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[blackribbon]

You need to live. You are important even if you don't understand "why" right now. You are. I am sorry that things are so rough right now and I don't know when they will get better or different, but I believe they will.
Here is a suicide hotline that it appears you can do online and has a dedicated portion for veteran....consider talking to them...

If you are hearing impaired, and a veteran, service member, or any person concerned about one, there are several ways to contact the Veterans Crisis Line.

• To text with a Veterans Crisis Line responder, send a text message to 838255.
• To chat with a Veterans Crisis Line responder, click here.
• Contact the Lifeline via TTY by dialing 800-799-4889

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and I can't tell if that one is manned 24 hours so here is another one, just in case.
Here is a suicide hotline number for text phones if you ever need it.
Text Telephone:
1-800-799-4TTY
(1-800-799-4889)

 

[blackribbon]

What does "spoice" mean?

 

[blackribbon]

Here a link for veterans with hearing loss that maybe can help you get some aid with that problem. I am sure that not being able to hear clearly has to be every bit as frustrating as the mobility and pain issues.

http://www.hearingloss.org/content/veterans

Someday, I'd be very interested to hear what methods of communication are useful to you when in the hospital setting. As part of the job, I do a lot of talking to my patients and just realized that some of them may just get tired of reminding me they can't hear me very well. I have learned to compensate for the blind patient by talking a lot so they know where I am and what I am getting ready to do...but I am not sure how to address hearing issues. I do know I need to get better at facing the patient when I do talk...but should I be writing more things down or what? And maybe I should stop talking so much unless I have something significant to say so they don't feel like they are missing out on something important.

 

[Dan the Man]

im trying. i just want to sleep.

 

[Dan the Man]

You need to live. You are important even if you don't understand "why" right now. You are. I am sorry that things are so rough right now and I don't know when they will get better or different, but I believe they will.
Here is a suicide hotline that it appears you can do online and has a dedicated portion for veteran....consider talking to them...

If you are hearing impaired, and a veteran, service member, or any person concerned about one, there are several ways to contact the Veterans Crisis Line.

• To text with a Veterans Crisis Line responder, send a text message to 838255.
• To chat with a Veterans Crisis Line responder, click here.
• Contact the Lifeline via TTY by dialing 800-799-4889

Accessibility

and I can't tell if that one is manned 24 hours so here is another one, just in case.
Here is a suicide hotline number for text phones if you ever need it.
Text Telephone:
1-800-799-4TTY
(1-800-799-4889)

thanks

 

[Dan the Man]

Here a link for veterans with hearing loss that maybe can help you get some aid with that problem. I am sure that not being able to hear clearly has to be every bit as frustrating as the mobility and pain issues.

Veterans | Hearing Loss Association of America

Someday, I'd be very interested to hear what methods of communication are useful to you when in the hospital setting. As part of the job, I do a lot of talking to my patients and just realized that some of them may just get tired of reminding me they can't hear me very well. I have learned to compensate for the blind patient by talking a lot so they know where I am and what I am getting ready to do...but I am not sure how to address hearing issues. I do know I need to get better at facing the patient when I do talk...but should I be writing more things down or what? And maybe I should stop talking so much unless I have something significant to say so they don't feel like they are missing out on something important.

i don't know sign language or how to read lips at all so unless its completely quiet and someone talks directly into the ear i still have a tiny bit of hearing left in i have to have stuff written down. but even if its quiet and you talk to my ear unless its real slow words and give me time to process it i cant understand what youre saying.

 

[blackribbon]

i don't know sign language or how to read lips at all so unless its completely quiet and someone talks directly into the ear i still have a tiny bit of hearing left in i have to have stuff written down. but even if its quiet and you talk to my ear unless its real slow words and give me time to process it i cant understand what youre saying.

Most adults who lost their hearing as adults wouldn't know sign language ... and probably lip reading too...though some comes with time and practice. I have had to read the lips of someone on a trach tube and wasn't very good. I felt so bad because he needed to say something and I was so sloppy at figuring it out. Turns out we put his call button on the side of his body where his hand didn't work...how stupid were we!

I will remember that and carry an extra notebook or two with me in my bag. Then I could write down the medications and what they do before I come into the room for those patients. And I will make sure I take time and quiet the room down before I need to do anything.

 

[Dan the Man]

Most adults who lost their hearing as adults wouldn't know sign language ... and probably lip reading too...though some comes with time and practice. I have had to read the lips of someone on a trach tube and wasn't very good. I felt so bad because he needed to say something and I was so sloppy at figuring it out. Turns out we put his call button on the side of his body where his hand didn't work...how stupid were we!

I will remember that and carry an extra notebook or two with me in my bag. Then I could write down the medications and what they do before I come into the room for those patients. And I will make sure I take time and quiet the room down before I need to do anything.

it must get realy annoying to have people like me for patients.

 

[bobross]

I just finished reading through this thread and I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for putting it all on the line for us. 20 years in the Marine Corps, you don't see that very often. Thank you. I know things are tough right now and you have to be wondering what your purpose here on earth is. I don't have any answers, but I do know that if God didn't still want you here for SOMETHING you would no longer be here. So sorry for all you are going through, though, as I can imagine your losses have left you fairly hopeless. You have some fine looking boys, Dan. I bet they were and are very proud of their dad. How could they not be? I will pray you will see them soon. God bless.

 

[blackribbon]

it must get realy annoying to have people like me for patients.

Honestly, people with your kind of problems are my favorite patients. I can make a difference. I also restore dignity where it often is robbed. I know for a fact that postpartum was my least favorite rotation ... those people are not ill and I resent the limitations we are required to give them "for safety sake".

One of my favorite patient to date was a 60 year old man with a mess of problems and multiple sclerosis complicated them all. He was going blind...daily and had lost his ability to swallow which had taken him to a point of malnutrition...which took him to the point of severe weakness so he was now bedbound. He also had an infection that meant I had to gown up before coming into his room. After taking time to get past his grumpy dismeanor ( I mean who could blame him? ), we had some fun conversations. I wish I could have stayed in contact with him after he left. I would have visited him in the nursing home. I am sure when I am a staff nurse, I can get permission to do this but as a student nurse, we are not allowed as part of the privacy laws.

He was my first patient with a feeding tube in his stomach. I spilled the food on him while I was learning how to do this. I didn't remember that he couldn't see the little mess so he asked me why I was changing is gown...I just smiled and said "I spilled on you so I'd have a reason look at your sexy chest one more time" We had fun. I'd much rather be in a patient room than sitting in the nurse's station on the computer or twiddling my thumbs. I tend to annoy the patients that are able to take care of themselves...and dislike getting in their way all the time.

 

[Dan the Man]

Honestly, people with your kind of problems are my favorite patients. I can make a difference. I also restore dignity where it often is robbed. I know for a fact that postpartum was my least favorite rotation ... those people are not ill and I resent the limitations we are required to give them "for safety sake".

One of my favorite patient to date was a 60 year old man with a mess of problems and multiple sclerosis complicated them all. He was going blind...daily and had lost his ability to swallow which had taken him to a point of malnutrition...which took him to the point of severe weakness so he was now bedbound. He also had an infection that meant I had to gown up before coming into his room. After taking time to get past his grumpy dismeanor ( I mean who could blame him? ), we had some fun conversations. I wish I could have stayed in contact with him after he left. I would have visited him in the nursing home. I am sure when I am a staff nurse, I can get permission to do this but as a student nurse, we are not allowed as part of the privacy laws.

He was my first patient with a feeding tube in his stomach. I spilled the food on him while I was learning how to do this. I didn't remember that he couldn't see the little mess so he asked me why I was changing is gown...I just smiled and said "I spilled on you so I'd have a reason look at your sexy chest one more time" We had fun. I'd much rather be in a patient room than sitting in the nurse's station on the computer or twiddling my thumbs. I tend to annoy the patients that are able to take care of themselves...and dislike getting in their way all the time.

i bet you made that old dude's day. knowing my luck the same thing would happen to me but the nurse would be some gay guy.
im glad there are nurses like you out there who like their job instead of just being disgruntled all the time. its got to be one of the hardest jobs out there so i can understand how yo could get disgruntled though. i could never do that job.
i hope i dnt have to get a feeding tube but i think maybe i will have to since i feel like i can never eat.
what is postpartum. is that when women go crazy after having a baby?

 

[blackribbon]

i bet you made that old dude's day. knowing my luck the same thing would happen to me but the nurse would be some gay guy.
im glad there are nurses like you out there who like their job instead of just being disgruntled all the time. its got to be one of the hardest jobs out there so i can understand how yo could get disgruntled though. i could never do that job.
i hope i dnt have to get a feeding tube but i think maybe i will have to since i feel like i can never eat.
what is postpartum. is that when women go crazy after having a baby?

Post partum is the time after giving birth...but it is a time when hormones are all over the place so yes, they can "go crazy" or more likely suffer from some forms of the "blues" or depression.

You could get an "old" lady like me....maybe as bad as the gay guy....though to be honest, the openly gay guys are some of the funniest people in the program. If you get one, don't judge so quick. There is nothing sexual on our minds as we work. Good thing because I sure have to look at and touch genitalia a lot, especially if they have a foley catheter or have just given birth.

The feeding tube might not be so bad. It can be taken out at any time so it does not mean that it is necessarily permanent. It would eliminate the need to eat and since you can swallow, you could still eat if you wanted to taste something. My poor friend wasn't able to swallow so he couldn't have anything by mouth. He was craving the taste of food....so I brought him a sponge toothbrush and we wiped some juice on his tongue so he could just enjoy tasting something. It wasn't the popsicle he wanted but it was flavor. He did have to suction it out of his mouth so it didn't end up in his lungs.

 

[Dan the Man]

I just finished reading through this thread and I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for putting it all on the line for us. 20 years in the Marine Corps, you don't see that very often. Thank you. I know things are tough right now and you have to be wondering what your purpose here on earth is. I don't have any answers, but I do know that if God didn't still want you here for SOMETHING you would no longer be here. So sorry for all you are going through, though, as I can imagine your losses have left you fairly hopeless. You have some fine looking boys, Dan. I bet they were and are very proud of their dad. How could they not be? I will pray you will see them soon. God bless.

thank you i appreciate that. hopefully my boys are smart enough to choose a better role model for themselves though.

 

[Dan the Man]

Post partum is the time after giving birth...but it is a time when hormones are all over the place so yes, they can "go crazy" or more likely suffer from some forms of the "blues" or depression.

You could get an "old" lady like me....maybe as bad as the gay guy....though to be honest, the openly gay guys are some of the funniest people in the program. If you get one, don't judge so quick. There is nothing sexual on our minds as we work. Good thing because I sure have to look at and touch genitalia a lot, especially if they have a foley catheter or have just given birth.

The feeding tube might not be so bad. It can be taken out at any time so it does not mean that it is necessarily permanent. It would eliminate the need to eat and since you can swallow, you could still eat if you wanted to taste something. My poor friend wasn't able to swallow so he couldn't have anything by mouth. He was craving the taste of food....so I brought him a sponge toothbrush and we wiped some juice on his tongue so he could just enjoy tasting something. It wasn't the popsicle he wanted but it was flavor. He did have to suction it out of his mouth so it didn't end up in his lungs.

i didn't know you could take the feeding tube out when you were done. but i don't think ill ever feel like eating again so i would probably have it for however long i have to keep living.
what i said about the gay guy was just my sad attempt at humor. i don't have any problem with gay people. its not hurting anyone and if their happy who cares. youre not an old lady. maybe older to start nursing but not old.
i had to have that catherer for a really long time until i refused.
postpartum i think is what a lot of females try to do to get out of the military. it does not lok like something i want to deal with.

 

[Dan the Man]

it is very pathetic that my life is now laying in bed playing computer spades with myself all day long.

 

[blackribbon]

it is very pathetic that my life is now laying in bed playing computer spades with myself all day long.

It isn't pathetic...it is just very different that what you envisioned for your life. I also don't believe that it is a "forever" thing but can't tell you what God has in line for your life. Maybe this surgery will help...maybe it won't... That is the problem when you are dealing with the central nervous system. Are your legs damaged or just collateral damage related to the back stuff?

The computer games are good for exercising your brain...so that is a positive, even if you don't see it.

 

[Dan the Man]

It isn't pathetic...it is just very different that what you envisioned for your life. I also don't believe that it is a "forever" thing but can't tell you what God has in line for your life. Maybe this surgery will help...maybe it won't... That is the problem when you are dealing with the central nervous system. Are your legs damaged or just collateral damage related to the back stuff?

The computer games are good for exercising your brain...so that is a positive, even if you don't see it.

no there was bones sticking out everywhere.

I told my aunt today im not having this surgery or anything else to prolong my life.

 

[blackribbon]

no there was bones sticking out everywhere.

I told my aunt today im not having this surgery or anything else to prolong my life.

Your call...however, I suspect this surgery won't prolong or shorten your life...it is more about trying to improve the quality of it. I hope you reconsider and at least call your doctor to find out if he really believes it will help or if it is just a stab in the dark.

 

[Dan the Man]

Your call...however, I suspect this surgery won't prolong or shorten your life...it is more about trying to improve the quality of it. I hope you reconsider and at least call your doctor to find out if he really believes it will help or if it is just a stab in the dark.

waste of taxpayer money

 

[Dan the Man]

why do you feel more like dying when its night time? since I don't have a life every part of the day and night should be the same for me but for some reason every night around 1900 I start feeling dread like I cant do it anymore.