i remember life getting so bad....trying to line everything up..or perfect symmetry
can't do anything without counting & organizing in my head...counting sidewalk blocks..having to land on even blocks
counting things during sermons & finding the lil thing that was of..all kinda stuff
then one day...i came across Mathew verse Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
i stared at it..at that point in my life(during a period of lukewarm madness)
stared at it a long time...stood up & had the ah ha moment
i can prove God to myself...i can either trust him 100% and let go..or just continue to bother myself to the point of anxiety & worry over nuthing but my own inner head stuff....simply threw my hands in the air & laughed so hard....God is in control...i let go...i felt a relief come by..a lightness...i gave him my job, my money, my guitar, my band, my spouse, my parents my kids..each one ..from then on i was relieved & have become so happy go lucky...even in hard times..i go back..yep Mathew 6 says it so it is true..now worry is gone, fear has been replaced by faith & a street ministry was born out of this..man i love how God made each one of us..no mistakes..nope..i learned to become me in total reckless faith...