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I'm 16 years old and I have more hate and anger in me than most 16 years old should, would, and could have in a lifetime. I am your mean, vile, disgusting, vulgar, [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed, arrogant, ignorant, stubborn, and hated, seething misanthropist to name a few things about me. I have vices. Many of them. I love heavy metal. Lamb of God, Eyehategod, Outlaw Order, Mastodon, Gojira, Slayer, Pantera, Weedeater, Strapping Young Lad and Gwar are just few of my favorite bands. As stated I'm mean, hateful, angry, and a freak. But I'm also confused as anything. If there really is a hell not only would I go to it I'd be driving the bus. But I don't know what to believe. I've looked into many different religions. Satanism, Buddhism, Nihilism (so far my personal favorite) etc, etc. The range is far because I'm not close-minded about religion especially when I am curious. I've looked into many of them because I personally think we as humans must have something to believe in. I've found favorite aspects of some religions, I've even talked to the people who follow these religions to get a better insight. One religion I have yet to implore guidance of would be Christianity. Why? Because of my . . . relationship with Christianity. It's rocky, very rocky. But I surrender, give me a reason to favor Christ (I'm sure I'll share my views on Christianity the more this topic progresses.) give me a reason why I should throw away my current lifestyle to praise a Lord I highly doubt? WHY WHY WHY?!?!?!?! Sell me, sheep.