i think i have ocd

[ryo88]

i think i have ocd or ocpd but i'm not sure
if i have to count something i do it like a couple of times in a row
i hating getting anything less than an A in school, but even if i do get an A i'm still not happy
my dishes have to be spotless
i sometimes think what could go wrong in any situation
if i draw it pretty much has to be perfect
i used to cut and thoughts of cutting kep coming back to me, even though i don't want to do it anymore
i also have thoughts that God isn't real and i keep doubting
i am a huge perfectionist
if anyone can help please do

 

[universalspirit]

You do not seem OCD to me. Many doubt God at times. All the other thing you say is wanting to be cautious and good at things.

 

[gracealone]

Hi RYO88,
Only a Doctor can really diagnose OCD or OCPD. OCPD and OCD are very different from one another.
Big clue that it could be OCD is that if these things you mentioned cause you tremendous anxiety.
Like if you were to find spots on your dishes of any kind you would never be able to rest or be free from anxiety until you were sure they were gone and you would likely spend quite a lot of time checking them to make sure.

Or the doubts about God - if they are with you night and day and cause you to endlessly try to reassure yourself or prove to yourself that you know He exists and that you are a Christian. Then when you do battle with these thoughts they get stuck in your head. Then the fact that they are stuck in your head makes you start to believe that they might be true/valid. Then the anxiety level goes up yet another notch....and round and round you go.
If this sounds famiiar then I would suggest you go to a Doctor and open up about these things so you can begin to feel better through therapy and possibly meds.
Praying for you.
Mitzi