Chris, i could be wrong, but i think I'm getting it. You're right where He wants you - that's exactly it. It seems too good to be true, too easy, too simple. I know exactly, exactly what you're thinking and feeling. I didn't have godly sorrow either - i only cared about me - still pretty sure i do - but there's a glimmer of hope. I know this probably won't help right now, but just pray - just tell Him you don't have godly sorrow, tell Him you're impenitent. He forgives that too. Ask Him to help you. A couple months ago, my counselor told me to pray, read, rest when i told her i didn't think i was saved and that i thought i was a vessel of wrath. I didn't really get what she was saying. I think I'm beginning to now though. I know you still might not quite get it yet, and i know how frustrating and awful it is. But i want to encourage you. Even if you don't get it yet, keep going! Seek and you will find (I've always loved that verse) keep asking questions. Keep talking to Christians. Keep learning. It's taken me a long time, lots of reading, lots of conversations, lots of confusion and fear, lots of everything... but i think I'm getting it more and more. You are on the right track. You are so close - you don't even realize! Keep going - i think you'll soon find out what I'm beginning to see. Don't give up. I'm here for you. And I'm not out of the woods yet, still a little unsure given the path that got me here, but I'm hopeful. And I'm hopeful for you too!
