I think I’m a reprobate, can it be reversed?

[Alessa_the_jaz]

I’ve really tried to follow the advice I’ve been given but it’s been hard. I’m in a group with others who feel the same as me and nobody has made any progress. I’ve realized a lot about god though and I realize he really does have control, not that I didnt know but I didn’t want to accept it.


Anyway, I feel I exhibit all the signs of a true reprobate. I’ve been seeking pity and false hope to escape the fear and despair. The reality is that it’s a mix of pride, refusal to repent, and hardness of heart. I get temporary relief and assurance but then I get fearful again. Part of me wants to repent but what if I also don’t want to repent? I'm saying I want to repent but then my actions say otherwise.
I don’t want to die in my sins and I’m terrified of the wrath to come. I also know I am reaping what I’ve sown, choosing to unconsciously blame God and look to others for hope. If you knew my sin you wouldn’t blame God if he decided to punish me. It’s just that bad.

I’ve been in denial about it but if it’s true then being in denial won’t make it untrue. I’ve lost the Holy Spirit and I’ve been a terrible human being ever since.

I believe I’ve really crossed the line with God and I don’t think I care, at least not like I should. I try to pray to be genuine with God and get the right heart posture but I feel that my heart is too hard and it’s only getting harder. I only have worldly sorrow and even feel somewhat numb.

 

[Grip Docility]

I’ve really tried to follow the advice I’ve been given but it’s been hard. I’m in a group with others who feel the same as me and nobody has made any progress.

Has anyone told you to surrender to Jesus as you are in admission that you are condemned by the Law of Moses and can only be saved by His Holy Life in place of your broken life?

I’ve realized a lot about god though and I realize he really does have control, not that I didn't know but I didn’t want to accept it.

God will not control your act of surrender. That comes from you. This isn't one of those "I'll be better and won't mess up again" kind of things. Do you acknowledge that you are damned without Jesus Christ?

Anyway, I feel I exhibit all the signs of a true reprobate.

Do you go around teaching the teachings of men, in place of the sacrificial provision of Jesus Christ that saves and seals you while you are a sinner?

I’ve been seeking pity and false hope to escape the fear and despair.

Jesus or no Jesus, this world is chalked full of despair. Are you ready to embrace His provision of peace that passes understanding, that depends on Him and not you?

The reality is that it’s a mix of pride, refusal to repent, and hardness of heart.

It sure sounds like you are admitting that you can't do it without Jesus. Am I missing something?

I get temporary relief and assurance but then I get fearful again.

That's the accuser of the brethren telling you that God's blood isn't good enough to save you.

Part of me wants to repent but what if I also don’t want to repent?

Alessa, Say it out loud. "I am a sinner and have no hope, but for the ALL SUFFICIENT, ALL POWERFUL Blood of the spotless Lamb.

I'm saying I want to repent but then my actions say otherwise.

Congratulations, you're a sinner. Jesus came to save SINNERS. Repent means "Change your Mind".

Self (Condemned by the Law) <------------------------- Alessa_the_jaz -----------------------------------------> Jesus

I don’t want to die in my sins and I’m terrified of the wrath to come.

Say it out loud Alessa... "Jesus, by your blood, ALONE, will I come Home."

I also know I am reaping what I’ve sown, choosing to unconsciously blame God and look to others for hope. If you knew my sin you wouldn’t blame God if he decided to punish me. It’s just that bad.

Good luck with that. I'm 100 percent certain I'm a bigger sinner than you and Jesus has Saved and sealed me.

It's time to come into the arms of your Savior, as you are. He takes you NOW, as you are. Do you believe that He is this Loving and Good?

I’ve been in denial about it but if it’s true then being in denial won’t make it untrue. I’ve lost the Holy Spirit and I’ve been a terrible human being ever since.

Did you tell Him to pack sand and you don't need Him? Did you say that you don't need Jesus and His blood is Demonic?

I believe I’ve really crossed the line with God and I don’t think I care,

You care. I'm reading your post. Say it; "Jesus, I'm sorry I've been doubting Your Grace and Goodness, I need you now more than ever"

at least not like I should. I try to pray to be genuine with God and get the right heart posture but I feel that my heart is too hard and it’s only getting harder. I only have worldly sorrow and even feel somewhat numb.

Repentance is a human act. Do you need help, because I'm here for you as a member of the Body of Christ for you. One more time... Say it! "Jesus I need you as I am and understand that you Love me as I am and died for me as I am. I TRUST You, not myself. I will mess up again, but realize that it is YOUR Goodness that saves me and not my Dead Works of the Flesh."

All Love to you, Sibling in Jesus. You do believe! Lord Jesus please help Alessa with their UNBELIEF.

 

[d taylor]

I’ve really tried to follow the advice I’ve been given but it’s been hard. I’m in a group with others who feel the same as me and nobody has made any progress. I’ve realized a lot about god though and I realize he really does have control, not that I didnt know but I didn’t want to accept it.


Anyway, I feel I exhibit all the signs of a true reprobate. I’ve been seeking pity and false hope to escape the fear and despair. The reality is that it’s a mix of pride, refusal to repent, and hardness of heart. I get temporary relief and assurance but then I get fearful again. Part of me wants to repent but what if I also don’t want to repent? I'm saying I want to repent but then my actions say otherwise.
I don’t want to die in my sins and I’m terrified of the wrath to come. I also know I am reaping what I’ve sown, choosing to unconsciously blame God and look to others for hope. If you knew my sin you wouldn’t blame God if he decided to punish me. It’s just that bad.

I’ve been in denial about it but if it’s true then being in denial won’t make it untrue. I’ve lost the Holy Spirit and I’ve been a terrible human being ever since.

I believe I’ve really crossed the line with God and I don’t think I care, at least not like I should. I try to pray to be genuine with God and get the right heart posture but I feel that my heart is too hard and it’s only getting harder. I only have worldly sorrow and even feel somewhat numb.

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You have been give bad advice. i see where i replied to your post about I think I committed the unforgivable sin.

So if you believe you can commit the unforgivable sin, you have been given bad advice. And sadly looks like you believe it.

 

[Lukaris]

Just having a general sense of concern for your own salvation and other people is something the Lord hopes we have. Express this with whatever charity and prayer you are able ( look at Matthew 6:1-13). Build on this as you can step


The rich man in the parable with Lazarus & Abraham ( Luke 16:19-31) was uncaring, that doesn’t sound like you. Think of the last judgment in Matthew 25:31-46, avoid the trap of pride with works & trust in the Lord’s mercy ( see Luke 18:9-14). Then read Romans 8:1-39 especially verses 38 and 39.

 

[AlexB23]

I’ve really tried to follow the advice I’ve been given but it’s been hard. I’m in a group with others who feel the same as me and nobody has made any progress. I’ve realized a lot about god though and I realize he really does have control, not that I didnt know but I didn’t want to accept it.


Anyway, I feel I exhibit all the signs of a true reprobate. I’ve been seeking pity and false hope to escape the fear and despair. The reality is that it’s a mix of pride, refusal to repent, and hardness of heart. I get temporary relief and assurance but then I get fearful again. Part of me wants to repent but what if I also don’t want to repent? I'm saying I want to repent but then my actions say otherwise.
I don’t want to die in my sins and I’m terrified of the wrath to come. I also know I am reaping what I’ve sown, choosing to unconsciously blame God and look to others for hope. If you knew my sin you wouldn’t blame God if he decided to punish me. It’s just that bad.

I’ve been in denial about it but if it’s true then being in denial won’t make it untrue. I’ve lost the Holy Spirit and I’ve been a terrible human being ever since.

I believe I’ve really crossed the line with God and I don’t think I care, at least not like I should. I try to pray to be genuine with God and get the right heart posture but I feel that my heart is too hard and it’s only getting harder. I only have worldly sorrow and even feel somewhat numb.

I prayed for you.

Now, I am not that good at helping you, but I plugged this into my own, privately run, free and open-weights AI that is on my computer. The artificial intelligence is hooked up to 12 Christian documents, including the Catholic Catechism, some Lutheran, Orthodox and Baptist stuff. This is what is said to answer your questions:

From a Christian perspective, your feelings of fear, despair, and guilt indicate that you are struggling with your faith and relationship with God. It's important to remember that everyone has their unique journey in life, and it is never too late for repentance and forgiveness.

The texts from the documents you provided emphasize the importance of repentance as a way to wash away sins and receive God's forgiveness (Nick R. Needham). They also highlight that only God can forgive sins, but He does so for those who truly repent and humble themselves before Him (John Calvin).

Regarding the concept of reprobation or predestination, it is a complex topic within Christianity with various interpretations among different denominations. The text from Journal for Baptist Theology & Ministry Vol. 6, No. 1 suggests that God commands people to repent and calls them to faith universally through the gospel. It also acknowledges that in some perspectives, God does not give the capacity for reprobate individuals to do what is required for salvation (e.g., by grace alone).

It's essential to understand that your feelings of denial or numbness might be part of the struggle with sin and unbelief, but they don't define you as a person or decide your fate before God. You can pray for sincere repentance, asking God to soften your heart and grant you true faith and understanding of His love and grace.

Seeking help from spiritual leaders, counselors, or support groups might also be beneficial in providing guidance and encouragement during this challenging time. It's important not to give up hope but instead trust that God is always working in our lives, even when it may seem difficult to understand or accept.

 

[FutureAndAHope]

I’ve really tried to follow the advice I’ve been given but it’s been hard. I’m in a group with others who feel the same as me and nobody has made any progress. I’ve realized a lot about god though and I realize he really does have control, not that I didnt know but I didn’t want to accept it.


Anyway, I feel I exhibit all the signs of a true reprobate. I’ve been seeking pity and false hope to escape the fear and despair. The reality is that it’s a mix of pride, refusal to repent, and hardness of heart. I get temporary relief and assurance but then I get fearful again. Part of me wants to repent but what if I also don’t want to repent? I'm saying I want to repent but then my actions say otherwise.
I don’t want to die in my sins and I’m terrified of the wrath to come. I also know I am reaping what I’ve sown, choosing to unconsciously blame God and look to others for hope. If you knew my sin you wouldn’t blame God if he decided to punish me. It’s just that bad.

I’ve been in denial about it but if it’s true then being in denial won’t make it untrue. I’ve lost the Holy Spirit and I’ve been a terrible human being ever since.

I believe I’ve really crossed the line with God and I don’t think I care, at least not like I should. I try to pray to be genuine with God and get the right heart posture but I feel that my heart is too hard and it’s only getting harder. I only have worldly sorrow and even feel somewhat numb.

The fact is you can still be saved. But you must repent. The Bible tells us that the cross covers a lifetime of sins, from the point of birth to death:

Heb 9:27-28 And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgment, so Christ was offered once to bear the sins of many.

The apostle taught that while an sinning christian lives, that God is still seeking their repentance.

1Jn 5:16 If anyone sees his brother sinning a sin which does not lead to death, he will ask, and He will give him life for those who commit sin not leading to death. There is sin leading to death. I do not say that he should pray about that.

God is faithful and just. Faithful means He sticks by us waiting for us to repent. Just means He does not deprive us of the justice of forgiveness. He also gives us the power to be cleansed, or freed from the sin.

1Jn 1:9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Jas 5:19-20 Brethren, if anyone among you wanders from the truth, and someone turns him back, let him know that he who turns a sinner from the error of his way will save a soul from death and cover a multitude of sins.

 

[com7fy8]

I only have worldly sorrow and even feel somewhat numb.

Well, 2 Corinthians 7:10 does say >

"For godly sorrow produces repentance leading to salvation, not to be regretted; but the sorrow of the world produces deatth." (2 Corinthians 7:10)

So, possibly you know this scripture so you can see that your sorrow is worldly.

It is good that you can know this. And if God's word has helped you to be able to tell the difference, this means you can communicate with God through His word.

Now, for me personally. I get how only God is able to change me out of wrong stuff in me. So, when I get into concern about doubt, I trust God to be the Good Judge to decide what to do with me.

And what can be needed is to forgive: as I get into forgiving anyone and everyone, I can be surprised at how I get better.

 

[Ace777]

I feel that my heart is too hard

I do not think we would be alive if God did not want to redeem us. The Bible clearly says: "whosoever is willing let them come". God does not reject us. Even He is able to do a work in us to transform us into who He created us to be. He writes the book of our life at our conception. So we can use all of our gifts, talents and ability's to bring Him praise, honor and glory.

In the Bible, a “hard heart” often refers to someone who is resistant to God’s guidance and teachings. There are several ways God deals with a hard heart:

1. Discipline and Correction: God may use discipline to guide someone back to the right path. This is seen as an act of love, much like a parent disciplines a child for their good1.
2. Patience and Compassion: God is described as being patient and compassionate, giving people time to turn back to Him. He is slow to anger and abounding in love1.
3. Allowing Consequences: Sometimes, God allows people to face the natural consequences of their hardened hearts. This can serve as a wake-up call, encouraging them to seek Him again2.
4. Softening Hearts: Through prayer, the Word, and the work of the Holy Spirit, God can soften even the hardest hearts. Jesus is often referred to as the true "heart changer"3.

If you’re dealing with a hard heart or know someone who is, seeking God’s guidance through prayer and reading the Bible can be a powerful step.

 

[Joseph G]

I do not think we would be alive if God did not want to redeem us. The Bible clearly says: "whosoever is willing let them come". God does not reject us. Even He is able to do a work in us to transform us into who He created us to be. He writes the book of our life at our conception. So we can use all of our gifts, talents and ability's to bring Him praise, honor and glory.

In the Bible, a “hard heart” often refers to someone who is resistant to God’s guidance and teachings. There are several ways God deals with a hard heart:

1. Discipline and Correction: God may use discipline to guide someone back to the right path. This is seen as an act of love, much like a parent disciplines a child for their good1.
2. Patience and Compassion: God is described as being patient and compassionate, giving people time to turn back to Him. He is slow to anger and abounding in love1.
3. Allowing Consequences: Sometimes, God allows people to face the natural consequences of their hardened hearts. This can serve as a wake-up call, encouraging them to seek Him again2.
4. Softening Hearts: Through prayer, the Word, and the work of the Holy Spirit, God can soften even the hardest hearts. Jesus is often referred to as the true "heart changer"3.

If you’re dealing with a hard heart or know someone who is, seeking God’s guidance through prayer and reading the Bible can be a powerful step.

That's right. And consider seriously just Who it is that you are seeking (daily) and what He promises to those that do:

Ezekiel 36:25-29 NKJV

"Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean; I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will keep My judgments and do them. Then you shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; you shall be My people, and I will be your God. I will deliver you from all your uncleannesses."

I once heard a Bishop say that Jesus' greatest miracle, from the cross, is changing a human heart. Compared to creating the cosmos and every other miracle, I do believe he is right!

He did it for you before, He'll do it again. He did with me, friend! Former backsliders are running around all over the place.

James 4:10 NKJV

"Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up."

God bless!

 

[Ace777]

Ezekiel 36:25-29 NKJV

"Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean; I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will keep My judgments and do them. Then you shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; you shall be My people, and I will be your God. I will deliver you from all your uncleannesses."

This is a nice scripture. It gives us something we can pray and seek God for and meditate on.

 

[Sketcher]

Keep repenting, fall forward when you fall, and get back up again.