposed to be as good as mine. I've been in my current position for over four years, I know the hospital where I work in and out. I can tell you where clinics are, who works in those clinics, where the clinics used to be, who used to work in them, where they went, etc. I can tell you the extension numbers to anywhere in the hospital, as well as old numbers. I can explain to patients and their family almost all the inter-workings of the hospital, how to sign up for benefits, what they need, etc. Not to toot my own horn, but I always thought I was good, very good.
Apparently not good enough, they gave the job to some clown who has only been at the hospital for six weeks, just six weeks compared to my four and a half years. He is still in his probation period, which lasts for a year, he should not be allowed to apply for another job until that probation period ends. But he got the job, and according to people who did the interview, they were kind of surprised but they knew the scores were close. But I feel something is fishy.
What I know is both of us are veterans, however he has just returned from Iraq and is considered a "combat veteran". Apparently that was enough to push him to the top, but Im calling BS. Im eternally grateful there was no war when I served, but the facts remain, I'm already doing the job that we applied for, but I'm not in the paygrade, well apparently I wont be now. I havent felt this pathetic and low in quite a while.
I'm tired of how people are trying to console me too, especially when people try to get me to see things from this whole other side. I had someone try to console me by mentioning that I shouldnt be bitter and look at it that he has a wife and kid to take care of. Does it seem like I even give a wooden nickle about his wife and kid? Because I am a single, childless invididual I am somehow less entitled to this job or any job than he is. Getting married and having runny nosed brats is his choice, that shouldnt be a factor, and if I ever find out it was, Im am getting a lawyer.
One fact remains, I can not stay in my current position, I am over stressed, answering 1500 calls a day from whiney veterans who seem to think they are more important than the 1499 other whiney veterans eventually wheres one down after a while, much less four bloody, miserable years. Since taking this job I have developed so many health problems, I am on medication for depression and anxiety, I am losing hair by the globs, I get canker sores the size of dimes (and no I am not exaggerating, the dentist checks up on me from time to time because of them), I have developed a stomach ulcer, I have hemorrhoids (coming from having to hold movements, sometimes up to five hours), and Acid reflux disease, my face and back break out in acne like a teenager, Im 28 years old and have no sex drive, or desire to get into any form of relationship, I have little to no interest in my hobbies, I have put on an unhealthy, my head constantly hurts from my neck to the pressure behind my eyes, and I swear I can feel my brain quiver at times and unattractive pot belly. This job is going to kill me, when ever I get stressed like this due to being rejected for a job that righfully should have been mine, I cant keep food on my stomach.
I keep thinking what did I do to deserve this? I tried praying on the matter, but Im not getting any answers, Im only getting sicker. Seriously Im just waiting for the chest pains to hit. I have doubted in my faith before, but this rejection has shaken me to the very core. I really am beginning to think, for all these years I have been wrong in my beliefs. I dont know what to think or do any more.
Thanks for listening!
I'll start off by saying I am completley miserable, it has absolutley nothing to do with the holidays, but the fact I feel as if I have been royaly screwed over!
I put in for a job where I work, I need to get out of the switchboard before it kills me. From all indications early on I did a knockout job in the interview, and the job was supposed to be as good as mine. I've been in my current position for over four years, I know the hospital where I work in and out. I can tell you where clinics are, who works in those clinics, where the clinics used to be, who used to work in them, where they went, etc. I can tell you the extension numbers to anywhere in the hospital, as well as old numbers. I can explain to patients and their family almost all the inter-workings of the hospital, how to sign up for benefits, what they need, etc. Not to toot my own horn, but I always thought I was good, very good.
Apparently not good enough, they gave the job to some clown who has only been at the hospital for six weeks, just six weeks compared to my four and a half years. He is still in his probation period, which lasts for a year, he should not be allowed to apply for another job until that probation period ends. But he got the job, and according to people who did the interview, they were kind of surprised but they knew the scores were close. But I feel something is fishy.
What I know is both of us are veterans, however he has just returned from Iraq and is considered a "combat veteran". Apparently that was enough to push him to the top, but Im calling BS. Im eternally grateful there was no war when I served, but the facts remain, I'm already doing the job that we applied for, but I'm not in the paygrade, well apparently I wont be now. I havent felt this pathetic and low in quite a while.
I'm tired of how people are trying to console me too, especially when people try to get me to see things from this whole other side. I had someone try to console me by mentioning that I shouldnt be bitter and look at it that he has a wife and kid to take care of. Does it seem like I even give a wooden nickle about his wife and kid? Because I am a single, childless invididual I am somehow less entitled to this job or any job than he is. Getting married and having runny nosed brats is his choice, that shouldnt be a factor, and if I ever find out it was, Im am getting a lawyer.
One fact remains, I can not stay in my current position, I am over stressed, answering 1500 calls a day from whiney veterans who seem to think they are more important than the 1499 other whiney veterans eventually wheres one down after a while, much less four bloody, miserable years. Since taking this job I have developed so many health problems, I am on medication for depression and anxiety, I am losing hair by the globs, I get canker sores the size of dimes (and no I am not exaggerating, the dentist checks up on me from time to time because of them), I have developed a stomach ulcer, I have hemorrhoids (coming from having to hold movements, sometimes up to five hours), and Acid reflux disease, my face and back break out in acne like a teenager, Im 28 years old and have no sex drive, or desire to get into any form of relationship, I have little to no interest in my hobbies, I have put on an unhealthy, my head constantly hurts from my neck to the pressure behind my eyes, and I swear I can feel my brain quiver at times and unattractive pot belly. This job is going to kill me, when ever I get stressed like this due to being rejected for a job that righfully should have been mine, I cant keep food on my stomach.
I keep thinking what did I do to deserve this? I tried praying on the matter, but Im not getting any answers, Im only getting sicker. Seriously Im just waiting for the chest pains to hit. I have doubted in my faith before, but this rejection has shaken me to the very core. I really am beginning to think, for all these years I have been wrong in my beliefs. I dont know what to think or do any more.
Thanks for listening!
