For the first 35 years of my life, I was a doubter towards the Lord. Did He really have my best interests at heart or was this some kind of scheme He thought up to make Himself look good and me look bad. I had alot of doubt. But something happened 10 years ago.
I don't really want to discuss the details that lead me to that point in my life, but times got bad. Real bad. During that time I prayed to the Lord. I really had no alternative. He was my only hope. But after that experience, for some reason, I am no longer a doubter in my Lord. People ask me what lead me back to the Lord. I can honestly say "I don't know". And it's the truth. Even I can't explain it. But I look at my life so differently now. I trust Him with everything. When I think about Him, I cry. I don't know why He has been so good to me when I don't deserve it. I disobey Him. Sometimes I scream at Him. I have even cursed at Him (sorry Lord). But still He helps me. Why? I think it's because He loves me. But why does He love me? I think it's because I love Him.
Things in my life; job, money, family seem so unimportant when I compare them to Him.
When I was 15 years old I went to my first big rock concert. It was 1979. My favorite band Aerosmith was playing. It was a festival type concert and Aersomith was headlining. All day I waited for my favorite band to take the stage. They finally did at 10:00 pm that night. I look at my life today, similiar to the way I felt that day. Everthing happening in my life is just the opening act. The real show has not even begun to start. I don't believe the real show will start until my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ returns for me. I look forward with anticipation for that day the same way I looked forward to seeing my favorite band that Sunday afternoon.
I don't really want to discuss the details that lead me to that point in my life, but times got bad. Real bad. During that time I prayed to the Lord. I really had no alternative. He was my only hope. But after that experience, for some reason, I am no longer a doubter in my Lord. People ask me what lead me back to the Lord. I can honestly say "I don't know". And it's the truth. Even I can't explain it. But I look at my life so differently now. I trust Him with everything. When I think about Him, I cry. I don't know why He has been so good to me when I don't deserve it. I disobey Him. Sometimes I scream at Him. I have even cursed at Him (sorry Lord). But still He helps me. Why? I think it's because He loves me. But why does He love me? I think it's because I love Him.
Things in my life; job, money, family seem so unimportant when I compare them to Him.
When I was 15 years old I went to my first big rock concert. It was 1979. My favorite band Aerosmith was playing. It was a festival type concert and Aersomith was headlining. All day I waited for my favorite band to take the stage. They finally did at 10:00 pm that night. I look at my life today, similiar to the way I felt that day. Everthing happening in my life is just the opening act. The real show has not even begun to start. I don't believe the real show will start until my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ returns for me. I look forward with anticipation for that day the same way I looked forward to seeing my favorite band that Sunday afternoon.
