I sometimes wonder....

[NoddaProbBob]

I seriously sometimes have to wonder if my parents know that I cut.

I have been cutting for about 3 years, but last summer I think I was caught.

They have never approached me with the assumption, but Im glad that they haven't so that I wouldn't have to explain myself. And most of all, they would be so angry at me, and my parents are just those kind of people who get angry, and hold a grudge, or are like, I can't believe you turned to that....

And it just makes me feel so bad, but right now, its not something that I can control or stop.

As for the almost caught thing, I think I was because my dad saw the cuts on my arm, but I insisted that it was something different. And since then, the whole situation was dropped.

But since then, I've changed my cutting spot(s) to un notice able areas, so they must have just thought it was a phase that I went through....

Should I feel bad for "seemingly" tricking them?

 

[momgreenlady]

I don't think you should feel bad. You are scared and feel alone. It is ok. I didn't want my parents to know either. I am 27 and just told my mom about this year but not with much detail. I just told her that I used to cut. Sometimes parents can be in denial about stuff too. I don't know how my parents didn't know. On two occasions I had scratched up my forehead so it was very obvious and noticeable and they didn't do anything or say anything about it. I was actually upset because I was crying out for them for help and they didn't listen to the obvious. It is strange because as much as I was scared of them finding out I also wanted them too so that I could get help because I was hurting so much. Do you feel that way at all? Anyways, don't feel bad because that won't get you anywhere and there is no need. You do what you think is best for you. Come here anytime you need to and we will listen. Prayers!

 

[angelluv]

I'm not going to say that you should or shouldn't feel bad. Thats your choice as to whether you feel that way or not. I will say that as a cutter I lied to my parents and my teachers if they noticed these things. I can tell you feel bad about it. And I would love to tell you to just give it up. But I've learned from my experiance quitting cold turkey is very hard. I hope that things get better for you!

 

[berry2000]

I know what you mean about feeling bad about the trickery. I struggled a lot with that myself. Especially with all the hiding I did to keep my husband and kids from noticing. Sometimes the holy spirit convicts us when things we are doing are wrong and that is why I think it makes us feel bad. It's like being an alcoholic and hiding alcohol around the house so others won't find it. We hide it because we know it is wrong, we know others won't approve (mostly because they care about us but sometimes because they just can't understand). I kind of think anything that we have to hide from people should make us rethink what we are doing and if it is a good thing to be doing.

 

[NoddaProbBob]

Thanks for all the advice everyone.

Its nice to come here and talk. I mean, I know my friends understand and all, but I feel so weird whenever I bring up the fact that I cut, and it just makes the situation awkward...