It is bad enough to have religious Obsessive Compulsive Disorder or a similar anxiety problem. If, on top of that, you have wavering faith, you are likely caught in what might be called "The Perfect Storm." I have been in such a storm, up until now, for over a decade. I could just not get lasting assurance of salvation, no matter what. Finally, over the past month, I have developed permanent assurance of salvation.
If you have investigated the claims of Christ and Christianity enough to have become convinced of your need for salvation and are convinced about Jesus Christ and the trustworthiness of His promises, you need to sincerely pray a short, simple prayer, such as a version of what is called "The Sinner's Prayer." After you have sincerely done this once, Christ has you. He will not let you go. Your anxiety disorder and your wavering faith will conspire to throw all kinds of drastic, intense doubt at you. You need to learn to rise above this relentless assault of the Evil One. Try googling "Grantley Morris scrupulosity." I have recently been learning to pray, "Jesus, I so strongly believe in instant salvation, that, even though my faith wavers, I believe You have saved me. I may waver, but You do not."
If you have investigated the claims of Christ and Christianity enough to have become convinced of your need for salvation and are convinced about Jesus Christ and the trustworthiness of His promises, you need to sincerely pray a short, simple prayer, such as a version of what is called "The Sinner's Prayer." After you have sincerely done this once, Christ has you. He will not let you go. Your anxiety disorder and your wavering faith will conspire to throw all kinds of drastic, intense doubt at you. You need to learn to rise above this relentless assault of the Evil One. Try googling "Grantley Morris scrupulosity." I have recently been learning to pray, "Jesus, I so strongly believe in instant salvation, that, even though my faith wavers, I believe You have saved me. I may waver, but You do not."
