I should just cut out my tongue and be done with it

[snickerdoodle]

I'm so discouraged right now. I can't seem to get a grip on my tongue. I catch myself talking unkindly about certain people. I catch myself imbellishing stories...no, wait...let me just call it what it is...lying. This stinks.

I feel like I should just live by myself in a box, or cut out my tongue. I'm so ashamed.

I asked God for forgiveness. I asked Him to help me with this. But I can't seem to help myself. Unkind things come rolling out of my mouth before I can stop them. Then when I hear myself, I just want to scream.

I feel so bad.

 

[snickerdoodle]

I failed God.

 

[JPPT1974]

I feel that way as well
Just ask for forgiveness
And He will cleanse us out as white as snow!

 

[greenjeans]

just pray for forgivness and I'll pray for you too. your not a failure you just need to lean a little more on God.

 

[apureheart]

A baby is born.

Something is wrong with her.

After a few days she cannot feed herself. She cannot talk. She cannot walk. Why, she ain't even potty-trained.

Is something really wrong with this infant or is this normal?

A christian is born again.

But something is wrong with her.

Even after a few months she has problems that "normal" christians don't.

She finds herself saying things that she knows is wrong.

She is such a failure.

Her words remind me of another failure. His name was David. He wrote these words in Psalm 19...

"Cleanse Thou me of secret faults. Keep back thy servant also from presumptous sins."

David had his faults and struggles. He had his victories. And defeats. But when David sinned he repented. GOD's testimony of David's life was that he had a perfect heart.

A loving parent patiently helps and teaches their child to eat, walk, and talk.

A loving GOD patiently helps and teaches His child to grow in grace.

Snickerdoodle, part of growing in grace is learning to walk with GOD.

When you stumble or fall He does not see your failure but your need. Your tears do not make him angry. They touch His heart.

I See Your Tears

I see your tears
I hear your cries
I know your fears
I understand your whys

And as I came
to comfort and hold
You ran from Me
into the rain and cold

A failure in your eyes
a treasure in Mine
You say you've faded
I see you shine

You are weak
but I am strong
Come home little one
to where you belong

.....peace.....


Snickerdoodle, your Father's love for you is far greater than your failure. You're not a disappointment in His eyes but a delight.

None of us started off perfectly. We had struggles and battles, failures and defeats.

Even many years later I have not attained sinless perfection. But I have a personal relationship with my heavenly Father.

Sometimes He helps me up.

Sometimes He holds my hand.

Sometimes He just picks me up and holds me until my fears and doubts go away.

For years I had a problem with forgiveness for this one person. I had expected so much from this person and they just did not live up to my expectation. By the grace of GOD I finally came to the place where I could from my heart forgive this person. I was that person.

.....peace.....

 

[heymikey80]

I would not have known what coveting really was if the law had not said, "Do not covet." But sin, seizing the opportunity made by the commandment, produced in me every kind of covetous desire. For apart from law, sin is dead.

Once I was alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died. I found that the very commandment that was intended to bring life actually brought death. For sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, deceived me, and through the commandment put me to death.

So then, the law is holy, and the commandment is holy, righteous and good. Did that which is good, then, become death to me? No way! But in order that sin might be recognized as sin, it produced death in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful.

We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. But if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did -- by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering.

Rom 7:7-8:4

 

[snickerdoodle]

I don't know what to say, other than I am so blessed to have you people in my life right now. Thank you for the help, and for the gentle reminders that I am still loved by our Father. Sometimes I don't know exactly where to look in the Bible for comfort, but I'm learning more and more every day.

God bless you all!!