I can't expect savlation and eternal security from current holy spirit I have because hatredness and sickness is much bigger than loving mind. Current holy spirit want me to die in the hell. Current holy spirit doesn't love who I am at all. I can't live in the holy spirit.I can't expect baptism in the holy spirit too. I think indwelling of current holy spirit should be temporary. If this holy spirit doesn't love me, Will he leave me?