I was thinking...

[quietpraiyze]

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[quietpraiyze]

[FONT=Georgia, serif]Pro 15:1[/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif] A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger. [/FONT]​

[FONT=Georgia, serif]Pro 15:2[/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif] The tongue of the wise useth knowledge aright: but the mouth of fools poureth out foolishness. [/FONT]
[FONT=Georgia, serif]Pro 15:3[/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif] The eyes of the LORD [/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif]are[/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif] in every place, beholding the evil and the good. [/FONT]
[FONT=Georgia, serif]Pro 15:4[/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif] A wholesome tongue [/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif]is[/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif] a tree of life: but perverseness therein [/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif]is[/FONT][FONT=Georgia, serif] a breach in the spirit. [/FONT]

I knew...I could see the handwriting on the wall and I felt it in my spirit when it happened. I was concerned and wondered but it was confirmed rather quickly. So I knew I wasn't imagining things. Proverbs 15:3 has always comforted me. I rest in the fact that God sees everything. Nothing escapes His eyes. It's especially comforting when dealing with duplicitous people. It's a good thing not to align yourself with the works of darkness but rather reprove them. It'll cost you every time but better to fear God than man.
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I saw some Schizophrenics yesterday on two separate occasions. I don't know...it made me wonder if something was going on. On one occasion one of them was having a conversation but stopped long enough to say “hi” to me and then went back to their conversation. They weren't talking on a phone. I haven't figured it out yet but there's something about that that made me smile and still does. Maybe because I wasn't invisible to him. He saw me and greeted me. A simple gesture but it was nice. I often think about how Jesus said this is how all would know that we are His disciples if we have love one to another. His love. I often think of this as, love one to another so much so that we would be identified as belonging to Christ. That's a deep something...



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[CraftyTurtle]

I was wondering how much I am in control of my own life, and how much is inevitable.
Do I have the patience to face what may come, the strength to do what I need to do, and the wisdom to know the difference.
I pray for these things, yet life still scares me.

 

[CraftyTurtle]

I saw some Schizophrenics yesterday on two separate occasions. I don't know...it made me wonder if something was going on. On one occasion one of them was having a conversation but stopped long enough to say “hi” to me and then went back to their conversation. They weren't talking on a phone. I haven't figured it out yet but there's something about that that made me smile and still does. Maybe because I wasn't invisible to him. He saw me and greeted me. A simple gesture but it was nice. I often think about how Jesus said this is how all would know that we are His disciples if we have love one to another. His love. I often think of this as, love one to another so much so that we would be identified as belonging to Christ. That's a deep something...[/COLOR]
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Those people who talk to themselves, or to light poles, are not so different from us. We all go about our day with an internal dialog. No, it's not always a monolog, it's a dialog. There's always the "other" voice talking back to us. Some would call it conscious, others would call it the voice of the Spirit, yet others would say its just voices in their head.
The difference between them and us, is that we do not speak out loud, when people are around. Mind you, all of us have been speaking our thoughts, and have been caught by someone else. We get embarrassed. A really far-gone mentally ill person is not embarrassed. Maybe if we let go of our hang-ups of how others perceive us, we'd all be a lot happier talking to things that aren't phones or dogs.

I always stop and talk to those people who other people will not talk to. I hope that when I am that far gone, someone will stop and talk to me.
....and let me pat their dog.​

 

[Odetta]

I was thinking about my son and wondering if the new medication we have him on is actually working, and wondering if we can possibly take him off some of the old medications.

 

[Goodbook]

I was thinking
When Karen Carpenter sang 'what I've got they used to call the blues..nothing is really wrong, feeling like I don't belong' they now call manic depression/bipolar.
and also.. let's pray for Carrie Fisher.
Being a sex icon for teenage geeks and having bipolar tip your life upside down in the public eye cannot be easy.

 

[quietpraiyze]

[FONT=Georgia, serif]A schizophrenic's conversation is as normal to them as my high's and lows are to me a bipolar. That's what “normal” means to me as being part of the mentally ill community. For me it is just that simple. From knowing what I know (some things I don't tell); we had a moment. It made me smile and it still does. What a wonderful thing that it's still resonating with me several days after the fact mmmm.[/FONT]
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[FONT=Georgia, serif]So far two blackouts. I'm starting to wonder if this is going to be some kind of winter...[/FONT]

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[CraftyTurtle]

I wonder how it is I can write my boss a comprehensive email, attachments for clarification, and many questions. His response is to set up a meeting 2 weeks away - no content/agenda/explanation whatsover.
Hello? Talking would be nice.
We are not always in the same office at the same time, hence my comprehensive email.
He's not even trying to communicate. ...and then he says it's my fault. I wish he'd hurry up and retire. ....or HIS boss will come in and take over.

 

[quietpraiyze]

I've been fighting this paper battle for years but I can see some light at the end of the tunnel. I might actually be able to pull it off. If I can just stay focused and follow through. Just do it...

 

[quietpraiyze]

Sometimes I feel like I really need to put my boots on before I get around certain "Christians". If it looks like manure and smells like manure, it's manure...smh...*sigh*...smh...

 

[quietpraiyze]

I wonder do Christians even like one another let alone people period?

 

[quietpraiyze]

I can't ever remember feeling this kind of heaviness in the air around Christmas. The atmosphere is kinda bipolar...high in some areas and low in others and I can feel it. There's so much going on...can't ever underestimate prayer...a spark can be so dangerous if it's next to gasoline....

 

[quietpraiyze]

God is so amazing. I wasn't sure if I had lost her forever but there she was right there in my mailbox. It don't get no better than that. Yes it was worth the risk...

 

[Gracybelle]

I was thinking how relieved I was to finally find out my daughter had a diagnosis. After 7 nightmarish years of, "It's all in her head 'Undifferentiated Somatoform Disorder'" ~ finally a Psychiatrist who recognized the Disorders. Then, to my surprise - I had Bipolar type II, ADHD & PTSD. Suddenly my life made a lot of sense - and I wasn't just a horrible, moody, depressed, angry lady who can't pay attention or sit still. After a few naive happy announcements - I found my joy wasn't shared. ADHD - fine & PTSD, totally acceptable - but bipolar brought disagreements, challenges, and refusing to accept the news. Quick & tough lesson - Mental Illness in any form - changes how some people can view me. The ones who know are few and passed a background check : )

 

[quietpraiyze]

You know what I think? I think God talks to mentally ill people as plain as day and you know what? People say we're crazy but we're not. Just like I know this to be true....When satan is the only one who shows up to co-sign you be afraid...be very afraid...uh huh....

I once heard somebody say how slewfoot is the only one who will get you to go out on a limb and when you do, he'll be right there cutting that limb off. It's the truth anyhow. Ain't nothing changed since the garden...

 

[quietpraiyze]

It is something to look up and see God make a wrong right. Now they have to pay me what they owe and then some. Just to think I had written it off but God didn't forget. God is soooo good! ​

God doesn't just supply my needs but he also gives me some of my wants...alleluia! ​

 

[Loven God]

Since I am bipolar 1 I worry that my son may end up with it to . He is 34 and so far he seems to be fine .

 

[quietpraiyze]

At some point I really believe that people who go around calling mental illness demon possession should be sued for defamation of character. People who call themselves Christians are so hurtful and you wonder why people just can't stand Christians. You just never stop being hurtful do you?

 

[ShadowsChild]

It drives me nuts when people in power above you who are aware of the diagnosis think you can turn it off and on like a damn switch. Don't they think if we could do that, we would have YEARS ago.
Or how is it that other believers say that there is no such thing as depression. Even though it's a physical chemical imbalance in the brain. Are they saying there is no such thing as cancer. Just because the deaths of depression are done by the hands of the person who suffers, unlike the victim of cancer. It's still a killer

 

[quietpraiyze]

Sometimes I wish I could un-see what I've seen but I know that's impossible. Some people just think they can hide it but they can't. I don't think you can ever really hide darkness...at least not in the presence of light. It's just a sad thing to see especially when "Christian" is attached. I know I'm over enemy lines but lawd...